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I was jipped off today at a school store by a foreign exchange student who didnt know how to work the fucking register. I got angry. I can't remember the last time that happened
Thing is, when I got angry, I got shit done. It wasn't just anger..it was an energy, I felt really dominant. Another realization hit me in the face like a pie full of whipping cream. It kind of splatters everywhere, but really the thing that makes you go "oh shit" is when it drips off and lands on your shoes. Anyway, I'm fucking emotionless. I can't remember the last time I really laughed either (not including drunkenness)
What do you guys do how do you trigger that energy you get from conflict out of yourself? I'm too chill.
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Are you talking about like aggressive energy, like being edgy and confrontational, or do you just mean being energetic and emotive in general. Basically, when you say too chill, do you mean your like lethargic and apathetic, or just that you pretty much go along with whatever people do regardless of what you really feel like doing?
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What would Commander Vodka want? I ask myself that question before I do anything important, or if I'm having self doubt.
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On April 19 2010 17:19 L_Master wrote: Are you talking about like aggressive energy, like being edgy and confrontational, or do you just mean being energetic and emotive in general. Basically, when you say too chill, do you mean your like lethargic and apathetic, or just that you pretty much go along with whatever people do regardless of what you really feel like doing? Like the guy in "I am the Messenger"?
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I dunno if the true feeling is something that you can "fake"... I usually find I'm most productive when I'm mad at myself for screwing something up. It just forces me to focus and do better.
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On April 19 2010 17:19 L_Master wrote: Are you talking about like aggressive energy, like being edgy and confrontational, or do you just mean being energetic and emotive in general. Basically, when you say too chill, do you mean your like lethargic and apathetic, or just that you pretty much go along with whatever people do regardless of what you really feel like doing? lethargic n apathetic
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Hmm, I don't have a big problem with that. Almost the opposite in that I can get way too into things. Usually when I find a new hobby I like, I get very into it. I'll start reading about it a bunch, figuring out the fastest ways I can improve, etc. I really like to do a few things very well, as opposed to dabbling across the board; but I sometimes take that to an extreme, and spend so much time doing what I want, that I don't give sufficient attention to the things I need to do.
Usually when I'm being lethargic and know I should be doing something I do a combination of two things. One is to listen to music I really like, especially something more driving and agressive, and then I just think about how I never regret doing the things that need to get done. Even with things I like, for instance, running. There are some days where going out for a 12 mile run just doesn't sound like the flavor of the day; I'd rather sit inside and play games, watch golf, chill with friends, whatever, but I remember that I've never regretted actually going out the door and starting the run. Thinking about how good I'll feel getting it done is usually all the motivation I need.
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You sound like Michael Douglas in Falling Down
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I can relate bro, like if i fall or get knocked down and get hurt playing basketball i usually get up and play way harder then before, something just clicks and gets me in gear.
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Anger eliminates anxiety, its like a scale where one feeling evens out the other, thats probably why you get shit done.
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