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nimysa
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
United States383 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-11-05 02:16:15
November 05 2009 02:15 GMT
#1
I feel alone, I'm 18 and I can't seem to connect with anyone. I don't know why but whenever someone tries to interact with me in a socially fun way I immediately become nervous and draw an imaginary boundary between me and that person. I am not a good conversationalist either, and I can't make complicated jokes that that most other guys are so good at. I also sometimes hate people for no reasons or just for small reasons. What can I do?

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SanguineToss
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
Canada815 Posts
November 05 2009 02:18 GMT
#2
omegle.com
JohnColtrane
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
Australia4813 Posts
November 05 2009 02:18 GMT
#3
become a hermit
HEY MEYT
Snet *
Profile Blog Joined September 2006
United States3573 Posts
November 05 2009 02:19 GMT
#4
Take it step by step. The more you socialize the easier it becomes. You can't expect that magical word of advice from someone that fixes everything, just get out there and start getting some experience.
wok
Profile Blog Joined July 2009
United States504 Posts
November 05 2009 02:20 GMT
#5
Welcome to my life. Waste time photoshopping stupid images and post them here hoping, fruitlessly, for a lulz somewhere in the vast expanse of the internets.
Then when refreshing the page a few hundred times yields no satisfactory response, resume the hopeless situation that is a 10-page paper due tomorrow.

Fuck, I better get started.
I'll race you to defeatism... you win.
kidd
Profile Blog Joined November 2002
United States2848 Posts
November 05 2009 02:20 GMT
#6
I truely believe that if you learn to convince yourself that you are actually not that bad of a person and that you have something to offer to others then the rest will come naturally.

Chances are you aren't even as bad and lonely as you perceive and changing your style of thinking will reflect that.
Hi
KurtistheTurtle
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
United States1966 Posts
November 05 2009 02:20 GMT
#7
Do it in chunks, a little every day. Increase the amount every week.
“Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears."
CaucasianAsian
Profile Blog Joined September 2005
Korea (South)11575 Posts
November 05 2009 02:21 GMT
#8
get a job where you are forced to interact with people, like a cashier or a waiter. maybe at a subway or quiznos where it's simple easy chit-chat that you are forced to do for like 5 min. max
Calendar@ Fish Server: `iOps]..Stark
JohnColtrane
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
Australia4813 Posts
November 05 2009 02:22 GMT
#9
youll be fine once you get more comfortable. just loosen up, it doesnt matter if you make a fool of yourself
HEY MEYT
DeathSpank
Profile Blog Joined February 2009
United States1029 Posts
November 05 2009 02:22 GMT
#10
stop caring. Your life will change.
yes.
phosphorylation
Profile Blog Joined July 2009
United States2935 Posts
November 05 2009 02:23 GMT
#11
get good at something..really good
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PH
Profile Blog Joined June 2008
United States6173 Posts
November 05 2009 02:24 GMT
#12
Getting a job helps a lot, like CaucasionAsian said. You don't even need to work as a cashier or waiter (those kinds of jobs generally are for people with experience only, or you need to work up to it for at least several months). Simply being somewhere where you need to interact with other people (your coworkers) will help.
Hello
chobopeon
Profile Blog Joined May 2003
United States7342 Posts
November 05 2009 02:26 GMT
#13
join a club or get a job. give yourself social obligations and things will improve.
:O
Ilikestarcraft
Profile Blog Joined November 2004
Korea (South)17726 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-11-05 02:38:08
November 05 2009 02:31 GMT
#14
meet me ^^
"Nana is a goddess. Or at very least, Nana is my goddess." - KazeHydra
dasanivan
Profile Blog Joined June 2008
United States532 Posts
November 05 2009 02:36 GMT
#15
I agree with PH; get a job involving interaction with people. You just need practice interacting with people. Practice can help you get better at almost anything.
Whiplash
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
United States2928 Posts
November 05 2009 02:37 GMT
#16
a club or your job is your best bet. make sure the club is something your passionate about.
Cinematographer / Steadicam Operator. Former Starcraft commentator/player
Equaoh
Profile Joined October 2008
Canada427 Posts
November 05 2009 02:38 GMT
#17
The most complicated jokes I make with my friends involve making funny faces and going olololololol. You should relax and you'll see you're as capable of connecting with people as anyone else - it's all in your head.
meeple
Profile Blog Joined April 2009
Canada10211 Posts
November 05 2009 02:48 GMT
#18
On November 05 2009 11:31 Ilikestarcraft wrote:
meet me ^^


how is it possible that you have quint-digit posts and a scv as your icon?

