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On November 29 2011 19:19 apalemorning wrote:Show nested quote +On November 29 2011 19:17 Diamond wrote:On November 29 2011 19:12 apalemorning wrote:On November 29 2011 19:08 casualman wrote: I mean everyone knows its bad shit, but some people still end up doing it regardless. . first of all, i want to tell you that you probably lack life experience ( edit/ oh wait, you're american, this explains your attitude on drugs completely), drugs are not "bad" besides the big three, nicotine, alcohol, heroin. (and meth, but only full retards do that) the large majority of hallucgenics/ethnogens/psychedelics are safe. most of them cannot kill you, you cannot overdose, you cannot get physically addicted. (psychological addiction is something completely different). shut up, please. however to call everything but meth, nicotine, alcohol, and heroin not dangerous is just plain wrong. because thats exactly what i did. you should try out some reading comprehension. also, i was implying educated, recreational use of hallugenics/ethnogens/psychdelics is safe. of course you can ruin your life on lsd or any drug, but the important part is to do them in an educated manner, and safely (which many do, everyday, millions of people.) so take your archaic view on drugs back to the bible belt. So rude. Casual said that it's bad. Generally heroin isn't a positive experience for most users. There was no need to jump down his throat. And all that "get life experience" "oh you're from america figures" stuff just makes you look like a jerk.
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On November 29 2011 19:08 casualman wrote: I wonder what it is that turns people to using drugs? I mean everyone knows it's bad shit, but some people still end up doing it regardless. I'm hoping to get a different perspective here. Especially in 1st world countries, life can be rough but opportunity is always there, and the conditions aren't ever as terrible as you see in the slums in Russia and Eastern Europe.
I don't wanna judge you, as I don't know you. But most people turn to drugs (as in using them on a regularly basis) when their life sucks and they just don't know how to deal with it. Most people use first time because they are curious, most of these quit forever after they've tried that, at least that's the way with weed. Many continue to use once in a while. But some, and these are probably the people you are talking about I guess, stay with the drug(s). There is a lot to drug usage, much more than most people are able to understand, first of all since they've never used it. Smoking weed once in your life doesn't tell you shit about how it feels to just sit there with a big blunt, enjoying life for lifes sake and for no other reason.
To break it down in my own words, I think the most common reason for most people to use drugs, is to plainly feel alive or "feel themselves". If that doesn't make sense to you, you should just continue living your own life, as it seems you have everything you want. But some people don't, so they have to reassure themselves about being alive. Other people do extreme sports, fuck all day or get any other sort of adrenaline rush on a daily basis. Btw, I, as a once heavy potsmoker, now occasionally stoning my brains out, wonder myself what it is that turns people to do bungee jumping, cliff diving, etc., but I guess it's just the same reason I do 5g over a weekend if I have nothing else to do.
To the OP: I hope you'll find a reason to get better, I've never done anything harder than weed, despite having been tempted countless times. I've suffered from serious depression and I still do sometimes when things aren't going so well, so I'm afraid I'd get completely fucked over if I did something "harder". But in the end whatever you use, if you use it excessively you should try and talk to somebody, it doesn't matter who that is, just talk about what you really think, even if those thoughts are disturbing yourself. Don't be afraid.
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Heroin is bad because it produces extreme euphoric effects yet has no real positive impact on you. It feels so good and the withdrawal is so bad that addicts gear their lives toward obtaining it and eventually let nothing stand in the way of the next high.
Basically, heroin makes you think as short term as possible because the immediate reward for shooting heroin is so high that you don't care about long term rewards of pursuing other activities. Not to mention you are contributing nothing to society by doing so.
If you're smart, you'll think on a meta-level and realize that despite the extremely high positive short term effects of heroin, you are better off avoiding it and instead seek long-term positive effects in your life. They are out there, you just have to find them. They don't land on your doorstep or require 0 work like shooting heroin does.
A little on reinforcement theory in human psychology: http://wireheading.com/brainstim/
Best of luck.
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On November 29 2011 19:15 danmooj1 wrote:Show nested quote +On November 29 2011 19:11 Corrupt wrote: All the junkies I knew ended up with the needle. Smoking is not an option kid, it just stops doing it's job after time... The sooner you quit this shit - the better. yeah it's gotten to the point where i almost don't feel it anymore. that experience i typed up was how i felt the first few times i smoked heroin. the honeymoon phase as people say
I really, really wish to see your next blog saying how you got all clean and stuff.. Get some help man, please do. I know you want it. (by the way, the op did fooled me.. how long you're doing this..?)
