Hey. Do you have it aswell?
That one thing, that doesn't let you go anymore?
That one thing, that eats so much of your freetime that other things suffer?
That one thing, that you dream of when you are asleep?
That one thing, that you dream of even when you are awake?
I ask you, is it worth all the effort?
Is it worth all the time and money you put into it?
I don't know yet, but today i will start to find out!

On October 21, 2010 i fell in love.

I come from a very diverse gaming background. I played competitive Guildwars and not so competitive CSS, WC3 and DotA. I sometimes stumbled across this RTS when watching WCG Global Finals which they called Starcraft Broodwar and they said it is really hard. I never started playing it but when Starcraft II - WingsOfLiberty came out, i decided to give it a shot. The Campaign was awesome, enjoyable to play but i always have been a competitive person so i started to play multiplayer really fast. I played Undead in WC3 so playing Zerg was naturally the race i chose and i enjoyed playing it from the start. I discovered Teamliquid and decided to give this a shot, it seemed like there were alot of smart people posting in this forums and everyone loved the game as much as i did. While reading Teamliquid i discovered GSL and enjoyed Open Season 1 and Fruitdealers heroic run to victory as much as every other Zergplayer did. Back then i was complaining about Balance as much as every other Silver Zerg that thought he was the king of the world would do. With Open Season 1 over and a King of Zerg being crowned Season 2 and alot of new talent came into GSL, in the cheesiest of all GSLs i fell in love with the race that was damned to be the root of all evil. Terran. On October 21 i saw my new idol for the first time. He was a huge star and a genius in Starcraft Broodwar long before i even touched my computer for the first time. His way of playing Terran inspires me every time i see him play. I decided to switch races on this day. What followed was not the brightest time of my Starcraft career. Contrary to my new idol i decided to go the cheesy route to become good and shiny really fast, when my cheeseplay stopped working in diamond, i decided i needed a coach. No way i didn't have the potential to become as good as these players on the big stage, they were only humans after all. I took coaching lessons for about 1 and a half months and of course, i got better, but not because i worked hard, but because i got better builds and they worked for me. It was this one player that made me think about my game almost every day, was i playing the right way? was i doing this correctly? of course not, but i stayed going the same road of cheese and allins until i got were i am now. 1300 masters and still a bloody noob when it comes to mechanics and game understanding. It was yesterday when i saw my favourite player teir apart his GSL group with amazing play. I realized, i will never become as good as him, when i don't even try to play a solid and standard style, without working hard on myself and on my game. It was only now that i realized that playing Starcraft was nothing different from working out, it is more a fight against oneself than against your opponents, it is a fight against your own weaknesses and it is more satisfying than anything else to win in a straightup game versus a skilled opponent.
From now on i will try to become the player i should have aspired to become months ago but i got blinded by fast success and the easy seeming road of achieving something through money or cheap tricks.
From now on i will try to improve correctly and give back to the community i have been part of for about 10 months now.

From today on, i will try to become a little more like you!

Thank you Lee Yun Yeol


P.S.: Sorry for any spelling mistakes and for the missing structure, i just wrote my thoughts down as they came. ~~
I will keep you all updated on my progress and a little project i plan.
greetings,
FTD