to OP: introverted people are all around you... basically find something that makes you happy. Sports/clubs/starcraft... it doesn't matter too much that you're not social... lots of people aren't.
Kyuukyuu
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
Canada6263 Posts
November 05 2009 02:49 GMT
#19
On November 05 2009 11:38 Equaoh wrote:
The most complicated jokes I make with my friends involve making funny faces and going olololololol.


wtf rofl
cunninglinguists
Profile Blog Joined November 2008
United States925 Posts
November 05 2009 02:50 GMT
#20
i think its weird that although i have a lot of "friends," i dont have a lot of friends.
Ingenol
Profile Blog Joined November 2008
United States1328 Posts
November 05 2009 03:02 GMT
#21
I agree with the people saying join clubs/get a job. This becomes much more difficult as you get older, so best to begin now to get practice and develop a core group of contacts. I've always been a bit of a loner, but now that I work from home and am older (27), it's incredibly difficult for me to meet new people and make friends.
Pawsom
Profile Blog Joined February 2009
United States928 Posts
November 05 2009 03:05 GMT
#22
Buy cheeseburgers for hobos!

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hehehe
cunninglinguists
Profile Blog Joined November 2008
United States925 Posts
November 05 2009 03:06 GMT
#23
but seriously, omegle it up.

omegle.com

just learn how to socialize properly and then be able to emulate it in real life.
Mickey
Profile Blog Joined July 2005
United States2606 Posts
November 05 2009 03:09 GMT
#24
Like people have stated, take it one step at a time. I often feel lonely, as It's hard to make friends at my school. I consider myself easy going and easy to talk to, but I just feel that most people are so vain or superficial that sometimes I don't even want to continue a conversation with them.

Just use small talk and eventually you'll find people with similar hobbies, etc..
MeriaDoKk
Profile Blog Joined July 2007
Chile1726 Posts
November 05 2009 03:11 GMT
#25
Get a job, earn money, hate people, thats life.
RebirthOfLeGenD
Profile Blog Joined November 2008
USA5860 Posts
November 05 2009 03:20 GMT
#26
aw man it happens to all of us. Its not an instant process like snet said. A job would definitely help, not caring what people think is also really helpful.

Oh one word of advice, it is almost always better to say something retarded then say nothing at all.
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Medzo
Profile Blog Joined June 2009
United States627 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-11-05 03:22:29
November 05 2009 03:21 GMT
#27
There are different meanings for "feeling alone" so you might want to define what it is you're thinking or feeling. Do you feel alone because no one can relate to your ideas or beliefs? Do you feel alone because you don't know how to interact with people? Do you feel alone because you do not have as many friends as you would like?

A good way to feeling less alone is just more social interaction. So it sounds like you're uncomfortable talking to strangers. Bad news for you is that the only way to be comfortable talking with strangers is to go out there and do it. Good news is that it honestly doesn't matter what happens when you talk to a stranger, because they are a stranger.

Here is some conversation tips. Learn how to ask questions. For me the most interesting thing when talking to someone is to let them tell you about their life or something interesting, rather than speaking on behalf of yourself. Most people like to talk about themselves too. If you have something to say then its good to know your audience, like when talking to someone sensitive (women, some men) be sure to tell them how you felt. Or if you're talking to someone logical be sure to explain your reasons. Minor things like this can make a difference in your conversations.

Just go out and practice and find communication patterns that work. Being good at conversation is an art, it takes practice, it is not all natural.

