We all change. When you think about it, we're all different people all through our lives, and that's okay, that's good, you gotta keep moving, so long as you remember all people that you used to be. I will not forget one line of this. Not one day. I swear.
Whoo boy, blog posts. Looking back, mine have been pretty bad, no? Low points in life can do that to a guy.
TL has been an interesting place for me. I came because I played BW and SC2 (which I sucked at), found a community in the old KMD (such as it was), and then soon spent much of my time in the LoL forum (which I also sucked at). Everywhere I've went, the people have been... entertaining. Lots of great people, lots of characters.
But it's been a good place for me. Anonymity is a hell of a thing, and I've said things here that I never would have been able to talk about to people I actually know. Whether it's embarrassing things, stupid kpop fanboy shit, or talking about my self-doubt and health issues, I've felt that I could talk with at least someone in the community and been ok with it. And yes, there are people here that I would even consider friends, even if that seems strange and a bit sad.
That quote at the top - it's true, you know. I'm not who I was, or who I have been. I may never be who I am now in the future. And that goes for everyone. When I entered college, I didn't know and didn't care where my life was going. By Junior year, I knew where it was going and what I was going to do. When I graduated, I realized that I had no idea what was going on and I hated every second of it. At my last job, I hated it and hated myself and was just generally depressed about the world in general. Now, I've come to accept the way things are.
Nothing is perfect, my life least of all. But there's plenty of good in it. Good experiences, good people, happy moments just waiting to happen. I have a lot to live for now. And when I think about it, I know I always have, despite things I might have said in the past. I'm happy. I have things going on in my life and I enjoy spending each day as, well, myself. And honestly, that has been in part thanks to the fine folk here on TL.
15k posts is a lot. A lot of shitposting, a lot of whining, a lot of talking about nothing. But there's also been a lot of fun times, a lot of learning, and a lot of meeting people that have surprised me and made me happier. Even though it's really only been about 3 years, I'm happy for (almost) every second that I've been a part of this community. I don't know if I would be who I am today if it wasn't for TL. Would I still be depressed? Would I be more social? Would I have found the courage to ask out the wonderful girl I'm with now? Would I just be a recluse who found another, less awesome community to shitpost in?
Who knows? Alternate reality episodes usually suck anyway.
To more posts and years, thanks for all the people that have been with me and all the fun we've had together.