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Hi all ~
I didnt write for a long time because of many reasons. Recently there have bin some big changes in my life. Long story short, at one moment I thought that everything was ok, and I had everything I needed in my life, and then, suddenly, I kinda lost everything.
In july I was the happiest person in the world, I started winning cups, clanwars, started to perform much better. Also I made a proposal to the girl I loved, and she said "YES". I was very happy! We spent a wonderful month together, then she went to her hometown to study in the university. We planned to actually get married in 2 years after she finishes her studies. I was confident in my decision, no doubts at all. I felt that everything is right, and, the most important thing, I was happy!
I was going to attend Dreamhack Bucharest and was practicing very hard. I knew there would be a lot of good koreans, but I wasnt scared at all, I didnt practice until my eyes bleed, but played a lot, my priority was on mindset. I imagined playing all the top players as well as the lowest level players, I tried to think about different situations that might happen there to be mentally ready for anything! Unfortunately, because of our manager's mistake, me and Strelok couldnt go there. The Turkish Airlines demanded the credit card that had been used for the payment of tickets, and it was impossible to do anything about it. I was really sad, I knew that anything could happen there, I could lose in first group stage and it would be shame, or maybe I could go through and that would be my biggest success, we may only guess now, but anyway I was really broken, spend weekend watching DH and playing other games.
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I felt really sick, had stomach-ache, didnt understand what was going on. On monday I called ambulance, got into the hospital, eventually, I was operated on appendicitis. That was the first time I've ever called ambulance for myself. I should say that I am quite healthy, I almost never catch a cold, I go in for muay thai (thai boxing) and gym, the day before surgery i was training and did 115 push-ups. And then... no physical exercises for a month, one week left, but that's very hard, because it's my life style, I really miss getting pain in my muscles. Sadly, I lost ~12 kilos already, so I'll start from a clean sheet. Our country is fucked-up, the medicine is "free", but in fact I had to borrow money to pay for the surgery. Usually I also support my family with spare money, but they had to borrow some money to come from other city to support me.
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After 3 days, on thursday, I was allowed to go home, but there were so many restrictions, it was hard to walk, I couldnt pick up anything heavier than 1 kg, I wasnt allowed to take a shower normally, strict diet.
It must be magic or something, but on saturday I won the WCS challenger qualifications beating really good players!
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I couldnt belive it. I was trying really really hard 2 seasons in a row, but this time, after surgery, feeling very sick physically and psychologically, I MADE IT. Unfortunately, because of all the problems I had I couldnt feel relief, I wasnt as happy as I thought I would be. The next day I got into semifinals of Zotac cup, where lost to MMA. I thought that I am in a very good shape.
Then I had a very fucking hard week. No practice, no joy, basically I was lying in my bed and thinking about everything. I was thinking about my relations with her, was trying to understand what was wrong, I was thinking about my life, about everything. I wasnt allowed to drink alcohol, damn, I wanted it so much. My friends and parents supported me a lot, eventually. I am still young and can do whatever I want in my life!
During last week, damn, I even forgot about it when I was writing it, I won the WCS challenger bracket stage! I was upset and heartbroken, but I managed to survive, to evolve. I made up plan how to beat MVP, but he forfeited, I got to know that I play vs Grubby, who took part in S2 season finals. I could prepare anything special, because I was still shocked and was thinking about my life, my relations, my future, I only made up my plan, how to play vs him and played 2-3 ladder games on my main account. I managed to win it 2-0. Both games were very strange. multitask oriented, unorthodox. I was very nervous and made a ton of mistakes, but I won!
The next day I played vs Babyknight, it was very hard for me to play at 22:00 cet, because I wake up at 6 am D: I didnt practice anything, concentrated on my mindset. Lost first game, then there was a sick 2nd game, where I had a huge advantage and couldnt feel it, I could randomly a click with all my units, but was so scared and didnt do it. Last game I just tried to do my best and he made a mistake. I immediately used it. I won the WCS challenger bracket stage, but because of all the stress I had I couldnt feel myself as happy as I should have been. Only now, after a week, I feel that something inside of me changed, I actually did it, this is my best result, and in 2014 I am going to play WCS! Unfortunately, this month is not very lucky for me :D So I didnt advance to the Premier League, that makes me sad, I feel that it is unfair, I just got better seed or something, but anyway I am happy now! I feel that I can perform much better, I got some confidence, I got new motivation, I look forward to practicing hard and improving!
