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FuDDx
United States5006 Posts
Hey hey Fellow Teamliquidians!!
Ohh crazy world we live in no? Patton Oswald summed it up pretty well I thought (referring to bombings and "evil" in general) You can look it up yourselves...
This world is the most awesome and scare mixture of ideas, ideals and people all trying to co-exist and make the piece they occupy a bit better... or do they? I swear despite my ego and all my personal failings and shortcomings I try I really do...
What do I want to be remembered by? I guess more importantly what do you want? And then equally as important is once wanted how to achieve that no? Should it be hard? Should it be worked at or given easily, loopholes, shortcuts free rides?.....
I sometimes hate this road but honestly I think its the only one that's going to work for me the only way I am going to learn any different and actually remember it...The only way I can and will actually appreciate all that I stand on. I want to be there I want to command a legion of balloons.... I want to shamefully have fame for something I love to do... It makes me feel a bit dirty saying so... Despite growing up wanting to be under the radar... un-watched unnoticed I want to scream out and be noticed now....I am changing and it scares me will I lose myself will I be loved....
I still want everyone to be one smile richer or more for having met me I want fame from smiles for laughter for living... I want memory's not money...At least not more than I need to keep sharing and spreading a little joy...
I hope that in every single person on this planet has a little joy to share a little smile or laugh in shared company. We all are good at some point to someone...I hope.
My children... How can I make into words the perfection I see in them... compounded I am sure by the fact that they are way smarter than I am... Way more caring way more hopeful, less jaded. The most important thing I will ever do in this world is in those two lights of wonder.... I wish you all the joy the amazing wonder that is being a parent ... to only imagine is to not know..
Its hard to see the darkness in the world surrounded by all this good and yet...Why do I feel the dark all around.... A world in a constant flip flop .... Anything can be argued anything can be won and anything is taken...
But that witch is given...is that not the ultimate in trust in hope in faithfulness.... given that is with no thought of return That is the ultimate in humanity compassion I want to be compassionate I want to be giving I want to love you all.... And yet I hate, envy, covet eatch and everyone one of you.... why?
I feel like I am heading in the right direction I just haven't found any roads, or any paths....I certainly have yet to find where it is I am going... But I hope too and at no cost too you.
(disclaimer I hardly ever reread my posts they are as I feel at the time,My feelings are often changing, but often heading the same direction. Often hard to find coherent I know, but I try to be as honest as I can in everything I do can you say the same? )
If you happen to be looking for some balloons all the current pics I have a spread around in post of mine follow the posts or just Like Balloon Man FuDD on facespace!!!
Edit: I dont care what you say but The Heist is the best album(as in everysong rocks) I have heard in a long time (Macklemore and Lewis)
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On April 17 2013 05:53 FuDDx wrote: My children... How can I make into words the perfection I see in them... compounded I am sure by the fact that they are way smarter than I am... Way more caring way more hopeful, less jaded. The most important thing I will ever do in this world is in those two lights of wonder.... I wish you all the joy the amazing wonder that is being a parent ... to only imagine is to not know..
wow, really touching and amazing but this part really made me smile
5/5
i would give this blog 6/5, but -1 for no pictures.
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FuDDx
United States5006 Posts
Thank you Snively Should have wrote no Pictures and One reply !! hahah
My kids <3
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Your kids are lucky to have such a loving father! They may not realize it now but they will know that you've given them more love than balloon creations! (That's not much for most of us, but with the amount of balloons you made... That's quiet a lot!)
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the heist is probably the best album as a whole ive ever heard!
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Baltimore, USA22247 Posts
Awesome read as always FuDDx! And I'll allow the lack of pics since you left one in my birthday thread.
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only reason I try to better myself as a poster on TL is because someday I hope to get a birthday balloon from FuDDx
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Fuck yes the macklemore album is AMAZING.
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I clicked expecting balloon making video - but enjoyed the read. + Show Spoiler +also yes I know every word to thirft shop! its too damn good!
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On April 17 2013 14:38 TheKefka wrote: only reason I try to better myself as a poster on TL is because someday I hope to get a birthday balloon from FuDDx
Ha ha ha. :D
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On April 18 2013 03:53 StarStruck wrote:Show nested quote +On April 17 2013 14:38 TheKefka wrote: only reason I try to better myself as a poster on TL is because someday I hope to get a birthday balloon from FuDDx Ha ha ha. :D I don't think I'll ever get to that standard
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FuDDx
United States5006 Posts
Even if you do not have a thread If I see your name I have been trying to at least send a picture (usually an old one, sorry) in pm form. So best bet just bump my most current blog with on your birthday and Ill get ya!!
Edit: or just pm me hey its my bday hahha!!
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TLADT24920 Posts
such a well written post lol. I like the write style, as if you're speaking to us 5/5 ^^
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On April 17 2013 05:53 FuDDx wrote:
Edit: I dont care what you say but The Heist is the best album(as in everysong rocks) I have heard in a long time (Macklemore and Lewis)
Neon Cathedrals is one of the best songs of the year. So is Same Love. So is Wing$. So is Starting Over.
Oh God it's such a good album.
That being said, I don't like Cowboy Boots, and I'm ambivalent about Gold and Castle.
Also you're like... rull good at writing.
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I'm definitely at least a few smiles richer for having known you FuDDx. (Or for having known OF you... on the internet )
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I respect you a lot.
I still want everyone to be one smile richer or more for having met me I want fame from smiles for laughter for living... I want memory's not money...At least not more than I need to keep sharing and spreading a little joy...
My children... How can I make into words the perfection I see in them... compounded I am sure by the fact that they are way smarter than I am... Way more caring way more hopeful, less jaded. The most important thing I will ever do in this world is in those two lights of wonder.... I wish you all the joy the amazing wonder that is being a parent ... to only imagine is to not know..
It might be bit early for a drink, but cheers to you. I love your balloon work, also!
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FuDDx
United States5006 Posts
Thank you all!! As silly as it sounds it, these words you write mean so much to me! Thank you.
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On April 19 2013 01:05 FuDDx wrote: Thank you all!! As silly as it sounds it, these words you write mean so much to me! Thank you.
No, no. Thank you for being an awesome possum! My b-day is pretty easy to remember because DJWheat and I share the same day.
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So much respect for you
And YES, I love The Heist a lot too :D
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