EPTWhen I hear confessions like this I feel better about myself. It means I could have fucked up my life worse and so can you.
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Hidden_MotiveS
Canada2562 Posts
When I hear confessions like this I feel better about myself. It means I could have fucked up my life worse and so can you. | ||
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zalz
Netherlands3704 Posts
On March 06 2012 16:54 StorkHwaiting wrote: Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus And the fact that it is a rather cheap drug. Almost impossible to lose your money over. The average person could probably afford to keep himself high on XTC 24/7. | ||
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Hidden_MotiveS
Canada2562 Posts
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ikh
United Kingdom251 Posts
On March 06 2012 18:31 zalz wrote: And the fact that it is a rather cheap drug. Almost impossible to lose your money over. The average person could probably afford to keep himself high on XTC 24/7. i'm not sure how much you know about what you're talking about but for sure you don't know much about mdma pricing in canada? where i'm from it costs 90-110€/g in crystal form (in user pricing, not wholesale obv) and obviously it's more expensive in "ecstacy" form eg. pills of uncertain content and quality. what comes to mdma abuse it's the same as any other drug without physical addiction - there's no reason you couldn't get psychologically addicted to it. what also steps into the picture is mdma tolerance growing extremely quick because of the drug depleting your brain's serotonin reserves quite quickly and it taking unreasonably large doses to abuse what's remaining after even a short binge. that gets expensive. drugs generally aren't hella dangerous, but few of them are safe if you're uneducated and naive about doing them  | ||
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sickle
New Zealand656 Posts
On March 06 2012 16:54 StorkHwaiting wrote: Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus Anything can become psychologically addictive | ||
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ChinaLifeXXL
United States365 Posts
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Sergio1992
Italy522 Posts
 [Serious mode on, now] First thought: I'm addicted to computer. I don't know to who I should say that, because after all my parents are always out for work. I don't study much. I study law at university, and I like and enjoy it a lot, but I feel like I wanna get fun all the time. I can't leave starcraft. I mean, everyday, my first thought is if some pro I like is streaming, and I will go watch it for countless hours. I try to study but every time I try to do it, even a white wall will catch my attention; bah.. Second thought: Everytime I look at my friends I see how they are realized. I mean , they did something worth they are pride of. I'm proud of nothing, because actually I feel like a parasite in my family. All the people around me, study, have a great social life. I do have one social life, but I feel sad sometimes because I don't have a girl. Nor that I never kissed one, I'm not in that abyss, luckily, but I was never able to concretize something with girls. I was said that ,my last "story" ,if so can be called, can be compared to one of these described by O.C, though I never watched the series. Third thought: Sometimes I look around and I see people that enjoy the life like it is. Am I the only one that pretends his life to be better? I was said that being happy sometimes means that you are happy of what you have... But I seem not to be able to do so. Fourth thought: Looking around me, when I leave home, I realise that people care nothing about other peoples. I saw more than once, brawl fights, accidents, and so on, and they never ended well. Sometimes I feel really vulnerable. In Italy justice doesn't work If someone will never murder me, he will never get the punishment he deserves. People with countless murders live in Italy without having any problems at all, and a citizen like me feel powerless towards the attitude of judges that do like they want. Last thought: I'm 19 and sometimes I think I will never be complete in my life. I know only few people worth living for (family, some friends), but I don't think I'll never be realized in my life, and sometimes this thought makes me sad.. I'm never depressed , though, just sad | ||
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Psychobabas
2531 Posts
On March 06 2012 21:13 Sergio1992 wrote: I sometimes wish to become a criminal. Crime pays, they say , at least in Italy [Serious mode on, now] First thought: I'm addicted to computer. I don't know to who I should say that, because after all my parents are always out for work. I don't study much. I study law at university, and I like and enjoy it a lot, but I feel like I wanna get fun all the time. I can't leave starcraft. I mean, everyday, my first thought is if some pro I like is streaming, and I will go watch it for countless hours. I try to study but every time I try to do it, even a white wall will catch my attention; bah.. Second thought: Everytime I look at my friends I see how they are realized. I mean , they did something worth they are pride of. I'm proud of nothing, because actually I feel like a parasite in my family. All the people around me, study, have a great social life. I do have one social life, but I feel sad sometimes because I don't have a girl. Nor that I never kissed one, I'm not in that abyss, luckily, but I was never able to concretize something with girls. I was said that ,my last "story" ,if so can be called, can be compared to one of these described by O.C, though I never watched the series. Third thought: Sometimes I look around and I see people that enjoy the life like it is. Am I the only one that pretends his life to be better? I was said that being happy sometimes means that you are happy of what you have... But I seem not to be able to do so. Fourth thought: Looking around me, when I leave home, I realise that people care nothing about other peoples. I saw more than once, brawl fights, accidents, and so on, and they never ended well. Sometimes I feel really vulnerable. In Italy justice doesn't work If someone will never murder me, he will never get the punishment he deserves. People with countless murders live in Italy without having any problems at all, and a citizen like me feel powerless towards the attitude of judges that do like they want. Last thought: I'm 19 and sometimes I think I will never be complete in my life. I know only few people worth living for (family, some friends), but I don't think I'll never be realized in my life, and sometimes this thought makes me sad.. I'm never depressed , though, just sad You're 19? lol dude relax xD You've got your whole life ahead of you | ||