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Now i am feeling much better, but still it's not me. I feel that I'm Slavik 2.0, I got hardware and software update, I have a fresh start with old HDD full of wonderful memories. Some bad things happened to me, but it's for the better. You know, when everything is going wrong, you say to yourself:
Oh, if I only had a chance to start it over once again...
This is my chance. I know that the most important things are health and your family, your friends, anything else doesnt matter as much. I am going to change something in my life, it's still me, but it's new me, I'll become better, stronger than ever before!
Ima show you, how great I am ~
Thank you for reading this and supporting me. That really means a lot to me. I'll do my best to stream more often and show you the best games I can! 
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Very good read! It was really nice to get to hear about your practicing, or the lack of it in this case and how that corrolated to your success I can't help but to think that because of all the other things you probably did not stress about starcraft so much and for that reason you were more relaxed which showed as great results.
Good luck to you and strenght with all the things going on in your life right now.
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Good luck with the future. Hope to see you in the premier league next year, how ever that shits gonna work.
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gl slavik
hope u will advance in premier league and will win IT!)
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great read! you just gained a new fan! good luck in the future
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5/5, great read, and good luck! =D
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Such a good post! Looking forward to reading more from you in the future! GL man, you've earned your place Hopefully you do even better from now on! I've watched your stream a few times since I'm a part of Na`Vi's staff but I never knew that much about you. I'm surprised we haven't invested more into a talent like yourself. You've always seemed like a chill and cool guy and I'm happy to see that's actually the case! :D
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Man, I have a lot of respect for you, keeping a positive outlook after everything goes wrong. I wish you all the best. Keep crushing nerds and gogo premier league!
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Very nice read. Good to see that you're so positive evn tough you had soem hard times!
~happyzerg fighting!
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great blog, i love your mindset
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Wow as a Millenium fan I was not verry happy when you knock out BBK but I think I will cheer for your in 2014, you deserve it.
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Good read. HappyZerg Fighting!!
You will find your happiness again
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awesome blog.
best of luck in the future!
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Happy happy happy zerg!
<3 GL man, we're cheering for you
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manly tears at the part about your breakup :'(
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keep it up, man! Fighting!
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Sorry to hear about the bad, but loved hearing about the good! Good luck for next season!
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Its interesting to read this. I wachted the games of challenger league and followed the results. There was a Name "HappyZerg", heard about him, but it was a name. Didnt cheer for you, didnt hate you, just a name.
Then you beat Grubby and i thought "man Grubby, you sometimes mess up, thats well known". Then you beat BBK and i thought "wow, he knows what hes doin´" I remember that day as i followed the results. First game:walkthrough against MVP, then Grubby (but Grubby has his bad moments) and then BBK. I recognized it and wanted to take a closer look an that "happyzerg".
Now i know what was behind this results. health issues, hospital, relationship....and a player gettin stronger an more focused than ever before. You won a fan, man! Will cheer for you an follow your stream.
Keep working out in gym, keep looking for girls (that fits togehter very well=D), keep living healthy, and keep performing as a player! Thumbs up!
I wonder whats goin on in over players lives.....=)
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Be happy about the fact that you realized what kind of a person your fiance was. Some years into the marriage it would have fucked shit up way more. GL with everything.
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Thank you for the kind words, these comments make me happy, I feel more alive than I actually am
I'm glad you enjoyed my blog so I'm going to write much more in future!
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This brought a tear into my eye :') . Had the same 'week-long break' with my long-term girlfriend, and it was the worst week of my life, so I have an idea of how you feel. Glad to see you made it through renewed, and with great results! You've definitely gained a fan! :D Hope you get to play Premier next season!
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you knocked out two German fan-favorites in the WCS qualifier. :'(
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Great read! Good luck in the future!
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That is the sickest blog I have ever read. Consider yourself up one hardcore fan! Will be looking forward to seeing you play in the future!
