Seems like you're trying pretty hard to be your idea of a man. Relax, you just need to be 3 things: Sensitive, open, and strong. Does that describe your grandpa?

You're awesome man but advice is, only treat your relationships in life seriously, everything else just melts away. Family members passing is the hardest thing in life, hands down... but it happens. What will really fuck with you is when you have children and think, damn, it's happening to them!

Here, here's my suicide song (obv didn't work, was years ago, but still special song), best to close your eyes:

Lemme know if you can dig it, sliding down the hole at the center of your soul

Dknight

United States5223 Posts

January 09 2013 00:56 GMT

#85

:DDDDDD

<3u

radscorpion9

Canada2252 Posts

January 09 2013 02:35 GMT

#86

That was a really great blog...and your taste in girls is amazing. Those were some hot pictures

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The thing that surprised me most was actually that picture of Sheth. I had no idea his bald spot was that big, its kind of earth shaking to me right now.

diehilde

Germany1596 Posts

January 09 2013 13:56 GMT

#87

If you dont wanna get therapy then at least try out some meds. I can recommend amber/St. Johns Wort (dict.cc is giving me a ton of translations here... Latin name: Hypericum perforatum) preps. Its organic, proven in studies to be just as effective as chemical light anti-depressants but without the side-effects. No withdrawal symptoms as well. Seriously, read up on it and think about it.

ZERG_RUSSIAN

10417 Posts

January 09 2013 23:08 GMT

#88

On January 07 2013 22:19 boesthius wrote:
@sc4k This is a great response, and you're right. I'm incredibly egocentric and it's something I'm trying to work on. I addressed it in an earlier blog, and I think it's something that comes with time and self-reflection. That's a really lame answer but it's pretty much all I have on that. I can understand where you're coming from with the recording on the Dads album, but most of the genre like that isn't necessarily about the quality of the recording but the emotions that are portrayed via the song/lyrics. Thanks for the advice, it's really appreciated.

Like fuck you're egocentric, you're just confusing having high self-reflexivity with being self-centered. People with high self-reflexivity are generally smarter and more creative but pay the price by having more manic-depressive and unipolar depressive traits.

#boeslife tho

On January 08 2013 13:17 boesthius wrote:
gym tan laundry

delete facebook hit the gym lawyer up

but yes hit the gym.

gym tan ~~laundry~~ league

Ilikestarcraft

Korea (South)17717 Posts

January 09 2013 23:16 GMT

#89

will you respond to me too

Eruaphadion

Canada78 Posts

January 10 2013 05:32 GMT

#90

I really like your sense of style!

Thanks for the great blog. I wish you all of the best.

boesthius

United States11637 Posts

January 10 2013 07:48 GMT

#91

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Steel

Japan2283 Posts

January 10 2013 15:42 GMT

#92

On January 06 2013 08:55 Steel wrote:

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love the shoes... I wish I could some with a good quality/price ratio

been thinking about these all weeks, not really finding an equivalent as close enough as I would like. Any idea where those come from specifically?

7mk

Germany10156 Posts

January 10 2013 19:30 GMT

#93

Thing about Hypericum perforatum: afaik it's not as accessible in the US as it is in Germany, where you can just buy it in a pharmacy. There are some studies that suggest its not more helpful than placebo but also quite a few studies saying it helps for mild depression. I've had some experience with it as well, it helped me but I think I was on a general upswing anyways.

In what way did antidepressants make you worse? There's a lot of different antidepressants, they all have different side effects, and you can never know if that one antidepressant is right for a patient or not, if it doesn't work then you try a different one, if it still doesnt work you try augmentation with lithium, etc etc. I dont know your history with treatment but I'd say there's almost definitely no reason at all to think that you are somehow resistant to pharmacological treatment. Keep in mind that for antidepressants to work, it takes 2-4 weeks. For example if you are depressed, then take pills and as a result are still as depressed but are also nauseous and start vomiting its natural to think that the drugs are making you worse, but that nausea generally goes away after a few days, and after a few weeks they drugs help with your depression (Or they dont, in which case a different drug should be tried).

All of this being said, if you feel like you're taking care well enough of your emotions without needing additional help, that's fine entirely.
If you're depressed but feel like additional help isn't gonna do anything for you anyways, then you should reconsider

feel free to PM me if you have any question, I'm surrounded by psychiatrists a lot nowadays and its not gonna be allll that long till I'll be one