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Hey guys...
You know, I have been thinking about it, and no matter what I try to do to make myself happy, I just get more sad. Even in times were I should be gleeming with joy. Ever since I was 8 or so I have never really enjoyed something. Some people call me a different person. I show little to no emotions.
Ever since my parent's divorce, my life feels like it is a tourture every single day. It's not the fact that they are divorced that makes me upset, its the fact that I am litteraly terrified everyday of what is to come throught the poor relationship of both couple. Every day is a constant battle with myself. My terror. My thoughts.
My favorite things to do, like play sc2 and LoL are like a burden now; they are unenjoyable and feel like a chore more than anything. I still continue to try to play, like I said, I feel worse and worse.
I can also feel my health slowly failing. I am extremely underweight mainly because I am feed one meal a day.I feel constant pain in my back and in my head, but alas, my father does not care for me. I feel worthless.
My post history throughout my career has is filled with greetings and great manners towards others. Maybe I do this so others will pass it on. Or maybe, I feel like I want to be someone better.
If anyone has any tips for me, I would be open to their comments. My life is to the point now were it is not worth living. If anyone has had any similar experiences, please guide me through it.
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Lexapro or if you don't have health insurance (America, fuck yeah) cannabis.
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Start working out. Endorphins will make you feel great despite everything being not great.
That's what I do.... rofl.
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Sounds like depression. You should see a psychologist.
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Germany449 Posts
you should push your Reallife a little. You know like do some sport and get some other hobbys....playing games only makes you feel crazy and you get a social retard...i felt that too.
meet some new people and get some other friends.
the first thing you should do is to stop getting a bonjwa btw  ...i know i shouldnt say that on TL but: fuck starcraft..its not for everyone meant (me neither).
games are not for everyone. some people dont do themselves a good when they play games.
just dont be to hard on yourself BUT also dont be to soft!
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Find something, whatever it might be. I have a feeling that's what a lot of people will end up telling you. Find something you care about, that you want to do, that motivates you. Find someone. Get out of the house and find it.
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On October 11 2011 07:00 Steelavocado wrote:
I can also feel my health slowly failing. I am extremely underweight mainly because I am feed one meal a day.I feel constant pain in my back and in my head, but alas, my father does not care for me. I feel worthless.
Yeah, exercising will solve a lot of your problems. Hardest part is the motivation to start it up and keep it going until you start getting used to the routine.
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you've got a good case of depression there i guess (yes that is a medical condition). Go read up on it, that's the first step to get through.
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On October 11 2011 07:07 TheKefka wrote:
How old are you?
I am 16 and a junior in High School.
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Consult a psychiatrist first and foremost. There are a lot of resources out there for people in your situation. As a rational person I am sure you know there are many many things in life which are enjoyable and exciting, but emotionally you are unable to feel that way. It's not your fault, professional help is available and I suggest you seek it. Ask your mother for help in seeing a psychiatrist if your father isn't caring for you.
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If you don't enjoy SC2 anymore, don't play it.
My advice would be to try and find an emotional crutch. A psychiatrist or counselor can be really helpful, but nothing can replace a good friend. Hopefully you have some sort of friend that can be there for you and who can understand or at least listen to you vent about what you're going through. Obviously it's easier said than done, but I truly believe that that is the best road out of depression. I've had depression for the past few years myself and the worst part is not being able to have anyone who understands what it feels like... so I'm still looking for my crutch to lean on. It's the worst, I know.
Another piece of advice: don't get into drugs, alcohol, or sex to make yourself feel better, because it just plain won't. I don't have any experience with any of those, and I am really thankful for that because I know that my depression could be a LOT worse if those things let it spiral out of control.
This is also a fun read that made me feel better when I read it a while back. It's got some inspiring stuff too (even though it's from Cracked)
http://www.cracked.com/blog/5-reasons-life-actually-does-get-better/
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On October 11 2011 07:07 Itsmedudeman wrote:
Sounds like depression. You should see a psychologist.
I agree many of the symptoms described sound like depression. While all the adive in here has been good you should really seek profesional help in this case.