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Very good read. You have a really positive mindset and that's awesome.
Best of luck in the future!
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Please ignore the following question if it effects your personal feelings or somewhat, i dont wont to uncomfort you.
What was the cause of your health (stomach?) problems? Is ist sloved, are you cured 100%?
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On October 08 2013 02:42 Oukka wrote:Very good read! It was really nice to get to hear about your practicing, or the lack of it in this case and how that corrolated to your success I can't help but to think that because of all the other things you probably did not stress about starcraft so much and for that reason you were more relaxed which showed as great results. Good luck to you and strenght with all the things going on in your life right now.
Thank you, that's true, even during those games I was thinking about my relationships and was trying to remember some events, that's why I did everything automatically just as practice. Of course, at some points I got "nervous bitch mode on" and made some crazy mistakes :D But eventually, I won, and my opponents made some mistakes too, so it doesnt really matter
On October 08 2013 16:53 Bjarne wrote:
Its interesting to read this. I wachted the games of challenger league and followed the results. There was a Name "HappyZerg", heard about him, but it was a name. Didnt cheer for you, didnt hate you, just a name.
Then you beat Grubby and i thought "man Grubby, you sometimes mess up, thats well known". Then you beat BBK and i thought "wow, he knows what hes doin´" I remember that day as i followed the results. First game:walkthrough against MVP, then Grubby (but Grubby has his bad moments) and then BBK. I recognized it and wanted to take a closer look an that "happyzerg".
Now i know what was behind this results. health issues, hospital, relationship....and a player gettin stronger an more focused than ever before. You won a fan, man! Will cheer for you an follow your stream.
Keep working out in gym, keep looking for girls (that fits togehter very well=D), keep living healthy, and keep performing as a player! Thumbs up!
I wonder whats goin on in over players lives.....=)
On October 08 2013 18:59 Kekeolele wrote:
That is the sickest blog I have ever read. Consider yourself up one hardcore fan! Will be looking forward to seeing you play in the future!
That's great. I've always been an underdog, although I did well on ladder, finally I got my chance to show myself, and I didnt disappoint myself and people who've always supported me. I am really happy to get more people who'll be supporting me and who'll be interested in my activities. Thank you! I'll do my best not to disappoint you
On October 08 2013 18:22 mikkmagro wrote:
This brought a tear into my eye :') . Had the same 'week-long break' with my long-term girlfriend, and it was the worst week of my life, so I have an idea of how you feel. Glad to see you made it through renewed, and with great results! You've definitely gained a fan! :D Hope you get to play Premier next season!
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On October 08 2013 18:44 JustPassingBy wrote:
you knocked out two German fan-favorites in the WCS qualifier. :'(
I am sorry 
On October 08 2013 19:15 Bjarne wrote:
Please ignore the following question if it effects your personal feelings or somewhat, i dont wont to uncomfort you.
What was the cause of your health (stomach?) problems? Is ist sloved, are you cured 100%?
no, that's fine, dont worry, i think it was malnutrition (i love spicy food, pizza, coke, chinese and thai food, lots of chocolate). I guess it wasnt really balanced, had to eat less of an each kind, because my organism itself is very sensitive. Just need to be more careful next time xD More healthy food
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Really interesting post, hope that from now on all will be better for you, gl m8
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cool blog
But maybe you should change your name to SadZerg. That name has style.
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i'm glad hear about your success, GL
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That is, without a doubt, one of the craziest E-Sports story I've heard! GL HF in your play, and sorry about personal difficulties.
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HappyZerg you are awesome, gogo! :D
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Just had a breakup with my girlfriend after nearly 10 years of relationship myself and so i can
really understand how you have to feel right now. I am really glad that you have so much success lately
in sc2 so you can avoid thinking about your real life problems too much. Keep up the good work
and everything will go the way you want. I promise.
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Sounds like you had it rough. Good on you to pull through like that, it takes some perseverence to keep going.
Congratulations on the win in Challenger league, I was pleasantly surprised to see you get through since I haven't seen that much of you. New blood is always good.
I hope life and starcraft treat you well and good luck in the future!
