EDIT: rayn clarified that he was actually mad with me about another game so I made a mistake with my judgement. I don't remember what happened that game (because it was 6 years ago and I don't have a record of it) but I'll assume that rayn is telling the truth here. I'm sorry rayn <3 I still love you, we had some fun games.
EDIT2 (Context of this blog): It's very difficult to get a game of Diplomacy in TL (it only comes once every few months or something) and when rayn joins, I can't play with my other friends because I'm not an asshole to join if he doesn't want to play with me and make him leave.
Also it's not fun to have someone continuously saying shit to me after 6 years when I'm fine with everyone else although we had lied to each other (as part of the game).
There's one party in town once in a blue moon and when I try to join it, I see rayn scowling at me, so I leave. This time, I got mad enough to write this blog and vent because it's been 6 fucking years.
(Since the TL Diplomacy community is so small, I tried to make this readable and hopefully fun for everyone)
On April 20 2016 05:02 raynpelikoneet wrote: I mean it is nothing personal JX. I just don't feel like it's worth of my time to play with people who are playing for not to lose instead of playing to win.
On October 04 2019 22:22 raynpelikoneet wrote: I already said in game if JX is joining you might aswell look for another replacement on my spot.
On October 15 2022 15:01 Chezinu wrote: Guess I'll need to figure out how to play soon.
easy, negotiate not to take channel then take it anyways <3
hhahaha hi rayn
On October 21 2022 00:25 raynpelikoneet wrote: Why not just Vivax and Dirkzor? I'm okay with anyone aside for JX, then i am quit. I dont play with people who dont want to win in the first place.
I was just saying hi to be friendly to you. It has been more than 6 fucking years man. I can't believe you're still mad and accusing me of this haahahaha.
Now I have to defend myself because other people don't know what had happened and they might have the wrong impression.
********************************************************************************************************************** Apologies for the lack of screenshots, it seems that my game history from 6 years ago are nowhere to be found on PlayDiplomacy. I don't even have our old chat messages anymore because it was so long ago and they were on fucking Skype. ********************************************************************************************************************** If you want a TLDR of what Diplomacy is, I'd describe it as 7 player Risk without any RNG elements, with a MAJOR defender's advantage element.
This is the game board of the Diplomacy game for reference because I know it's not too popular:
More than 6 years ago, I was France, rayn was England and Xatalos was Germany. I had to choose one of them to trust. Rayn was giving me orders and I agreed to not go to the English Channel. After talking to Xatalos, I realised that Xatalos was a much nicer guy and I could trust him more. Rayn seemed like he was out to manipulate me as it was my first game and I'm supposed to be the noob. He kept flip flopping. I couldn't trust Rayn.
So I moved to the English Channel and Xatalos moved towards England too, while Rayn went all out vs Russia. He was screwed.
Rayn was trying hard to convince me to backstab Xatalos (Germany) because I wouldn't be able to solo win otherwise. I said no because I couldn't trust Rayn. His reputation was so bad and his arguments sucked. It was only turn 2 and he already wants me to backstab my only ally.
Rayn said something like "fuck you guys" in public chat and proceeded to rage quit on turn 2 or something. Usually I'd feel bad but I had a good laugh, because of the way he had treated me.
That's how Rayn labelled me as the guy who "didn't play to win": I didn't want to backstab the only guy I could trust. I think I ended up having a two way shared victory with Xatalos that game.
There are other situations where I was supposed to ally with Rayn (which was the supposed "optimal move" according to Grandmaster Rayn) and I rejected them because he was also trying to manipulate me all game and I would rather trust someone else.
People who have played with me and got to the two way or 3 way shared victory with me know how much effort I put into winning the game. Even the people whom I was playing against know this. This includes people like Hapahauli, Alakaslam, rsoultin, mderg, Dirkzor, Xatalos and DarthPunk (and some other people who I've forgotten, I'm sorry. It's been a long time). I respect these guys.
To me, my proudest achievement was when I was Austria and I was down to 1 or 2 bases in turn 3 or something and everyone thought I was dead.
