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Aerisky
United States12128 Posts
Also Integra that is a dark, dark story...wow :X | ||
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Kuni
Austria765 Posts
As long as you don't ruin your body or your mind, the rest is not really that important. | ||
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Scarecrow
Korea (South)9172 Posts
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alwinuz
Netherlands77 Posts
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don_kyuhote
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eSen1a
Australia1058 Posts
2. start going to the gym 3. once you finish your masters, go travel don't waste another 10 years in uni. just go out and do something. always be positive | ||
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DanielHetberg
141 Posts
When you're down emotionally, it's easy to see the worst aspects in everything and it seems like nothing in your life is good or makes sense. Give yourself the time to get over it, and meanwhile continue doing what you did before to the best of your ability. Chances are, your decision to start doing that wasn't all that idiotic (most of the time, one doesn't make bad decisions, given the available information). The (sad?) truth is, your life is of course drastically influenced by what you did ten, five or two years ago and now you have exactly one chance of making the best of it, and making your peace with the choices you made in the past. I suggest reading Ken Grimwood's "Replay" in that context, it moved me quite deeply and made me realize a couple of things about my own life. | ||
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bobsire
Canada296 Posts
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Arcanefrost
Belgium1257 Posts
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r.Evo
Germany14079 Posts
On February 02 2013 14:43 Djzapz wrote: I would like to go to med school because I have a lot of admiration for doctors and I can see myself actually feeling good about what I'm doing if I were a doctor. I wouldn't do it BECAUSE it hard, I would do it because I would like to do that - and it happens to be a difficult domain to get into. Someone has to tell you: You're lying to yourself. You don't want to go to medschool. You want to be able to say "I would have gone to medschool if this or that would have been different" to feel better about yourself. You don't sound stupid from what I'm reading here. You just sound lazy as fuck. Get your shit together. (<3) | ||
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Djzapz
Canada10681 Posts
On February 02 2013 18:02 Kuni wrote: You cannot waste your lifetime. Everything you do provides you with more experience. You live, no matter what you do. There is no wasted lifetime. You only waste time towards reaching a specific goal and goals are replacable, self-imposed steps to make you feel like you have a meaning, but it is never too late to change, never too late to change your goals. As long as you don't ruin your body or your mind, the rest is not really that important. I think you make an interesting point and it summarizes what many people have been saying in a rather eloquent way. The problem though is a harsh reality - I'll need to start working sooner or later. If I've been taught anything by my grandparents, it's that you have to "invest in your old days". On February 02 2013 21:43 r.Evo wrote: Someone has to tell you: You're lying to yourself. You don't want to go to medschool. You want to be able to say "I would have gone to medschool if this or that would have been different" to feel better about yourself. You don't sound stupid from what I'm reading here. You just sound lazy as fuck. Get your shit together. (<3) I'm not saying I would have gone to med school if things had been different, I'm saying I would have gone to med school if I had been BETTER. I'm not complaining about circumstances - I'm talking about my own failures. But you're still right about the second part. Cheers. + Show Spoiler + ![[image loading]](http://i34.photobucket.com/albums/d113/DJZapZ/Gentlemen.jpg) | ||
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Elegance
Canada917 Posts
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r.Evo
Germany14079 Posts
Also damn, your desk is pretty cleaned up for a lazy person. | ||
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Djzapz
Canada10681 Posts
On February 02 2013 23:28 r.Evo wrote: Just because you didn't do good enough to achieve something doesn't mean that you are not good enough to achieve something. Also damn, your desk is pretty cleaned up for a lazy person. No it's messy as hell, you just don't see it, there's usually just one clean spot in front of me to put a book there. Typical desk day: (add a few beers at night). + Show Spoiler + ![[image loading]](http://i34.photobucket.com/albums/d113/DJZapZ/wellfuck.jpg) That said I'm not saying I can't do good enough... but now I'm mourning those 6 years, and I wish I had been better in the first place. And now if I do the switch I may screw myself further. There are financial elements to consider for instance... | ||
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r.Evo
Germany14079 Posts