And don't bother with omegle, without body language or the fear of rejection it is pointless, and not to mention half the people are looking for cyber sex.
d_so
Profile Blog Joined December 2007
Korea (South)3262 Posts
November 05 2009 03:23 GMT
#28
here i am a teacher at a junior high /high school and im surrounded by teachers my age who i can converse relate with etc but i fucking just WANT TO BE ALONE i don't want to be ur friends goddamit i just want to do my job go home eat play games sleep repeat stop trying to build relationships with me u twats.

maybe you'll turn out like me in a few years lol i dont know if that's a good thing or not.
manner
Sea.YachtNavy
Profile Blog Joined November 2009
Andorra5 Posts
November 05 2009 03:28 GMT
#29
--- Nuked ---
DoctorHelvetica
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
United States15034 Posts
November 05 2009 03:29 GMT
#30
I have crippling social anxiety. I am extremely shy in person and find it really hard to make friends. I have 1 maybe 2 friends total and that trend has continued my whole life. I'm not incredibly close with them either, I don't want to be a loner though.

Shit sucks.

Force yourself to be in situations where you can meet people, I guess. Takes more courage than I have.
RIP Aaliyah
d_so
Profile Blog Joined December 2007
Korea (South)3262 Posts
November 05 2009 03:30 GMT
#31
^ maybe you'd have more friends if you didn't steal articles
manner
DoctorHelvetica
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
United States15034 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-11-05 03:37:19
November 05 2009 03:33 GMT
#32
On November 05 2009 12:30 d_so wrote:
^ maybe you'd have more friends if you didn't steal articles


what? Every single article I've posted was all my writing. If I've written on similar topics or have assimilated thoughts from other articles into my own arguments that is irrelevant.
RIP Aaliyah
Chill
Profile Blog Joined January 2005
Calgary25977 Posts
November 05 2009 03:34 GMT
#33
come to korea lol
Moderator
TheAntZ
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
Israel6248 Posts
November 05 2009 03:42 GMT
#34
I would hug you but, you know, I dont know where you are
43084 | Honeybadger: "So july, you're in the GSL finals. How do you feel?!" ~ July: "HUNGRY."
onmach
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
United States1241 Posts
November 05 2009 03:50 GMT
#35
In my experience, anxieties are due to uncertainty. You don't know what is going to happen so you fear it, so you don't do it, so it remains uncertain.

If I were to give you advice, and man I wish I'd had this advice when I was younger, as soon as you notice any situation makes you nervous when you know logically it shouldn't bother you, or that people do it all the time, you should force yourself to do it. I don't care what it is.

As an example, an anxiety a lot of people have is the gym. They'll do anything to get into shape as long as they don't have to do it in front of people. They think they'll be made fun of, even though logically that's stupid and it won't happen. But your head won't really believe that until it sees it for itself.

Another example, if you tend to not talk to people in class, do it. Say anything. Ask about a homework assignment due date, comment on his laptop, whatever. He'll tell you the due date and that'll be that. If by some miracle the guy tells you to fuck off, then that's it, that's the worst possible repercussion and you survived. Onto the next challenge.

Dance in a crazy dance club. Ride a motorcycle. Jump out of a plane. No wait, don't do that last one that's crazy.
ShaperofDreams
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
Canada2492 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-11-05 03:55:20
November 05 2009 03:54 GMT
#36
Hmm, I have no real problems socializing but I only enjoy it sometimes, the rest of the time I mildly dislike it or want to do something else.

But yeah just remember that everybody is self concious and that you don't have to be the worlds funniest guy, just act relaxed and in control and expand from there.

edit: btw I'm the same age as you, also ~18
Bitches don't know about my overlord. FUCK OFF ALDARIS I HAVE ENOUGH PYLONS. My Balls are as smooth as Eggs.
Ghardo
Profile Blog Joined September 2004
Germany1685 Posts
November 05 2009 03:57 GMT
#37
unless you're just a little bit emo you don't seem to be very satisfied with your situation.

you can't totally change your personality just like that and at once be the social baller like some users on this board pretend to be *hehe* (this shouldn't sound disheartening, try to begin with the thought that most of it is only in your head/not necessary) so try to tweak the circumstances so that you are overall a more satisfied person.

it's hard to make a list for that matter, but try what honesttea pointedly wrote in the thread about relationships - this may partly apply here too (minus point 2):

On October 19 2009 13:23 HonestTea wrote:
Answer to all these questions:

BECOME A BETTER MAN

Make sure you are as much as a gentleman you can be.