Turkey and Russia were allied and they were about to eat me up. Germany was allies with Russia because of a friendship outside of the game. There was no one who cared about helping me. Understandably so. I was too weak and had no allies.
Somehow, I managed to come back from the dead and get to a shared victory. I recall it being a 4-way shared victory with DarthPunk (Russia, controlled by me) sharing the victory.
I did it by convincing DarthPunk (Russia) to let me control his account. Hence I controlled all of Russia's units. I have a lot of respect for DarthPunk btw. I did not manipulate him.
How was that possible? I did it after DarthPunk got so mad after his ally mderg (Turkey) backstabbed him (DarthPunk). DarthPunk wanted to leave the game and he didn't want to play anymore. So I asked him for permission to take control of his units since he was going to leave. DarthPunk's changed his password to "fuckmderg", when he gave me his account.
Rayn, don't ever tell me that someone who managed to get DarthPunk to let me control his account does not play to win.
I just didn't trust you because you were sus as hell, you were manipulative and most of all, you didn't show me (le noob) respect like everyone else did.
You accused me of not playing to win, just to compensate for the fact that you sucked at manipulating me.
It was been six fucking years. Please stop it. We are old now and I just want to be friends with everyone. The TL Diplomacy community is already small enough as it is.
********************************************************************************************************************* PS: Yes I'm name dropping these guys (like Hapahauli and DarthPunk) who I regard as TL Mafia royalty because I know I am telling the truth.
Hope you all with have a good day and I hope you guys are doing well. I really like you guys although I suck terribly at mafia.
I hope everyone else on TL is doing well too. I tried to make this fun and readable for people who aren't playing the game. I am not popular here, so not many of you will know me. I've been busy with my work and music nowadays (that's a fun story for another day) and I haven't played BW for around 1-2 years and I've missed the last few ASLs.
On October 21 2022 00:25 raynpelikoneet wrote: Why not just Vivax and Dirkzor?
I'm okay with anyone aside for JX, then i am quit. I dont play with people who dont want to win in the first place.
I was just saying hi to be friendly to you. It has been more than 6 fucking years man. I can't believe you're still mad and accusing me of this haahahaha.
Now I have to defend myself because other people don't know what had happened and they might have the wrong impression.
So you had the decency of writing a blog post about how bad of a person i am misrepresenting everything that happened in the game.
1) Did i or did i not tell you that in case you do not break the alliance, player X is going to 100% win the game solo (that includes also YOU, not only me, losing)? 2) Did i or did i not present the moves for that player, that they are going to take, to achieve that, unless you're breaking the alliance with them? 3) Did the game, or did it not, end in the exact way i presented it to you?
Now if you answered "no" into any of these questions, then you are just a straight out more liar than you already are. Because that's exactly what happened. It's one thing to be incompetent enough to not realize the outcome of an action in a game, but it's a whole other thing to blame the person who told you exactly what's going to happen after you take said action.
That's how Rayn labelled me as the guy who "didn't play to win": I didn't want to backstab the only guy I could trust. I think I ended up having a two way shared victory with Xatalos that game.
That's how i labeled you as a guy who doesn't play to win, and don't try to bullshit anything about any 2-way victory since that didn't happen.
Before I told you this:
On April 20 2016 05:02 raynpelikoneet wrote: I mean it is nothing personal JX. I just don't feel like it's worth of my time to play with people who are playing for not to lose instead of playing to win.
I have never been an obstacle for you to join another game. You have been able to play all the diplomacy games you wanted after 2016. I don't even mind if you spread shit about me on a sub-forum, but since you felt the need to make a blog post about your misrepresentations, just to fuck with me, it is now personal.
I genuinely don't want anything to do with you anymore, regardless of whatever happens in the future, so have a nice life!
For some reason I read the op with Alyson Hannigan's voice in my head and put "One time at band camp" in front of each sentence whenever it fit. Sorry, but it's late and it really doesn't take a lot to crack me up when I'm tired. xD
I have no idea what is going on but I enjoyed reading it. I especially love that there is a victory screenshot from 2016 that has been saved for 6 years.