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On October 11 2011 07:16 ClysmiC wrote:If you don't enjoy SC2 anymore, don't play it. My advice would be to try and find an emotional crutch. A psychiatrist or counselor can be really helpful, but nothing can replace a good friend. Hopefully you have some sort of friend that can be there for you and who can understand or at least listen to you vent about what you're going through. Obviously it's easier said than done, but I truly believe that that is the best road out of depression. I've had depression for the past few years myself and the worst part is not being able to have anyone who understands what it feels like... so I'm still looking for my crutch to lean on. It's the worst, I know. Another piece of advice: don't get into drugs, alcohol, or sex to make yourself feel better, because it just plain won't. I don't have any experience with any of those, and I am really thankful for that because I know that my depression could be a LOT worse if those things let it spiral out of control. This is also a fun read that made me feel better when I read it a while back. It's got some inspiring stuff too (even though it's from Cracked) http://www.cracked.com/blog/5-reasons-life-actually-does-get-better/
Thank you, it honestly does mean alot to me right now.
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omg people pls stop making a big thing out of it. he is 16 years old...he is a teenager. come on stop to scare him and make some diagnosis over the internet...srsly...
"but dude, wikipedia told me thats depression." *facepalm*
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On October 11 2011 07:10 Steelavocado wrote:I am 16 and a junior in High School.
Thought so.When I was your age I was "depressed" kinda like you.Partly because I was socially awkward(kinda still am,but I don't give a shit about it and have a stronger personality) and didn't really approach or talk to people,so consequently I didn't do anything,rarely got out of the house and just vegetating inside of my room doing nothing.
Anyways,you would be amazed how much things change in your head if you just step out of the door and take a walk,run,whatever.Any kind of physical activity occupies your mind and makes you feel better,for instance,I started going to the gym.
Look,all these people saying to you that you have a case of depression,you probably don't.If you feel like it,have a talk with a psychiatrist,but you should know that the way you are feeling now and look at the world is a extremely common amongst insecure or introvert kids of your age.It will get better with time,but you must do something about it.People that are telling you to take medication,for god sake do not listen to them.
Physical activity,learning a new language,art,reading,or just hanging our with friends outside,any of these things will make you feel better over time,I guarantee you and if not you can always resort to drastic measures like medication.
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Chin up buddy, call kids help phone, start eating properly and get out there and check stuff out!
The world is a fucking amazing place. Just open your eyes!
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On October 11 2011 07:19 LayZRR wrote:
omg people pls stop making a big thing out of it. he is 16 years old...he is a teenager. come on stop to scare him and make some diagnosis over the internet...srsly...
"but dude, wikipedia told me thats depression." *facepalm*
He complains of both physical and emotional problems and you dont think its serious?
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On October 11 2011 07:21 Zorkmid wrote:
Chin up buddy, call kids help phone, start eating properly and get out there and check stuff out!
The world is a fucking amazing place. Just open your eyes!
I wish it was that easy.
When you are in a situation like I am, you cant just fix everything. I tried therapy once. It was probably the biggest waste of my time. I am not ungrateful for your advice or the "help" from the phyciatrist, it just isn't helping. You would think if I could eat properly I would, but I can't. I feel hopeless...
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Sounds like depression, and it totally sucks. I've been in a similar situation except no, my parents have never split up. Sometimes it gets so bad that I wish they did, though. (Such a bad thing to say but you'd have to understand my situation.)
I think the best thing to do is try and hang out with your friends more. I really hope you have some supportive friends, they can help you get through tough times. If not, then actively try to find some friends or at least people in you're life that you've known for a long time. If you find someone who understands your situation with your parents and stuff, it will make it a lot easier to just TALK.
And worst comes to worst, I suggest you try something like weed (I do, I'm in no way addicted, and it helps tremendously.) You shouldn't rely on it by no means, but it will definitely make things easier to bear when times get too rough.
My last bit of advice would be to (if you can afford it), spend a bit of extra money doing just.. stuff.
I understand that you feel like your life is too bland and boring, but maybe getting out and watching a movie, eating good food, or anything can really help you enjoy life. The subtle things that I enjoy like going to the beach and stuff are really cheap... but when depressed can just make you feel more alone. So try spending a little more money and cheer up!
I wish you the best, as any member of the TL community should be happy.
If you still feel really depressed and just want someone to talk to, PM me and we can talk~
Gl; hf!
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