Get haircuts regularly, clothes perfectly ironed, class and work before time, open doors and pull out chairs for all women, exercise daily, read the Times and Journal everyday, always have an interesting book you're reading, spend QT with friends and family, savings and investments in order, practice your second language weekly, volunteer at least once a month, keep your car and house clean, wardrobe immaculate... and no turning hoes into housewives.

Be happy with who you are, but never be satisfied



1. Be a better man (I believe PUA people call this "inner game"),
2. know what kind of person you want,
3. don't be afraid of meeting people and keeping a wide and open social life,
4. and things will happen when they happen.

Now close this fucking thread.


i mean that for example the nervousness is not a product of itself but that there are other factors in your life that make you dissatisfied (like laziness in school/university/work, sports, - little to no motivation to get things done E.G.) and if you work on these and better them, that your overall satisfaction would automatically sweep away the obstacles you seem to see in social situations (because you take it all easier, without thinking too much).

that's at least what i observed when i felt happier and had nothing depressing on my mind, that most things would come naturally to me..

whatev, hf
illu
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
Canada2531 Posts
November 05 2009 03:59 GMT
#38
You are just 18......
:]
Pengu1n
Profile Blog Joined October 2004
United States552 Posts
November 05 2009 04:06 GMT
#39
alcohol!
Zapdos_Smithh
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
Canada2620 Posts
November 05 2009 04:07 GMT
#40
On November 05 2009 12:34 Chill wrote:
come to korea lol


that made me lol for some reason
alexpnd
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
Canada1857 Posts
November 05 2009 04:36 GMT
#41
I tried omegle.

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Phyre
Profile Blog Joined December 2006
United States1288 Posts
November 05 2009 04:43 GMT
#42
I found talking to random people on my long train rides to work to be a good way to boost my social skills. Or at least my confidence in talking to random people, which is always good.

May sound really obvious but having confidence and being happy with yourself make social interaction easier. I found that during the stage of my life where I was worst at talking to people was when I had a very poor perception of myself. I felt weak, ugly, stupid, and generally inferior to most of my peers. Constantly felt jealous of what other people had.

Changed that when I went to college. Stopped caring what other people thought of me and just did what I felt like doing. Oddly enough, after I stopped caring about girls I got a girlfriend because she approached me. Confidence paid off and lead to more confidence. Started working out more, dressing better, etc but not with the mindset that others would perceive me better but with the mindset that I was only improving for me. So I could look in the mirror and be happy with myself.

Be happy with yourself and that confidence coupled with your lack of caring what others think will make you feel drastically better. For me it became a snowball effect and it lead me to self improve more and more.
"Oh no, I got you with your pants... on your face... That's not how you wear pants." - Nintu, catching 1 hatch lurks.
zulu_nation8
Profile Blog Joined May 2005
China26351 Posts
November 05 2009 04:49 GMT
#43
can start by not blogging about it
YPang
Profile Blog Joined April 2007
United States4024 Posts
November 05 2009 04:52 GMT
#44
On November 05 2009 13:49 zulu_nation8 wrote:
can start by not blogging about it

wrong, first thing to change something is recognize it needs to be changed, and there's nothing better than doing that by letting others know.

Unless you're trolling...... -,-
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daz
Profile Blog Joined May 2008
Canada643 Posts
November 05 2009 05:18 GMT
#45
i recommend heroes of newerth
Some eat to remember, some smash to forget. 2009msl.com
alexpnd
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
Canada1857 Posts
November 05 2009 05:26 GMT
#46
On November 05 2009 14:18 daz wrote:
i recommend heroes of newerth


wtf. hermit to hermit advice? alright.
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daz
Profile Blog Joined May 2008
Canada643 Posts
November 05 2009 05:28 GMT
#47
On November 05 2009 14:26 alexpnd wrote:
Show nested quote +
On November 05 2009 14:18 daz wrote:
i recommend heroes of newerth


wtf. hermit to hermit advice? alright.


if your gonna be a hermit might as well have fun while you're at it
Some eat to remember, some smash to forget. 2009msl.com
zekie
Profile Blog Joined April 2008
Canada380 Posts
November 05 2009 05:58 GMT
#48
On November 05 2009 11:20 kidd wrote:
I truely believe that if you learn to convince yourself that you are actually not that bad of a person and that you have something to offer to others then the rest will come naturally.

