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I've been doing great over the last month. My urge to self-harm is all but gone and the drugs I was taking (venlafaxine) are now out of my system. No longer am I having delusions or thoughts of death. I've lost friends in this experience. I lost my best friend. He told me I was a selfish idiot, that he didn't care if I died, and as torn up as I am about that I realized there were a lot of people in my life that didn't understand what I was going through and that I needed to cut the negativity out of my life.
I'm still a bit lonely. A lot lonely, but I'm content. I'm in a great relationship right now, starting school soon, looking for work instead of moping around, I think things are starting to turn around. I've picked up some bad habits (I've started smoking to replace drinking/cutting) but I feel fine.
So I know a lot of people have sent me PM's and worried and I didn't respond to many. My inbox was pretty much bombed and I read a lot of what people sent me and it meant a lot so I just want to thank everybody who showed concern. I'm doing fine. I'll probably play mafia again here soon. I'd even say I'm pretty happy right now.
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great to hear that you're doing better.
A friend who doesn't care about your wellbeing isn't a good friend, so good riddance, i'd say.
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we had been growing apart and his reaction to my suffering for years was just to mock me really i should have seen it coming
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Welcome back!
Long road ahead, but we are all sure you can walk it.
Good luck mate
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so great to hear that you're better, :D:D:D love ya bro keep going
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Straight outta Johto18973 Posts
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Oh wow first time I heard about this. I'm glad you're better man! The universe is stock full of potential and possibility, your future is gonna be awesome!
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Oh thank god you're okay. Glad to have you back. :D
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Thanks for the great news. :D You are my favorite font. I like your blogs too.
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Austin10831 Posts
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That is very great news DH. Something uplifting to do if you're lonely or bored is listen to good music really loud, or watch documentaries that make you feel good about the world. You know I've got enough of both to get you started; just ask
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Stop watching all those horror flicks, dude.
Great to hear you're doing well.
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On July 28 2011 10:30 tonight wrote: Stop watching all those horror flicks, dude.
Great to hear you're doing well. part of what has made me happier was that i've been watching more horror films!!!!!!! i love them they make me happy it isn't depressing at all
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Super nice to hear you have positive attitude now.
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Oh man I'm glad to hear you're doing better, I was actually really worried when I read that other blog you wrote.
Always enjoyed reading your articles when I was still lurking btw, good stuff.
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Glad to hear your update :D.
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