So basically, I was in Korea during the 1980's or 70's and apparently there was a huge war going on in Asia. People in the villages were getting raped and killed and it was just absolutely horrible. While walking in my hometown, I saw my grandfather lying on the floor, beheaded and obviously dead. I clearly remember during that moment, I almost passed out and was traumatized. I then find my mother and we were hiding somewhere until some recruiter from the Korean army approaches me and tells me to follow him. I know that if I go to the army, I have a high chance of dying like my grandfather and the feeling of death just scared the living crap out of me. I refused and that recruiter shoots my mom and then me, in the throat. At that specific moment I actually felt like I died. My senses are coming to me and say "it's just a dream" and I only hope that it's the case. I wake up, but then it was a dream of a dream....so now in that dream I am not dreaming something anything pleasant (I keep having bad dreams lately....). I finally wake up the next morning and my shoulders ache and I don't feel too good. Could this nightmare have triggered this? I seriously don't feel too great right now.
I don't know why I keep having weird dreams or nightmares. I live a very happy life and nothing depresses me. In fact everything has been going great for me. Fuck, now I get pretty scared to sleep at night.