Chances are you aren't even as bad and lonely as you perceive and changing your style of thinking will reflect that.


i completely agree with what kidd wrote.

just be confident with who you are and if people don't like you for who you are it doesn't matter because eventually you will find those people if you just keep looking.
fixbayonets
Profile Joined October 2009
United States10 Posts
November 05 2009 05:59 GMT
#49
Start drinking. Works wonders.
wok
Profile Blog Joined July 2009
United States504 Posts
November 05 2009 06:06 GMT
#50
Don't start drinking. Your first sip of alcohol lowers your IQ by 30 points. PERMANENTLY.
I'll race you to defeatism... you win.
OMin
Profile Blog Joined August 2007
United States545 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-11-05 06:22:17
November 05 2009 06:21 GMT
#51
i think this might interest you

"I honestly wasn't sure what to expect once I started college life.

I knew I'd probably start buying a lot of things, sleeping really late, do things whenever I wanted, and stuff like that was all true. But I had no idea what to expect in terms of friends and relationships I would form.

Here's some self-evaluation:
I'm a nerdy guy... but on the cooler side of nerd-dom. I'm not antisocial, but on the other hand, I'm pretty strange.... I don't watch sports, I don't listen to popular music, I act pretty gay, I'm an asian metalhead, and I'm bad at talking to people.... which leads me to this..

One thing about me is I don't like talking to people without being prepared... I hate having to make phone calls, I hate having to ask for favors, I hate running into situations where I have to talk to somebody, whether I know them or not, without me knowing what I need to talk about... I don't know what it is.. maybe my brain just thinks slow, maybe I'm trying too hard, maybe talking just isn't my thing, but I tend to make awkward conversations. I'm really bad at getting beyond small talk... I mean, who the fuck wants to talk about classes or school, and you cant keep asking people where theyre from or what year in school theyre in every time you see them. And the fact that I don't keep up with TV shows and mainstream music doesn't help at all.... I'm left of the loop when pop culture comes up, because I don't really dig that stuff.... forcing myself to watch and listen to things I don't like seems really fake and sort of like a desperate measure in trying to fit.

I can say that I try to be myself, and I guess this is what this blog is about. Yet sometimes it's so hard to be true to yourself.... I feel that so many of my tendencies and quirks keep me from fitting in. There's the choice to conform/affect your personality and fit in, or theres the choice to be yourself and go down in the social ladder. On the outside, I'm obnoxious, rowdy and say nasty things. That's naturally a part of me, and probably how a lot of people see me. But I also have a different side that many people haven't seen or even know about. I know I'm a pretty introverted person. I have a lot of thoughts, but I feel they are private, and even when I do feel like conveying them, I don't know how to say it... which I guess goes back to the fact that I'm bad at talking to people. Very often, when I'm around people, sometimes even if they're people that I know, I want to be alone. I don't want to deal with having to try so hard to not look/be/act awkward, whether it's saying the right/wrong thing, saying too much/too little, a matter of what it is I say, where I'm standing/sitting in terms of other people, my posture, my expression... like what the fuck!!?? I think the fact that I know I'm not the best talker makes me so self-conscious about all these things. But when I try not to be self conscious and do whatever, the usual result is people giving me the "awkwarddd" look... thought there have been sparse and few good responses from it as well. So I guess this is a matter of fitting in and having an affected outer apperance versus being true to yourself and being the weird guy.

