EPTI'm making this blog to try to put some of my writing skills into practice and to make up for the crap I've been posting lately.
ICCup: What Is Your Goal?
How many times have I just logged on to ICCup to just go to my channel and sit there browsing through my friend's list and trying to get in contact with somebody. How many times have I just spent entire evenings on pure chatcraft when I could've used that time to get at least just a little better. Those are the things that come to my mind everytime I think about what am I doing there, what is my purpose on being there, what is my goal, what am I trying to accomplish? I always see the high ranked players and just stare at their icons and think on how awesome they must be for achieving that. I've been playing on ICCup for a whole year now and here I am, still sitting on this ladder watching the same colors over and over again while my comrades who once were in my level are now gone and high up there in the ladder. This place has gotten so repetitive that I consider it my home:
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Ladder D
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I'm just so used to looking at that image that I think I'm starting to like blood, hearts, roses, and this upcoming Valentines day... fucking red is all I see all the time.
1v1 motw D+ come! has been my trademark game-name for a while now and I'm starting to wonder whether it'll stay like that forever or not. The thing is, I don't want that to happen, and I want to break out of it as soon as I can but no matter how hard I try it's just simply too hard, or maybe I don't have the right intentions/motivation.
About three seasons ago I hit C- for the first time, it was the best feeling I've ever felt in my entire SC career. And as I left the game smiling happy as a clam, I suddenly appeared in this world; this foreign and completely different world compared to where I lived prior to that victory; it didn't feel like home at all, I felt more exposed and totally foreign from the rest of the people in there; lots of new faces, faces I've never seen before in my life, and others that went past my home rather quickly but still recognized them when I first got here like: "Hey, I've seen that guy before". The place was so different that my eyes were hurting from the glare at the amazing super-sayan colored ranks, and as I lay there dying, I found a new type of monster, one that I had soon to be fighting if I was to keep on pressing my goal, and as they stood there, I got chills by just looking at them; C+ ranks.
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But I got stuck there, I was afraid that if I played another game I would be returning home pretty much the same way NonY did. And I liked it so much in that new mansion that I just didn't want to risk another game to further secure my stay in there or to get kicked back down to grandma's house; I had the perfect balance of stats: No Games.
Season ended and it showed in my profile, like a little badge, that I had securely made it to C- (with like 3001 pts...) but still I had made it.
But now that some time has gone by, I don't want to stay there forever, nor I want to go back down to grandpa's. I want to move up to the diamonds, dollars and donuts ranks though I find that it will be practically impossible for me... but I do not want to stay, with all my heart I just can't stand too much damn yellow ffs!
I've been only once to the Ladder A-B, and damn, I literally can't make a simple move. It's just too... perfect (for my standards) that I simply want to stay in there and live in that place forever. I feel it pretty much like:
D Ranks: Dark, red, death, below hell, dirty soil type of home in which grandpa lives and slaps my ass around every now and then. Everyone in there is either a corpse, zombie or a baby demon.
C Ranks: Fiery hell, lots of new monsters that can stomp me in the blink of an eye, it's gunna be a fucking sayian battle to get out of there, I don't care where. Everyone in there is either a demon, dragon or a fuckass devil lord.
A-B Ranks: Fucking heaven, calm, peace, palce where you rejoice in your SC life's accomplishments and share with others. You have to set /dnd on so that demons below you don't encourage you to go down to their pits or praise you for your rank. Everyone in there is either an angel, centurion, archangel, or greek god.
So yeah, that's my goal my friends. Once I hit B- I'm out of StarCraft forever to go and rest in peace and have in mind that the reams of time I spent on this game weren't in vain and that I accomplished something many (outside of Korea) can't. But the last thing I want to have in mind when I leave that Abyss, is this:
+ Show Spoiler [Heaven] +
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Well, that's about it, I need some motivational comments to at least help me make it to C this season. Thank you!
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