A lot has happened to me over the past 2 years. I bought my first house, i now have a 14 month son who makes me understand true love everyday and i have been working full time and also going to college. In other words i am pretty busy on a daily basis but i always try to see the good in life and that i feel is also my weakness.
Everyday something grabs my attention in either a good way or a extreme, negative way. I have two realizations, one, this world is tragic, and two, to have faith in humanity.
Being a father and reading news stories of parents killing and/or torturing their kids really makes me angry. How in this beautiful world can any living person harm their own child. It is not natural or moral to be that sinister. From locking kids in car's, beating them up for pleasure, molesting them and so many other cruel things.
Recently we had a scare with my uncle who was a alcoholic and suffered from night-time dementia. Too bad we didn't know any of those till it was too late. We had a family vacation at his ranch house; and when i say family i mean literally my whole family. Dad, Mom, Sister with her own young kids, brother, my wife and at the time my 4 month year old baby.
After a fun night of social drinking and socializing, it was time for bed. Two hours later we thought we heard some one yelling for help; at first we thought it was my uncle's pet parrot but then we heard it again. My wife and I were sitting up debating what that could be and then my sister slowly knocks on our door. She says, "I just caught Uncle "name" raping Aunt "name" and i had to force him off of her."
As soon as i heard that my first thought was to get my son the hell of out of here. I knew he had guns in the house and i knew he was extremely drunk. Within 5 minutes we were gone. No word, no waiting and no goodbyes.
Moral of the story is, when you get forced into a situation that either directly or indirectly involves your own kid, the only thing that matters is there safety. I would literally die for my son and so would my wife.
In that moment you realize what is both wrong with the world and what really matters. Everyday i watch at least one video that makes me tear up. Yes i might be sensitive and gullible but i also have been experiencing so many acts of kindness and my faith in humanity is ever evolving. I am terrified at times to even walk down my own street but at the same time i look forward to meeting that next nice person.
In this blog i will be updating it whenever i personally come across something that touches me in either a positive or negative way. I hope that maybe one person that reads this can also open up about how they are feeling. I am always searching for good people to be around and sometimes that seems hard. My faith isn't one of a book or that of a believe, my faith is simply mine.