EPTPersonal Confessions - Page 20
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Ryuhou)aS(
United States1174 Posts
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Kamais Ookin
Canada591 Posts
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legofranak
United States24 Posts
On March 06 2012 21:13 Sergio1992 wrote: [Serious mode on, now] First thought: I'm addicted to computer. I don't know to who I should say that, because after all my parents are always out for work. I don't study much. I study law at university, and I like and enjoy it a lot, but I feel like I wanna get fun all the time. I can't leave starcraft. I mean, everyday, my first thought is if some pro I like is streaming, and I will go watch it for countless hours. I try to study but every time I try to do it, even a white wall will catch my attention; bah.. Second thought: Everytime I look at my friends I see how they are realized. I mean , they did something worth they are pride of. I'm proud of nothing, because actually I feel like a parasite in my family. All the people around me, study, have a great social life. I do have one social life, but I feel sad sometimes because I don't have a girl. Nor that I never kissed one, I'm not in that abyss, luckily, but I was never able to concretize something with girls. I was said that ,my last "story" ,if so can be called, can be compared to one of these described by O.C, though I never watched the series. Third thought: Sometimes I look around and I see people that enjoy the life like it is. Am I the only one that pretends his life to be better? I was said that being happy sometimes means that you are happy of what you have... But I seem not to be able to do so. Fourth thought: Looking around me, when I leave home, I realise that people care nothing about other peoples. I saw more than once, brawl fights, accidents, and so on, and they never ended well. Sometimes I feel really vulnerable. In Italy justice doesn't work If someone will never murder me, he will never get the punishment he deserves. People with countless murders live in Italy without having any problems at all, and a citizen like me feel powerless towards the attitude of judges that do like they want. Last thought: I'm 19 and sometimes I think I will never be complete in my life. I know only few people worth living for (family, some friends), but I don't think I'll never be realized in my life, and sometimes this thought makes me sad.. I'm never depressed , though, just sad  Wow, you sound almost exactly like I remember myself sounding like at 19. I used to walk around amazed that people who were walking in the street actually had things they were going to do, like they were looking forward to something or at least had some direction (literally). It took me a while to find a way to a more positive, gratifying place, which I definitely have come to. I love my life now, and I don't think I thought that possible at 19. I feel a kinship so here comes the advice: I think you have tremendous opportunities to be "complete," as you say, especially at your age. For me, it really boiled down to identifying those things in life that were essential to both a) who I was at the time and b) who I wanted to be. A friend of mine in college once asked me what single thing would I choose to be or have, if I could only choose one thing that I could be or have and everything else was randomized? I answered her so quickly that I surprised myself, but that moment actually changed my life--I said I wanted to have kids and be a loving father. Pretty simple, huh? Now my kids are the most joyous thing in my existence and I wake up every day thinking about how great it is to be their dad. Corny as hell but it makes my heart sing. Once I understood that about myself, a lot of the other crap I used to worry about fell away completely (since it was impossible to reconcile with my dream), and I finally felt comfortable enough with my humanity that many of my reflexive hang-ups (regarding self-confidence, how I interacted with people, etc.), turned into strengths: I knew myself and so was unashamed to present who I was. I don't know if thinking about that question will help you, but hey, who knows? I'm 27 now and still enjoy catching a cast or two every few days. Wish I could play pro for life, too, but you only live once, right? | ||
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legofranak
United States24 Posts
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Deathmanbob
United States2356 Posts
On February 29 2012 18:00 Spieltor wrote: so is this thread a honeypot for nuking people? and who would admit to illegal acts on here? I got a doozey of one thats apparently worse than murder, even thiough noone was actually harmed, but I'll only state it if asked. go on...... i cheated on my ex..... a lot.................... (we are not broken up over cheating, she never found out) | ||
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SlapMySalami
United States1060 Posts
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Shiragaku
Hong Kong4308 Posts
On April 24 2012 22:20 SlapMySalami wrote: nobody ever responds to my posts =( ^__^ | ||
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Iankill
Canada109 Posts
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n.DieJokes
United States3443 Posts
On April 25 2012 00:49 Iankill wrote: I'm great liar and sometimes I just lie to people because explaining the truth would take longer than making up a lie. You and everyone else >.> | ||
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MrRicewife
Canada515 Posts
On April 25 2012 00:49 Iankill wrote: I'm great liar and sometimes I just lie to people because explaining the truth would take longer than making up a lie. Perhaps delusional. Nobody is good at lying, and we all do what you describe lol. | ||
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SchonChristo
United States11 Posts
Wait, what?! But for real, I steal from grocery stores all the time. Some food just isn't worth what they are charging, so I put it in my pocket. | ||
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Xenocide_Knight
Korea (South)2625 Posts
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MethodSC
United States928 Posts
On April 25 2012 01:26 SchonChristo wrote: I think of him when I'm with her. Wait, what?! But for real, I steal from grocery stores all the time. Some food just isn't worth what they are charging, so I put it in my pocket. Sometimes I try out fruit or some of the snacks they have that you can put in bags yourself. And I've never once bought any of the snacks, only fruit. I feel it's my right as a consumer to be able to know what I'm going to buy before I spend money on it. | ||
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ticklishmusic
United States15977 Posts
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MethodSC
United States928 Posts
On April 25 2012 06:54 ticklishmusic wrote: I go to Sam's, order a pizza, then walk around for 20 minutes hitting up free samples for lunch, then I take the pizza home. :D hahaha great idea. i might steal that | ||
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gNarLZ
11 Posts
Also - I have been passing up sex for starcraft since BW. | ||
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Otolia
France5805 Posts
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NeMeSiS3
Canada2972 Posts
On January 31 2011 03:51 BlackMagister wrote: People like to share their experiences. You might as well ask why there are so many blogs. As for me I've experimented with using a pee bottle... It really smells when you have to dump it even after you flush... If I'd have my guess, it would be that the creator of the thread want's to let some steam off/see that everyone else has shit going wrong too. Confession: When I was 15 I stole a guy's mail, but not to get the mail (which I placed back 4 hours later) but to see if I could be caught while trying to escape, ended up taking the mail, he yelled "HEY YOU" and I ran into the woods on the road and had to hike 5 km (or around 2.5 miles) home while him, and his friends, set up along the road for about 1km so I had to crawl for about 30 minutes or so. Exciting, and it worked, but I always felt bad. | ||
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NotSorry
United States6722 Posts
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Chriscras
Korea (South)2812 Posts
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