EPT6 years after retirement. - Page 4
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lioneros
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Baneour
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warblob004
United States198 Posts
You are not alone, your worries and troubles are completely understandable, and your stories enrich the lives of all other pro-gamers of any genre. Please continue to tell them. I know it can be incredibly frustrating to not know what you want and to feel like so many things are not going well. It also doesn't help that the people around you seem younger and more successful while you still carry the burden of not only military service but also the uncertainty of your own future. This does not mean you are doing poorly in life. | ||
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Djabanete
United States2786 Posts
Your situation doesn't sound at all hopeless. I expect that in 5 or 6 years you will look back and marvel at how far you've come. | ||
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Chef
10810 Posts
To be honest, if you think about what happiness really is, you'll see how silly it is to believe you can control it. Happiness is about things unexpectedly going well. If you work really hard and achieve what you wanted, the happiness is never proportional to the effort you put in, you spend ages working toward something and feel good about it for a few hours once you're done. On the other hand, when you just out of no where meet someone really cool, or find out about something interesting, it feels amazing and you didn't have to work for it at all, and that excitement about this new thing can even last quite awhile. You work hard and learn stuff so that you can survive and get by. That's what I'm starting to believe. It's not the fun part of life most of the time. The fun part of life is when things go well for no reason. The more you try to control that and manufacture fun, the less fun anything is. At best you can just try to make sure your life doesn't get too routine and that you're allowing the possibility of fun things happening. One final thought is that some people are just better at feeling neutral when nothing is going on than others, some people are more resilient to a streak of bad luck, some people's brains light up more quickly to a small amount of happiness than others, or can hang onto that happiness longer. You can't really control that much either. But you can try to understand what type you are and maybe understand on at least an intellectual level whether or not your situation is truly serious, or if you are just sensitive. Lots of people give up too easy because they convince themselves things are too hard when they really aren't, and sometimes those people end up denying themselves some future happiness or stability. In any case, there's a difference between not being sure where you'll land and not being happy doing anything. You know your own mind, and you can best judge whether this is a pathological issue or if this is just a short phase. | ||
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Caelum93
62 Posts
@Rain I feel with you I studied business information(Bachlor 6 semester) but I am just bored of this shit,too and I dont know what to do with my life ....During my studies I was very social did different stuff like tried learning Chinese(HSK !) and Spanish(A2).My biggest issue is I can get along with every person or group but I dont really fit complete in one group. I mean I like food,olympic weightlifting/sports in general,politics and so on to find people.Sometimes I am just tired of all this shit around me when I stand up. Maybe the Military Service gives you a break about worrying to get a clear mind to sort what would you like to do.Perhaps you could try to become a teacher in the USA if you like to teach people.I noticed when I helped my younger mates in the university It was pretty nice feeling to teach other people and it was fun to me like 7 years ago to play a fucking long macro game in TvZ/TvT (No love for Protoss->IMBA) :D.In the end it is your choice to do it even if you are 30 it isnt the apocalypse just do which you can enjoy but dont hang around in a low wage trap with a shitty work life balance.In Germany you see enough people who study their 2nd subject because 'something with media' doesnt work always well. Btw. I am the same age like you so I can understand your situation well. Tl;dr,Do what you like. you are responsible for yourself and not for others but deal with the consequences and try always hard like in your Starcraft days this will help a lot with a good mind set! | ||
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Matroid_Prime
Canada59 Posts
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cArn-
Korea (South)824 Posts
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dark.matter
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fronkschnonk
Germany622 Posts
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orvinreyes
577 Posts
1. Don't compare yourself to others, but do learn from others 2. Don't regret decisions you've made in the past, and don't do anything you might regret in the future We'd all love to hear your success story in the future. Keep working hard and smart. | ||
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Hinosc
France2 Posts
But I wanted to know, why did you stop starcraft ? even if you couldnt be the best, you could had made good money with it, like TRUE who moved to USA, or even in korea, there is a lot of stuff to make money with starcraft, ur only 24, I bet if you go back to starcraft you can still rock it and make money from it. | ||
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don_kyuhote
3007 Posts
There are more people than you realize who are finishing their undergrad in their late 20s for various reasons. At least you have a very legitimate reason that you started college late; you were a progamer, someone who was at the top of his field, something 99.9% of people cannot say. I don't have that privilege. I just dicked around when I was young, playing games instead of studying and had to be dropped for years before I came back. I too had those moments where I wondered if my major is right for me. I think everyone will go through that, so don't worry too much. | ||
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CaptainBurnTurn
United States80 Posts
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Mahanaim
Korea (South)1002 Posts
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VioleTAK
4339 Posts
I truly understand your situation, as I was there for a few years myself. I was born in Israel, where I lived in most of my life, until recently. In Israel the army service is also mendatory (for men and women) 3 years minimum. I was different than most other people who just watned to luve a 'normal' life which meant: do the army until 21, then go to university, get a job, get married, have kids. I left the army not wanting to start studying, instead I went travelling all over the world, working in temporary jobs for years and years, until I found myself 29 years old without any formal education, not knowing how to proceed, feeling very lost. Making a long story short, I started a deep search of what I'm actually passionate about, as well as what are my gifts and talents, what can I truly do well, and how much can it be a part of my professional life. This was a long inner search of a few years with a lot of trial and error on the outside world. I am now 35 , very happy, living with my girlfriend in south america, working very successfuly without any formal education, and I get a lot of business because pepole see and recognize my skills and passion with what I do. The reason I'm telling you this, is to afirm to you that it's not too late in any way shape or form. You can start or re-start at any given moment, any age. Start a clean page. Forget about the age of others around you - many of them are not even living their own lives yet (just going through the motions and/or living their parents desires rather than their own), where they are or how old they are is of no imporance to you in your own journey. I know so many people who re-start at age 3X, 4X and even 5X, letting go of old professions and starting a new one because they realized that what they've been doing until that point was not what their heart's desire. Focus on finding your own path. You will find the way! | ||
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IArako
Germany195 Posts
Im 22 so not quite in the same spot but i currently feel similar about my life, i hope it will work out for all of us. Good luck Rain | ||
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RHCPgergo
Hungary345 Posts
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Gorgonoth
United States468 Posts
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W2
United States1177 Posts
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