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Danmooj is banned, this is kind of sad. I hope everything goes well for him. Hopefully he took my advice about watching proleague, it's so beautiful that it has helped me through difficult times as well. My heart goes out to you danmooj <3.
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On November 29 2011 19:25 nttea wrote:i've heard it's the best thing you will ever experience, too bad once you do it there's a chance you will never ever want to stop,
Never tried it myself but I know of people who have and this is very inaccurate.
Good luck in life op. you know this shit is going to make you want more and more until it gets very bad, so I hope you make a conscious effort and manage to get out, the sooner the better. Hope all goes well
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I've tried it but how I threw up when I did it always put me off. That and the fact that most of the fucked up junkies who hang around the park were taking heroin steered me off it personally. I stick to weed/psychedelics/disassociates with the odd deliriant trip every now and then
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I'll try anything once. I just haven't had the opportunity yet.
Everyone I know who's done it has said it was pretty much the best thing ever. I haven't ever known anyone who had access to it though (that I know of).
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On November 29 2011 19:37 casualman wrote: Danmooj is banned, this is kind of sad. I hope everything goes well for him. Hopefully he took my advice about watching proleague, it's so beautiful that it has helped me through difficult times as well. My heart goes out to you danmooj <3. What would you recommend for proleague withdraw then? I know i went crazy during the off season.
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On November 29 2011 19:59 thopol wrote: I'll try anything once. This is just a clichéd, bad philosophy. I don't like to deprive myself of life experiences, and this is one of the reasons I'm quite progressive about drug use. I do, however, do my research before I ever do anything because the risks often outweigh the rewards. It isn't all DARE propaganda; some substances are severely addictive or physiologically harmful, even after only one use.
Good luck, op. You can still change your life for the better if you want to. In the long run, the highs are fleeting and the lows too much to bear.
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On November 29 2011 18:57 casualman wrote:Show nested quote +On November 29 2011 18:52 danmooj1 wrote:On November 29 2011 18:48 apalemorning wrote: i've done plenty of opiates, including snorting heroin once. i don't think i have the balls to shoot it. are you fo reals OP? Yup. Never had the balls to shoot up either. Not that I'm scared of the needle, I'm scared I'm gonna be more addicted than I already am...it already feels good enough. I'm on my last dose of Oxycodone right now. I have no more money and no more dope, so tomorrow and for the rest of the week I'm gonna feel like complete utter shit. Withdrawals suck Noooo OP! Watch some brood war to overcome the withdrawals. Even nature has to rejoice when proleague's back on again.
But ..but ...then he will have to deal with the broodwar-withdrawal as well afterwards.... NOOOOO! First world problems
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On November 29 2011 19:43 SchOOl_VicTIm wrote:Show nested quote +On November 29 2011 19:25 nttea wrote:i've heard it's the best thing you will ever experience, too bad once you do it there's a chance you will never ever want to stop, Never tried it myself but I know of people who have and this is very inaccurate. Good luck in life op. you know this shit is going to make you want more and more until it gets very bad, so I hope you make a conscious effort and manage to get out, the sooner the better. Hope all goes well what part?
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Everyday is a new day man, just try and stop everyday. Find something else to do when you get cravings. I hope you get better man.
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My father was on heroin for over 30 years. It never directly killed him.
His fucked up liver killed him. Literally broke apart inside his body. It was an agonizing death that lasted longer than I ever thought one could survive the process of death (literally lived for like 4 days after you could smell the organ decay on his breath). During the last 36 hours of his life, pieces of organ tissue, god knows which organ they belonged to, passed through his catheter. Because of his drug history, he was not permitted to have any narcotic painkillers during this process.
Promise me, OP, that you'll put a bullet in your head before you allow your son to watch this happen to you.
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On November 29 2011 21:25 Chargelot wrote: My father was on heroin for over 30 years. It never directly killed him.
His fucked up liver killed him. Literally broke apart inside his body. It was an agonizing death that lasted longer than I ever thought one could survive the process of death (literally lived for like 4 days after you could smell the organ decay on his breath). During the last 36 hours of his life, pieces of organ tissue, god knows which organ they belonged to, passed through his catheter. Because of his drug history, he was not permitted to have any narcotic painkillers during this process.
Promise me, OP, that you'll put a bullet in your head before you allow your son to watch this happen to you.
My father was doing heroin for about 10 years too. Let the family down, got Hepatitis C. Went to brazil. Haven't seen him in years. Fuck that shit.
OP STOP THAT NOW or prepare to die miserably.
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Stop doing black tar. It's bad for you.
Don't do drugs kids.
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after trainspotting and requiem I will never touch heroin
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Cute read. Pretty neat. Cool to read about how it feels to be addicted n' stuff.
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