On December 10 2022 10:09 Manifesto7 wrote: I have no idea what is going on but I enjoyed reading it. I especially love that there is a victory screenshot from 2016 that has been saved for 6 years.
Classic TL Mafia antics. I am bit confused by the Screenshot though. According to the story this should be a different game.
On October 21 2022 00:25 raynpelikoneet wrote: Why not just Vivax and Dirkzor?
I'm okay with anyone aside for JX, then i am quit. I dont play with people who dont want to win in the first place.
I was just saying hi to be friendly to you. It has been more than 6 fucking years man. I can't believe you're still mad and accusing me of this haahahaha.
Now I have to defend myself because other people don't know what had happened and they might have the wrong impression.
So you had the decency of writing a blog post about how bad of a person i am misrepresenting everything that happened in the game.
1) Did i or did i not tell you that in case you do not break the alliance, player X is going to 100% win the game solo (that includes also YOU, not only me, losing)? 2) Did i or did i not present the moves for that player, that they are going to take, to achieve that, unless you're breaking the alliance with them? 3) Did the game, or did it not, end in the exact way i presented it to you?
Now if you answered "no" into any of these questions, then you are just a straight out more liar than you already are. Because that's exactly what happened. It's one thing to be incompetent enough to not realize the outcome of an action in a game, but it's a whole other thing to blame the person who told you exactly what's going to happen after you take said action.
That's how Rayn labelled me as the guy who "didn't play to win": I didn't want to backstab the only guy I could trust. I think I ended up having a two way shared victory with Xatalos that game.
That's how i labeled you as a guy who doesn't play to win, and don't try to bullshit anything about any 2-way victory since that didn't happen.
On April 20 2016 05:02 raynpelikoneet wrote: I mean it is nothing personal JX. I just don't feel like it's worth of my time to play with people who are playing for not to lose instead of playing to win.
I have never been an obstacle for you to join another game. You have been able to play all the diplomacy games you wanted after 2016. I don't even mind if you spread shit about me on a sub-forum, but since you felt the need to make a blog post about your misrepresentations, just to fuck with me, it is now personal.
I genuinely don't want anything to do with you anymore, regardless of whatever happens in the future, so have a nice life!
Just please stop spreading lies about me.
Anytime you're in a game I can't join it, because you'd threaten to leave. You might not be forbidding me directly but I'm definitely facing obstacles when you'd start threatening to leave after I just said hi to you.
I thought you were angry with me about a different game where I had a 2-way or 3-way victory with Xatalos and we ganked you. In that game I was referring to, Xatalos was Germany and not Russia.
I don't remember what had happened in the game above where Xatalos was Russia. I don't even see my name on there but maybe it's because I had surrendered. Since I cannot access my game history anymore, I will have to take you for your word and trust that you're telling the truth.
I'm sorry and I will edit my post to begin with an apology reflect that.
On December 10 2022 19:36 justanothertownie wrote:
On December 10 2022 10:09 Manifesto7 wrote: I have no idea what is going on but I enjoyed reading it. I especially love that there is a victory screenshot from 2016 that has been saved for 6 years.
Classic TL Mafia antics. I am bit confused by the Screenshot though. According to the story this should be a different game.
yes I thought rayn was angry with me about what I had done in another game and I don't remember the details of this game because it has been 6 years. I choose to believe that I had messed up here and rayn is telling the truth. All I remembered is that I often didn't believe rayn hahaha.
On December 11 2022 21:30 justanothertownie wrote: It would not be the first time for rayn to drastically misremember things though. Not that I know anything about this specific case. Just in general.
hahahaha I didn't trust him in my games for a reason, but it's been 6 years and I really don't want to argue anymore.
The scenario raised by rayn seemed possible: Me not listening to rayn is completely within my character. I didn't trust him and I remembered trusting Xatalos. Since Xatalos won here, it's possible that Xatalos screwed me over because he's a boss that way.
I had tried to verify things on my side before writing this post but I've lost the game history. I imagine that since rayn still has the evidence, he had verified it before coming back at me.
