I figured that I had finally overcome my golden handicap and elevated into the world of the shiny platinum, where everybody is a supermodel and nobody ever proxy 11-11s. Right? That's why there is an eagle in the emblem... for AMERICA F*** YEAH.
I wait a day to savor my new-found promotion. Then, I decided to start streaming. I lose the first game stupidly by engaging a Toss army of high templars and colossi with my muta-ling. Oops. I win the 2nd game to a Terran who went bio, because banelings are good units. I win the 3rd game against a Toss who decided to put some void ray + stalker pressure on my 3rd when I have mostly hydralisks. eZ. 2-1 so far, and all on stream.
Then this happens.
WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
The reaction is more confused than excited this time. Also, the mic is a bit quieter.
Honestly, I don't know what to make of this. I am 91.142857% sure that I am NOT diamond level, let alone high plat level. I still get supply blocked. I miss my larva injects. My micro is abysmal, and so is my decision making.
I am quite sure that I will be demoted pretty quickly. The badge of Diamond is shiny, and I don't think I can hold on to it for now. I kind of want to stop laddering until the end of the season just to say that I finished in Diamond once. And while I am making constant efforts to improve in every way possible, it is hard to improve when you are getting your ass whooped good.
It's like Blizz is dangling loads and loads of something really awesome in front of me, and I jump and get it, but a little bit later, they just take it right back. I can't keep this badge, who am I kidding? 3 games isn't enough to prove that I am beyond Plat.
But I think I can take some consolation in this shaming feat from the words of a silver I met on ladder when I was gold. "MMR doesn't judge skill." Now that this happened, I need to take this to heart. One thing I noticed when I was playing in Plat was that my play became better. I focused more, didn't get supply blocked as much, and droned harder. This is a mentality I adopted for my league, but something that I should have adopted a long time ago. I should always be focusing on the basics.
And even though I will get demoted, whatever. I have the potential and I guess that is nice.
gl, hf!
-Snorlax