I don't know who's looking for the answers.
I don't know where it will take me.
I want to get to where everything makes sense and yet nothing makes sense at all...
A wise man once said that thought, the mental systems, precede all language and all culture. Whether you're a billionaire or a poor starving kid, you're likely to have common thoughts. You might not speak the same language, have the same material comforts, or be of the same ethnicity, race, religion, or anything like that, but you'll think about stuff that will come across the mind of the other person halfway across the globe. This isn't like a hundred monkeys randomly banging away at keyboards kind of thing, it has a basis...
You would like to think about everything, but you'll end up confusing yourself. The wise ones get out first, they say. It is also the truly wise who can say that they know nothing, for that is the ultimate sign of knowing everything...
You don't want to end up getting caught in rhetoric, you don't want to make stuff up just to sound smart, you don't want to engineer seeds in your brain just to give the impression of being more handsome, more thoughtful, more intellectual, more charming, or more interesting than you actually are. So what do you do? Put on a poker face. That's fine until you notice the attractive individual sitting next to you on the bus, pretending to text. That's unfathomable, why didn't I think of that. I took out the trash this morning, I did it last morning too. I do chores, I do work, I do study, I do play, I do stuff. I do people on a regular basis. People say, why can't you be more like him? That's not my vision in life. I don't strive to be the next Lady Gaga. It's not quantity, it's about quality. It's not about mindless drivel on television, it's about the face of the future. You can't change that, but you can change your attitude. He's not egotistic, he's doing it to show he really cares about people. I got the price, I have the magic, what I don't have is your respect. I'm willing to do anything, but I'm not going to clean your bathroom. Where's that contract, I never signed that document, you cant double cross me, I been thru this stuff like dejavu all over again. Nice try...Take your money, I don't want it...
You want to be abstract, but you don't want to get lost in abstraction. The human mind seeks clarity but is fascinated by mystique. You want to perfectly define everything into neat little boxes, but the world doesn't work that way. It's not just black and white. Well, it's not just gray and pink. It's ultraviolet and infrared too...
You want to keep your head held high when those around you are losing theirs, and so you'll be a man, they say. But the sexiest woman I know was born a man. You can't make that up. It just IS. They say that everything you see and experience and feel is merely the electrical impulses in your brain. You think that's air you're breathing? One of my best friends, on his 18th birthday, went on a road trip and had to sleep in his car. The carborator burst at some point in the night, the carbon monoxide ate up his brain cells one by one, and he was found dead by morning. True story...
You know, it's a dog eat dog world. Everyone wants to get ahead in the world, it's a fact of life. It's cutthroat, people will turn your back on you, they don't want to necessarily hurt you, but they want to benefit themselves. You embrace your family, friends, your lover, whatever. But what's the real difference between having all the money in the world with no heart, and having empty pockets but always being open ears and arms? Your time on this earth is limited, being born with a silver spoon in your mouth will get you places, but you're only doing to postpone your own death. It will come eventually. They say life is the greatest thing you can take from a man, but it's also the only thing you can take from him...
Say anything, lose everything.
When those guys thought they could pull a fast one on you, you didn't flinch, because you knew they would get their due punishment. Let them do whatever they want, but just think to yourself and smile: are they doing it because they really want to or simply to fit in? Ponder it and smile to yourself. Even the afflicted can smile.
I'm not here to tell you how it's going to end, I'm here to tell you how it's going to begin.
I can tell you all my specifics, my system, my hardware, about my life, my friends and family, about the weather or the news. But I can't tell you what I'm going to do after I give you this message. I can't tell you what's going to happen tomorrow, if there is one.
Say anything, lose everything.
SAY ANYTHING, LOSE EVERYTHING.