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On May 24 2012 00:32 Azera wrote:
I am unsure of what to feel, exactly, when I realise that I have been fawning over one girl for the past two years. Considering that I have yet to even hear her voice, it makes me discombobulated whenever I take the time to seriously ponder about my present circumstances.

Anybody who wishes to get fully acquainted with the tragic and pathetic story of mine can simply look into my collection of blogs that I have written and Ctrl+F "Girl Blog". The gist of it is, there's a girl that I've been in love with for 2 years, and I usually see her on the way to school. Some things happened, and a friend of mine managed to get her Facebook and Tumblr.

Naturally, I did some major online stalking whenever I had the time to. Over time, I have managed to mentally construct a list of sorts, of whatever her interests were and whatnot. Anne is a nice person, from what I could gather. She wrote about standard, bothersome, and possibly ignorant hipster ideals and reposted whatever hipster pictures. This made an impact on my young and impressionable mind.

But, I think I can finally push all these nonsense out of my head, refusing to allow it to influence my thoughts, as I once knowingly made an exception to these out of madness.

As I type, I can predict the backlash I will get from what I am going to say.

Today, I was travelling back home after a particularly unsavoury day at school. The bus stopped to allow some passengers to alight, I stood near the exit, not paying much attention to the doors that had flung open. I happened to look out of the exit and there Anne was, sitting on a bench. She was sitting with a boy that was similarly dressed. Full black. She had make up on. She was part of her school band that had a performance today. The guy was obviously a fellow band member. It was where she lived, and yet, she was sitting at the bus-stop in front of her house at 10pm, talking to this guy.

Why? Were they waiting for something? Possibly, but it was rather late and it's not very logical to say that they were waiting for a bus. She could have just entered her condominium, damn it, but common sense would say that she was clearly having a chat with someone of particular value to her. Not only was I suspicious of the time and the fact that it was just the two of them, they were also sitting shoulder to shoulder. It looked quite intimate. I would guess that they had just finished the concert and he was walking her home or something like that.

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I don't think there are any other viable explanation for what I saw, so I guess that means the end of this, right? I should have tried, but I didn't. Should I still try? I don't think so.

I think the only rational thing to do now, is to just let it go and continue living my life. But, it's quite difficult to move on, when she was played such a major role in shaping my throughout these years, as stupid as that may sound.

I feel quite empty at the moment. And yet, I feel as if my thoughts have never been less deluded or more clear in a long time. I need some advice guys, please.

On June 19 2012 21:26 Azera wrote:
Yeah I guess it's important to be friends first. A friend told me that a relationship that burns too intensely will eventually die, while a relationship that burns slowly and steadily will long and be fruitful.

On September 28 2011 02:34 Servius_Fulvius wrote:


That's one way. "Hi! I see you on the bus every day, but then noticed you on a street near my school. Do you have friends in the area?". It's important to ask a question that warrants participation. The question I posed isn't that great either because it's a yes or no question that she could answer with a yes or no. A simple transition is "Sorry if that sounds a little creepy. I'm Azera, I go to school the school nearby. What's your name?". Go from there. Great questions to ask are "Where are you from", "Where do you go to school", "How is school going", "How do you spend your free time"....stuff like that. Personally I think it's a lot easier to meet people through social groups since the ice is so much easier to break, but when it comes to talking to someone you've never really met this is the way to go.

On June 19 2012 22:23 Servius_Fulvius wrote:


I'm guessing this is the same girl from September. I'm going to tell you the same thing I told you back then:



It's never to late to make a friend. You're pretty much stalking her on the bus, so if you're not going to say anything at least take a different bus.