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Gosh, with all the hate about WCS, stories like this make it sound like it's really helping in some places ^^
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congrats man, great read. :D
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Good luck, you've gained a new fan.
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Славик, так держать!!!
Славик 2.0 будет всех рвать!!
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You just gained a new fan. HappyZerg fighting!
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Great read! Ill start watching you now!
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So happy for you dude!
Felt so bad about the whole VISA thing for the ESET UK Masters event last year, it's almost 1 year since then and you finally rocked it for everyone to see. Hope to see more from you in 2014.
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Nice read, and I really think telling a little bit (or a lot) of your personal life issue/success is a good way to get people following players. I mean, who would have been able to win vs so many good competitors at this particular time of one's life? Also, my guess is that writing and discuss about it makes think a little bit easier, and you can also find support here.
I don't always watch SC2 that much anymore but I'll remember your name "Happy" Zerg :D gl hf IRL & IG !
Btw having a look inside the mindset of a progamer is really cool imo, it gets people connections to the players. Me like it !
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You did it!
Watched the Eset Masters in HomerJ Stream...3:2 against Krr....=)
Grats Man!! And dont forget: more vegetables and fruits, less chips an pizza...=D
cu
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thx! :D yeah, so happy to win the cup once again!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR READING MY BLOG! Damn, over 9000 views, that's so sick, I didnt expect it at all!!!
Soon I am going to write something else
Also, if you want any specific topic for me to write about, plz state in the comments! I'll think about it and will do it!
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good job, i am glad you overcame the girl problem. You came out a stronger and wiser man, there is nothing that can replace that. Take care and good luck!
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I know this is a nosy question, but what happened between you and your fiancé in one week that changed the situation from "let's get married" to "let's break up forever"?
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i am really happy for you (though i don't know who you are lol)
good job!!
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way to pull at my heart strings lol. I have felt the same way back in the day and it took me years to get over it, at times I think I still haven't but I know I will eventually. anyway, you seem like a really strong individual and I know you will pull through! stay a happy zerg. 5 stars!
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Watching your streams sometimes, even though iam playing protoss. Keep the streak going, would be nice to see you in Premier next season. GL on that!
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On October 10 2013 15:51 Gatesleeper wrote:
I know this is a nosy question, but what happened between you and your fiancé in one week that changed the situation from "let's get married" to "let's break up forever"?
sorry, that's personal, I can only say the facts
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I am terribly sorry to hear such tribulation in your life... but I'm definitely happy to hear despite such circumstances you were able to get back on your feet and display such great results. You have for sure gained a fan from this writeup =D I truly enjoy reading these articles from players so us fans can more easily relate. Will keep praying for ya.
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Женщины... Жить с ними нельзя, и убивать жалко! Но, хорошо, что все случилось раньше, чем позже! Пусть SC2 будет поддержкой в трудной жизненной ситуации, а не просто компьютерной игрой или работой. 
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On October 11 2013 02:41 HappyZerGling wrote:Show nested quote +On October 10 2013 15:51 Gatesleeper wrote:
I know this is a nosy question, but what happened between you and your fiancé in one week that changed the situation from "let's get married" to "let's break up forever"? sorry, that's personal, I can only say the facts
Okay, how about this: Any advice you would give to others so that they could possibly avoid the same thing happening to them?
It's just that it was the scariest part of your story for me. Like yeah, airline problems or getting appendicitis, those things are shitty when they happen, but they're more or less out of our control. But then to have your fiancé break up with you on top of that? That must've really sucked.
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On October 11 2013 23:30 Gatesleeper wrote:Show nested quote +On October 11 2013 02:41 HappyZerGling wrote:On October 10 2013 15:51 Gatesleeper wrote:
I know this is a nosy question, but what happened between you and your fiancé in one week that changed the situation from "let's get married" to "let's break up forever"? sorry, that's personal, I can only say the facts Okay, how about this: Any advice you would give to others so that they could possibly avoid the same thing happening to them? It's just that it was the scariest part of your story for me. Like yeah, airline problems or getting appendicitis, those things are shitty when they happen, but they're more or less out of our control. But then to have your fiancé break up with you on top of that? That must've really sucked.
yes, you are right, surgery wasnt as hard to come over! You know that it's happened, you know that there are a few reasons why it could had happened, you know that the surgery was ok, successful, you know that you'll be fine, you just need some time. You know exactly that you can start training in a month, eat something fried, some alcohol etc.
