On November 11 2019 00:36 oBlade wrote:On November 10 2019 23:24 Wombat_NI wrote:
Bipolar is a hell of a drug. You can be relatively emotionally stable with it, but it sounds like your woman doesn’t work hard enough at it.
She has gotten worse over time. She tried medication but abandoned due to side effects. Of course, she self-medicates with the alcohol. Like I say it's incredible how nonviolent she is. I've known other bipolar or schizophrenic people. Some tried incredibly hard. One I never would have guessed she was bipolar until she told me. But then her unexplained nymphomania made sense.
On November 10 2019 23:24 Wombat_NI wrote:
Not that I particularly manage it well, I overcompensate a bit and think ‘do I really like this person or is it the bipolar impulsivity?’ far too frequently.
That's fascinating that that's a conscious thing you think about. She said as well she doesn't even always know how she feels. Isn't that part of "working hard" though? Or what else do you do?
It's really interesting you say that because that part is contagious. I found myself constantly doubting everything about what I think and my judgments and stuff... Like existentially. Just being close to that, it's like, what really is a person? or a mind? What are the boundaries? What's real? It seems like a totally different world. Of course I couldn't say I envy you. But in many ways she's one of the most real people I've
ever met. I try to figure out why occasionally... Maybe your condition necessitates some kind of introspection that many people don't have?
On November 10 2019 23:24 Wombat_NI wrote:
As for other stuff I too frequently fell into the ‘if I have one more conversation with x person all will be cleared up and civil’ pattern way too frequently, and it rarely ever worked out like that.
That's probably true. I'm leaning that way and hope he doesn't bother me or my life. But in the event he became suspicious of her story and wanted to know my side, I thought I should just offer to meet in person and say otherwise he has no reason to contact me. Also it serves as a good bookend to get him off my back hopefully. So hoping he wouldn't text or call or bother me with stuff, not that he would anyway even. It just felt like the right thing to say and I had to say something for closure.