On October 21 2022 00:25 raynpelikoneet wrote: Why not just Vivax and Dirkzor?
I'm okay with anyone aside for JX, then i am quit. I dont play with people who dont want to win in the first place.
I was just saying hi to be friendly to you. It has been more than 6 fucking years man. I can't believe you're still mad and accusing me of this haahahaha.
Now I have to defend myself because other people don't know what had happened and they might have the wrong impression.
So you had the decency of writing a blog post about how bad of a person i am misrepresenting everything that happened in the game.
1) Did i or did i not tell you that in case you do not break the alliance, player X is going to 100% win the game solo (that includes also YOU, not only me, losing)? 2) Did i or did i not present the moves for that player, that they are going to take, to achieve that, unless you're breaking the alliance with them? 3) Did the game, or did it not, end in the exact way i presented it to you?
Now if you answered "no" into any of these questions, then you are just a straight out more liar than you already are. Because that's exactly what happened. It's one thing to be incompetent enough to not realize the outcome of an action in a game, but it's a whole other thing to blame the person who told you exactly what's going to happen after you take said action.
That's how Rayn labelled me as the guy who "didn't play to win": I didn't want to backstab the only guy I could trust. I think I ended up having a two way shared victory with Xatalos that game.
That's how i labeled you as a guy who doesn't play to win, and don't try to bullshit anything about any 2-way victory since that didn't happen.
On April 20 2016 05:02 raynpelikoneet wrote: I mean it is nothing personal JX. I just don't feel like it's worth of my time to play with people who are playing for not to lose instead of playing to win.
I have never been an obstacle for you to join another game. You have been able to play all the diplomacy games you wanted after 2016. I don't even mind if you spread shit about me on a sub-forum, but since you felt the need to make a blog post about your misrepresentations, just to fuck with me, it is now personal.
I genuinely don't want anything to do with you anymore, regardless of whatever happens in the future, so have a nice life!
Just please stop spreading lies about me.
Man imagine being this fucking butthurt about an online diplomacy game from 6 years ago LOL
yesssssssssssssss he's amazing! I watched this a few hours after it came out. Thank you for the link man I love your blogs
Oh.
Well I will stop making recommendations. I thought you had different goals in mind.
This confuses me further actually, why do you desire recommendations in the first place? You should simply aspire to express yourself as skillfully as you are able and a little bit beyond that.
That is how you avoid the curse of Rick Astley. The cost of avoiding that curse is to remain unknown, but, Rick hated his product because he knew it was just that. Tchaikovsky also disliked his overture that people like more because it has B A N G than because it is actually a rather fine piece. Well, it is also extremely successful and is still performed over a century later. But, he derived little to no pleasure from it himself, and high art minded academics who are music connoisseurs tend to look down upon it.
Such high art, though being a mutual masturbation, is so in a way that isn't necessarily taboo or degrading. If that can make sense. But since it is partnered in a different way than popular things are (a more traditional giving sex, to keep the erotic analogy) you can immediately tell the difference. To seek outside influence runs a severe risk of tainting that in oneself.
However if you want the curse of fame, you need to discover the main stream of collective thought at the source and tap into it early. Part of how one does this is to look back and to look around. But you have to look around at what gives pleasure to those outside, not solely to those inside. Mainstream stuff is really kind of simple, but in a "new" way.
Tl;dr: I thought you wanted to get famous and monetize your work but it seems you want to pursue the art for arts sake which does lead to greatness but is often 1. Unrecognized by most and 2. Usually best done without outside influences in order to preserve originality, to the extent of my knowledge. So this is a long drawn out apology as I am only useful as a "normie" guinea pig.
Hey man I don't know whether you're joking or not because I cannot tell. I did not know that you were making recommendations to me.
On December 15 2022 22:47 Jealous wrote: Man imagine being this fucking butthurt about an online diplomacy game from 6 years ago LOL
IF it were me from 6 years ago I probably would have continued to argue.
Now I had just sent him a PM (a condensed version of my reply) to apologise personally for something that I might have done too but rayn didn't respond. oh well