But in relations... damn :D that's hard, it's not only about you, it's also about the other person You perceive the objective reality, situations, actions subjectively. The other person may perceive the same stuff differently.
You have different plans for life, and when you meet someone, you have different plans, some people want to spend the whole life with this person, others just want to have fun, you need to be 100% sure about the other person's plans.
The problem is - when you are in love, you may forget about yourself, you may want to do everything for your beloved, you see only the best things, you make ur belove ideal inside your head, but in fact this person appeared to be different.
I understood that I was blind in many aspects, I compromised a lot, sacrificing my wishes, I saw only the best things, made a great picture inside my head. When I heard about the idea of breaking up, I started making a puzzle from all of my memories, all the actions. I have always seen everything from first person, but you always have to see everything from 3rd person, to analyze everything!
When you play starcraft, you make decisions based not only on what you see, but you are thinking about your opponent, what is his situation etc. Same in relations, but it's not your opponent :D
I made so many conclusions, right now I am still fighting thoughts about reunion, fixing stuff, getting everything better, start over again, I've never said that it's easy. It is fucking not. It's really hard, but you can go hard, or you can go home ^^;
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On October 12 2013 08:00 HappyZerGling wrote:Show nested quote +On October 11 2013 23:30 Gatesleeper wrote:On October 11 2013 02:41 HappyZerGling wrote:On October 10 2013 15:51 Gatesleeper wrote:
I know this is a nosy question, but what happened between you and your fiancé in one week that changed the situation from "let's get married" to "let's break up forever"? sorry, that's personal, I can only say the facts Okay, how about this: Any advice you would give to others so that they could possibly avoid the same thing happening to them? It's just that it was the scariest part of your story for me. Like yeah, airline problems or getting appendicitis, those things are shitty when they happen, but they're more or less out of our control. But then to have your fiancé break up with you on top of that? That must've really sucked. yes, you are right, surgery wasnt as hard to come over! You know that it's happened, you know that there are a few reasons why it could had happened, you know that the surgery was ok, successful, you know that you'll be fine, you just need some time. You know exactly that you can start training in a month, eat something fried, some alcohol etc. But in relations... damn :D that's hard, it's not only about you, it's also about the other person You perceive the objective reality, situations, actions subjectively. The other person may perceive the same stuff differently. You have different plans for life, and when you meet someone, you have different plans, some people want to spend the whole life with this person, others just want to have fun, you need to be 100% sure about the other person's plans. The problem is - when you are in love, you may forget about yourself, you may want to do everything for your beloved, you see only the best things, you make ur belove ideal inside your head, but in fact this person appeared to be different. I understood that I was blind in many aspects, I compromised a lot, sacrificing my wishes, I saw only the best things, made a great picture inside my head. When I heard about the idea of breaking up, I started making a puzzle from all of my memories, all the actions. I have always seen everything from first person, but you always have to see everything from 3rd person, to analyze everything! When you play starcraft, you make decisions based not only on what you see, but you are thinking about your opponent, what is his situation etc. Same in relations, but it's not your opponent :D I made so many conclusions, right now I am still fighting thoughts about reunion, fixing stuff, getting everything better, start over again, I've never said that it's easy. It is fucking not. It's really hard, but you can go hard, or you can go home ^^;
mm, thanks for this. I'll be thinking about this stuff for a while. I hope things work out for you, whatever that may look like.
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haha you got another fan by this post. I really wish you success and all the best. We'll do our best in supporting you!
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When we sent the email to players, it was communicated that Challenger League would not directly feed into Premier League because we wanted to restructure Challenger League. There are currently two phases in Challenger League, the group stage and the bracket stage, and there is a possibility that placement in the current Challenger bracket stage could still seed directly into Premier League. This decision hasn’t been made yet because we have to finalize our plans regarding region-lock first
У тебя все еще есть шансы на сид в премьер лигу!!!
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