Thus no doubt I hate being around people I don't know. It's easy enough in class or something everyday like that. But say... parties... I enjoy parties for the having fun factor. But at the same time, being at a frat is about fitting in... it's a test of how "cool" you are. The comedians, the popular people, the badasses, the good dancers, etc. have it good here.... in fact this is probably how they have those reputations to start with. Such people, if they happen to be reading this, might be kind of laughing at me and my struggle, because I'm none of the above. Thus, when I'm at a frat, I feel like it's a test for me... the pressure's on me to not look awkward, to not look like a loser, to not look like the first-timer freshman.... a test of "fitting in". And the fact that "fitting in" at a party means talking with random ass people you don't even know, it's that much worse for me. A party would be so much more fun to me if I didn't stress about all this, but it's not that simple. It's a battle between being me and being conformed to fit in at a party... which frankly isn't me at all.

Thus, this kind of fulfills the paradox: being alone in a sea of people. Even though I try to stay true to myself, I'm only human and have the inevitable need and desire to fit in, which leads me to try and put on a fake image in hopes of getting acceptance. Thus, my level of "fitting in" at a party is a direct measurement of how well that's working. But in the end, it's a loss loss situation. A good day (night) at a frat party means I'll be happy that I was able to fit in well, consequently boosting my ego.... but only to realize later that I was just being a total fake. A bad day at a frat will depress me, making me wonder why I'm so deficient and unaccepted in society's eyes, restrengthening the awareness of my insecurities. Not that I'm antisocial or anything... but I know that I sort of am a loner. Why is it so hard to just be me? How come being socially accepted and being myself have to always be opposing each other?

Thus, I feel that most of the new relationships I have made with people I met and associate with in college have mostly been shallow and superficial. I find myself alone in my room more often than I feel is for a "socially normal" person, partly for lack of meaningful relationships. I feel I don't connect with people very well in general, partly because I don't keep up with pop culture, partly because I am bad at talking to people, and I don't know what else. I'm glad I do have friends back from San Diego to turn to when I need it, but I feel that associating with only them too often is cowardly, shy, and parochial.

time is running out as i need to get to work, so i guess this will end here. I have been adverse to posting anything like this on facebook as it just seems like attention whoring... but that's not my intention. No doubt I want people to read it, but I'm not doing this to get sympathy or something lame like that. I think it's not good for me to barrel all this up inside of me as I have been doing so for so long.... I've always hated to burden other people with my own problems. But I said to someone the other day that sometimes you gotta forget about other people for a minute to stand up for yourself... and I am doing so right now. So, please excuse this outburst of selfishness , I feel I really need it, and deserve it for all the times I held it in. It feels really good to just tell/admit to the whole world about this wholly different aspect of me that they couldn't see. It will help me in my journey to discover who I am, so it's all for a good cause!

k, i really gotta go now... if you made it this far in this note, thanks for having the concern to do so... i hope you got a little something out of this "
Revolt
Profile Blog Joined January 2007
United States288 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-11-05 06:28:29
November 05 2009 06:23 GMT
#52
this shouldnt be important, you can't find happiness in others; you have to be happy with yourself, or else any relationship wont be compatible.

the way i socialize, i basically see everyone as a brother,sister , i don't really believe in family positions(it's just a way to describe how i interact.)

be candit with people, ask them about their day, be sincere,truely.

it's kindve hard to give advice without clarifications.

Why do you want to interact? i find people pretty annoying sometimes.

oh btw, if your only examples of people with good social skills who talk, or 'appear' to have good social skills, often DON'T have good social skills.
Having good social skills doesn't mean conversationwise,well,nvm(you were talking about being a conversationalist in your op)

just learn relationship skills, you don't have to be friends with everyone, if you get a bad side to a conversation, it's not your fault, it's the othersides fault for being a jerk.


i actually use to be the same as the op.
whenever i went to the market, or anywhere in general, i tried to make friends, and thought about ways in my head(conversations, etc.)
when i found out people can't make me happy, i was actually a good person to be around,every conversation i had seemed appealing to others.
just be happy with yourself, and don't be a cynicist about your social skills, people often do want to talk, or don't (it's usually those individuals who are never happy, and are occupied with social positions.)
just be yourself man, everything will be okay
A depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity.
Hypnosis
Profile Blog Joined October 2007
United States2061 Posts
November 05 2009 06:27 GMT
#53
lololololollllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll i love Tl blog section.
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Always
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
United States376 Posts
November 05 2009 06:30 GMT
#54
not sure if this is a joke or not....

