Poll: What should i do?
(Vote): Fuck it, find myself another girl.
(Vote): Turn emo to gain pity.
(Vote): Get back with her and hope everything is normal once again.
(Vote): Forget about her and fuck both of them.
(Vote): Go die.
First things first, when it comes to relationships, I'm a total fucktard. Honestly, every relationship i get into, the pattern goes like:
(1) Meeting girl
(2) Sweet talking
(3) Alot of MSN convos
(4) Go out
(5) Cheers!
(6) Break up after 2 weeks
I'm a decent looking guy...introverted and studious 8) ugh and i totally explode in a relationship and am always the one who breaks hearts. But whatever past is in the past and there's really nothing to do about it except FUCKING LEARN, which i can't seem to FUCKING DO. FUCK!
The issue at hand here is that I've been going out with a girl for 3 months now...well...i was going out with her. I gotta say, this girl makes me feel so different from all the previous ones that i had. We just...get along so damn well it's unbelievable. So then she's in grade 12 and I'm a first year living with my dormmate. About a week ago, i fucking broke up with her..why? I honestly have no fucking clue what the fuck i was doing.
My dormmate (call him Mr.X) and I are sort of like..the flirty type of guys up to no good. So he helped me stage the setting for me to break up...and basically we came up with the plan that I always hang out with another girl. On the same night, Mr.X was having a convo with my ex- (Ms. Y), and everything went according to plan..and i told her, half-dizzyly, that my feeling for her has died (which is not true), so she told me it was over and told me to have a nice life. Oh man, this line just completely blew me away. My old self would just shrug this off and pretend no shit has happened. But for the rest of the week I've been tormented by this line. Then I realized something...i really really love her..and want to spend my life with her.
So then, I asked her to give me another chance (telling her i miss her and she means the whole world to me, which is goddamn true as hell). She replies: "I need some time to think it over." (Which i assume to be the answer "no you wont get a chance.", opinions guys?)
HOW-FUCKING-EVER, I found out that Mr.X, using my sherlock holmes skills, that this son of a gun has been talking to Ms.Y ALOTLOTLOT on msn, and even SKYPED. They even talked on the phone until it literally exploded (and the phone bill as well). She would hide in the school bathroom JUST TO HAVE A PHONE CONVO with him. So i naturally wtf'ed. But Mr.X has a gf TOO! (altho he said he doesnt really like her).
So tonight will be the night where everything will be revealed. Ms.Y said to me that I have to be online cuz apparently she will make her final decision tonight O_O
Btw i suspect something is going on between X and Y... there's no fucking way a girl would go over her phone bill to talk to a guy she barely knows.
Here is my breakdown of what will happen tonight and in the near future:
(1) She gets back with me, and talk alot to him (makes me jealous), possibility of cheating???
(2) She gets back with me, Mr.X stays together with his gf
(3) She gets back with me, Mr.X breaks up with his gf. Possibility of cheating again between X and Y.
(4) She doesnt get back with me, Mr.X stays with his gf.
(5) She doesnt get back with me, Mr.X breaks up with his gf and go out with Ms.Y to confirm my suspicions.
Sigh, i really love this girl and i don't want to lose her.. ;'( so...guys...any suggestions or insights on the situation? and what should i do?