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Sergio1992
Italy522 Posts
On March 06 2012 22:40 Psychobabas wrote: You're 19? lol dude relax xD You've got your whole life ahead of you ahahha I don't think things are that easy, sadly  , even If I'm 19 | ||
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TeamBanished
United States301 Posts
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NotSorry
United States6722 Posts
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NotSorry
United States6722 Posts
On March 06 2012 18:31 zalz wrote: And the fact that it is a rather cheap drug. Almost impossible to lose your money over. The average person could probably afford to keep himself high on XTC 24/7. If you're sitting at home tripping balls all day odds are your bills/rent will eat up any savings you had, also the drug itself may not be physically addicting to most, the high or feeling you experience can be very mentally addictive. | ||
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dronescout
Iceland246 Posts
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DeadCell
Canada256 Posts
On March 06 2012 16:54 StorkHwaiting wrote: Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus Really don't give a shit if you don't believe me. Just glad I have more to look forward to then rolling up powder and wasting my days away. | ||
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ETisME
12700 Posts
But the worst part is that sometimes I would dream about it and I would wake up with tears in eyes and my heart pounding really hard. There was once in my dream I shouted back and I woke up because I could feel I almost shouted in reality as well. For so many years he said he would just leave me to take care of myself and be responsible for myself and now he is putting so much expectation and pressure onto and wanting me to transform into someone else. Sometimes if my mum would intervene, my dad would say she is talking non-sense and only "Talking to the son because he is turning out to be very disappointing" | ||
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Emnjay808
United States10665 Posts
On March 08 2012 11:52 ETisME wrote: I get scolded by my dad quite often sometimes. And everytime he does it, he would say some really hurtful things like I made my sister lazy as well, or saying that I am not worth the money that he spent for me to study oversea, or he is disappointed in me and wished I would just go learn to be a cook than going to university. But the worst part is that sometimes I would dream about it and I would wake up with tears in eyes and my heart pounding really hard. There was once in my dream I shouted back and I woke up because I could feel I almost shouted in reality as well. For so many years he said he would just leave me to take care of myself and be responsible for myself and now he is putting so much expectation and pressure onto and wanting me to transform into someone else. Sometimes if my mum would intervene, my dad would say she is talking non-sense and only "Talking to the son because he is turning out to be very disappointing" Wow. I know exactly your feeling. I have so much pressure from both my parents to turn out well and make it worth it to them to support me through college. But theyre nowhere as near demanding as how you make your father seem to be. My condolences sir. Chin up. | ||
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DreamChaser
1649 Posts
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Kira__
Sweden2672 Posts
On March 08 2012 11:42 DeadCell wrote: Really don't give a shit if you don't believe me. Just glad I have more to look forward to then rolling up powder and wasting my days away. You're not alone brother. | ||
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Renzokuken
6 Posts
I'd always end up spending a lot on drinking/cigarettes/weed and end up having to ask for more. We budgeted my year our previously and my excuse was always something different. I felt really guilty later on when I went to her home for dinner over the holidays because she spent so much on me that she wasn't able to go on the vacation she was planning to go on with her co-workers in January. I promised her I'd make it up to her once I started working again, but she said she was just glad I finally decided to go to university. I really plan on keeping that promise though. Oh, and after watching fOrGG's stream for a while I've suddenly gotten addicted to k-pop. This is coming from me, who used to be in a death metal band in high school. go figure.. | ||
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soulostar
United States46 Posts
On March 08 2012 11:52 ETisME wrote: I get scolded by my dad quite often sometimes. And everytime he does it, he would say some really hurtful things like I made my sister lazy as well, or saying that I am not worth the money that he spent for me to study oversea, or he is disappointed in me and wished I would just go learn to be a cook than going to university. But the worst part is that sometimes I would dream about it and I would wake up with tears in eyes and my heart pounding really hard. There was once in my dream I shouted back and I woke up because I could feel I almost shouted in reality as well. For so many years he said he would just leave me to take care of myself and be responsible for myself and now he is putting so much expectation and pressure onto and wanting me to transform into someone else. Sometimes if my mum would intervene, my dad would say she is talking non-sense and only "Talking to the son because he is turning out to be very disappointing" this. my dad calls me stupid and retarded and says i have a disease when i'm quite clearly perfectly fine. i punch holes in the wall because i can't do that to his face. | ||
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