but if it isn't, and you want to get out of your shell, you can try to search for other introverts. it might be a little tough, but if you really want to get out there, you have to get out there. there's no easy cure-all for this. things like friendship are born out of initiative. people aren't going to come knocking on your dorm door / house door asking for you to hang out with them. =)

no harm in trying!
"Do unto others 20% better than you would expect them to do unto you, to correct for subjective error." - Linus Pauling
Grobyc
Profile Blog Joined June 2008
Canada18410 Posts
November 05 2009 06:42 GMT
#55
On November 05 2009 13:06 Pengu1n wrote:
alcohol!

and weed!

and
On November 05 2009 13:07 resonance wrote:
Show nested quote +
On November 05 2009 12:34 Chill wrote:
come to korea lol


that made me lol for some reason

If you watch Godzilla backwards it's about a benevolent lizard who helps rebuild a city and then moonwalks into the ocean.
OMin
Profile Blog Joined August 2007
United States545 Posts
November 05 2009 07:22 GMT
#56
On November 05 2009 15:42 Grobyc wrote:
Show nested quote +
On November 05 2009 13:06 Pengu1n wrote:
alcohol!

and weed!

and
Show nested quote +
On November 05 2009 13:07 resonance wrote:
On November 05 2009 12:34 Chill wrote:
come to korea lol


that made me lol for some reason


thanks for giving him temporary ways to escape, and thus avoid resolving, his problem. I don't have a problem with smoking/drinking for fun, but to as a way to solve your personal issues... get a fucking hold of your life bro.
Grobyc
Profile Blog Joined June 2008
Canada18410 Posts
November 05 2009 07:27 GMT
#57
calm down yo. no need to be judgmental. I wasn't even being serious lol.

And in my experience, I don't use them to "get away" from problems, they just bring out the more social side of me. I used to be extremely shy before as well, but now i actually am pretty outgoing, even when I'm not high/drunk at the moment.
If you watch Godzilla backwards it's about a benevolent lizard who helps rebuild a city and then moonwalks into the ocean.
blue_arrow
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
1971 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-11-05 07:36:42
November 05 2009 07:35 GMT
#58
Discipline your emotions and allow the stratagems of the mind to consume your world.
| MLIA | the weather sucks dick here
pubbanana
Profile Blog Joined June 2005
United States3063 Posts
November 05 2009 07:40 GMT
#59
On November 05 2009 14:59 fixbayonets wrote:
Start drinking. Works wonders.


It worked for me. Seriously.
Wachet, stehet im Glauben, seid männlich und seid stark.
DarkYoDA
Profile Blog Joined September 2005
United States1347 Posts
November 05 2009 07:44 GMT
#60
I take it you know the difference between being alone and being lonely base on your post... Because I wanted to say stay surrounded with friends but you are already surrounded with friends, it's more of a state of mind that's troubling you.

Just learn to enjoy the company of your friends instead of thinking there's a need for you to be the "joke" cracker or the blood of the group and so on. I mean within my group of 7 good friends, I think easily tell you like 3 of them just get "tugged" along with occasional suggestions on what to do and where to go. That's good enough, we enjoy one anothers' company and friendship regardless the type of socially complex contributions involved.

Anyway I have seasons with many friends and comparing now and then, it's considerably more boring now because of working and studies and stuff, but I don't really have the "I'm lonely" feeling and is perfectly happy with my box and laptop on. I am sure alone but not lonely, I say your problem is psychological. The last thing you want to do now is feel too much about your inadequacy in these so-called more interesting and complex contributions and go into withdrawal mode and dampen your friendships, which would of course be entirely unnecessary.
It's a comedy to claim thy superiority when it's anothers' inferiority which elevated thy mediocrity
Loanshark
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
China3094 Posts
November 05 2009 11:17 GMT
#61
Just try to act normal, like yourself. Purposely trying to cast yourself off as laid back or energetic or spontaneous doesn't work unless you actually are.
No dough, no go. And no mercy.
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