Mourning is fine. Wishing that things had been better is fine, too. It's when you dwell too much over things that are already done that it effects your future that it becomes an issue. Loved ones die, we miss opportunities, we aren't the best ourselves that we could have been. That's part of life and you're aware of that. In the end what really counts is with which way you can become the most happy with yourself and your life - while one year to finish your master doesn't sound like a too long time, if it's too long for you and you'd rather work towards something else starting tomorrow is entirely your choice. No one can make that choice for you. However, also no one made the choice for you that you have to live a horrible life with a horrible job when you're done. That shit is in your head, no where else. If you want to work towards a different career, you can do so. You might have to work at the same time or you might have overcome some additional burdens but it's up to you. Maybe, just maybe, you might also find a great job around great people with your current path. You won't find out until you give it a try. And yes, that includes stuff like internships. Besides that it's not that uncommon (at least over here) to see people at 40+ in med schools. You're young, stop sounding like my own grandfather. =P | ||
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Grettin
42381 Posts
On February 02 2013 20:03 eSen1a wrote: 1. finish your masters 2. start going to the gym 3. once you finish your masters, go travel don't waste another 10 years in uni. just go out and do something. always be positive This is a great advice. There is so many people unhappy in their jobs and normal lives but they do it just to get to travel somewhere for a brief moment. When i read your blog Djzapz, i can relate somewhat. I was lazy in school, didn't care what i was doing so i rather played games with my friends than study. Awful grades (especially math and physics) every year till i finished grammar school. Got into a vocational school with no effort simply because they spots left. I didn't mind, at least i got into somewhere. Well, in the end i graduated with decent grades but i really don't want to continue in the field because it was boring and not for me. While my situation is easy, i'm few years younger than you are, education is free where i live, i still am lost and sad that i didn't care about my grades. Lots of schools that i might be interested in, i wouldn't have chance. At least not just yet. Back to the travelling. I've always loved it and if this whole situation turns out the way i'm afraid, that i will end up in a job that i don't like to do, i will use my time travelling even harder than i have planned. Good luck man. I hope you find the right way! | ||
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mynameisgreat11
599 Posts
Some of your realizations are just part of life. Your dreams will not pan out the way you thought or hoped when you were 14. You will probably make less money, and your job will probably not be as exciting. These issues aren't unique to you, and everyone deals with them as they become an adult. Main point: buck up, it ain't so bad. You'll enjoy your 20's more with a positive attitude. | ||
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cLAN.Anax
United States2847 Posts
Time is your most valuable resource. I'm sincerely glad that you've now realized that. But it's time to plan out your goals, learn what you need to do to see them happen, buck up, and just go do it. I don't have a clue as to what that is (perhaps it's med. school like you mention; perhaps it's poli. sci. like you've studied for; perhaps it's something else entirely), but you need to narrow in on whatever good goal you believe is for you and just go do it. May there be a positive desperation with which you work and act, and may you grow a motivation and mentality that not only says "No" to the distractions that will impede your progress to your goals, but replaces each of them with a "Yes" towards something else that does advance you. A "No" is not enough; a "Yes" must be given. And when you find what to say "Yes" to, work at it tirelessly till you reach it.  | ||
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Firnafth
United States20 Posts
Do not quit your masters. You may regret quitting it later, the exact same way you are regretting neglecting your earlier schooling. IMO The only circumstance you should quit is if you have something awesome (preferably enjoyable and long-term) already lined up to do instead. Also agree with the others that you should add some more non-school activities to your life. Exercise is indeed a really good one. Another thing you can try is volunteering: since you say you want to be a doctor, go hunt down a hospital and look into volunteering there. This will allow you to meet new people, do something you care about, and have something else to do that isn't your master's degree. If the thought of doing this doesn't at least mildly interest you, I'm going to go with the guy upthread and say you don't really want to be a doctor. | ||
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JOJOsc2news
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