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Instead of a blog about me ranting and raving about something you guys probably won't agree with, I want to write a blog to get to know you guys a bit more.
We come from all walks of life. We've had our hardships, either spoken or unspoken. But one way or another we get through it. I'm quite sure that we have members of our community who are struggling to get by with their own circumstances and well paid doctors and lawyers who go through their own unique problems. These are still real hardships that you have to deal with, regardless of your financial situation in life, and they are experiences you keep and share with your kids as you grow older.
Personally I'm pretty cautious about avoiding getting myself into a rut, but it finally looks like it's crunch time for me. Rather than going with the "standard spill out the beans and look for advice" strategy in the blog section I've opted to man up and face my issues right away. So I've made my decision on what to do even before writing this blog. All that's left is to wait and see where my decisions will take me and do my best along the way.
I don't feel like fighting anyone or getting into any more arguments. I just want to hear some stories about what changed your lives and what you did to get through it. Thanks
 
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I was recently kicked out of University after 1.5 years of study because of formal reasons. Now I have to do a special form of mandatory public service (instead of going to the military). For another 1.5 years, without break. If things go bad, I can't join Uni again in fall 2013, and would have to wait for a year. If things go well, then I have to study and do public service simultaneously for some time. Fuck. But not impossible.
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So you want us to spill our guts out but wont share your story its a two way street my friend.
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The day my brother brought home a PlayStation.
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Middle School. I realized that none of my grades really mattered until High School. And thus started my bad study habits/late nights playing CS 1.6. Not a bad time mind you, but the bad study habits carried over with me to college. It shows heavily.. X_X
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when my parents were born
turned for the better when i turned 18 and gtfo
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when i hit middle school. kids started realizing that i was gay and thought it was a bad thing. i started disengaging from life. it only got worse with high school, and since then i've been clinically depressed.
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On April 17 2012 02:31 iamperfection wrote:
So you want us to spill our guts out but wont share your story its a two way street my friend.
You don't have to spill your guts out. The small short one or two liner posts are enough. I didn't want to make a long blog post because some people will get on my case for coming to an online forum for advice before trying to do anything myself, and they're right in every way to do so since I feel the same way about those blogs.
Plus I'm quite sure if I did share my story, there will be some posters who will come by and just say things that won't help me one bit and only get me riled up for no reason. I don't want that right now, so I've blogged in an attempt to prevent that from happening.
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when I realized I don't even have a 3.0 in college, and I'm graduating this quarter.... depresses me when I see people from my highschool class all going to prestigious schools for graduate degrees, or landing amazing jobs, when I have no idea what I'm going to do (wish I could start college all over! :D).. guess you can say I'm in a quarter life crises. Feels like the next 1-2 years is really gonna make or break the rest of my life... hopefully it works out in the end!
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On April 17 2012 03:35 duckducktiM wrote:
when I realized I don't even have a 3.0 in college, and I'm graduating this quarter.... depresses me when I see people from my highschool class all going to prestigious schools for graduate degrees, or landing amazing jobs, when I have no idea what I'm going to do (wish I could start college all over! :D).. guess you can say I'm in a quarter life crises. Feels like the next 1-2 years is really gonna make or break the rest of my life... hopefully it works out in the end!
Similar here, and the answer to op is: When i started playing sc2.
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The day I picked up video games was when my life turned out for the worse. After getting a feel of games, which are so seductive and addictive, I had no chance to return to a life deemed acceptable by society, therefore creating disonance in my mind.
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I had to do overtime on the night that APink came to Toronto for some music festival. Instead of seeing my dearly amazing beautiful talented Jung Eun Ji up-close and live, I sat at my office cubicle grinding away at the network model. After that night, every time I listen to APink songs, I get a little sad =(
(okay that wasn't as super-life-changing, but it did change my mind's reaction towards certain songs)
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when i discovered alcohol ... and love ... at 15. downhill from then
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When I randomly couldn't breathe walking up a hill one day on holiday (age ~13). Went to the doctor and he said "how long have you had asthma?" It was so bad from that point on that I went from doing sport/exercise (competing at a County level) 3+ hours a day every day, to doing basically none between the age of 13 and 18. Each time I tried it was really frustrating and upsetting. I spent lots of time off school with regular chest infections and pnumonia due to the steroids I was taking etc.
Its amazing how much you take stuff for granted, like being able to breathe properly. As a result I developed somewhat of a resentment to smokers and to fat, lazy people who have nothing wrong with them but choose not to exercise (even though they could, where I basically wanted to but couldn't). Of course those people could have their own private issues, but I think we all know some people just can't be bothered to look after themselves.
I probably wouldn't have been so into computer games if it weren't for my health problems, and I often wonder how many pro gamers etc. became who they are because they had health issues preventing them from taking part in traditional sports, or from leading a normal life. Basically when I was at home ill I would just sit and play games all day. Bullen from cs 1.6 is an example that springs to mind, he has unfortunately died now.
I guess things took a further turn for the worse in the midst of all that when my parents split up in the middle of my exams (GCSE, the end of secondary school/high school), causing me to have to move house several times at a really inopportune moment.
I've never felt "right" again health wise since I was 13 for various reasons, and I guess its just a case of getting used to the idea of feeling crappy every day and getting on with it? Its not easy to have dreams and motivation in life when all you're concerned about is the fact you feel like shit 24/7 for one reason or another. I wonder how many people are blissfully unaware of how lucky they are to be healthy etc. or how many people are fighting a battle of some sort and trying to get on with things the best they can...
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When my freshman college roommate introduced me to Warcraft 2 and Kali.
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Chicks, alcohol, pot. Oh you meant worse. Jk but I'm a happy guy that could have been more productive the last 2 and a half years. Nothing more than that, my life has been fortunately uneventful, oh and Starcraft 2 made me gain weight.
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To the worse: When I started playing WoW.
Haven't been back in like two years.
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I met tl.net @.@
Really have no idea, in all seriousness. I decided to slack in school? =|
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On April 17 2012 03:05 LaSt)ChAnCe wrote:
when my parents were born
turned for the better when i turned 18 and gtfo
Yeah, fuck shitty parents!
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When I could comprehend death, and how it could be better than life. I'm better now, but it took 10 years, starting at age four.
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It's definitely a first world problem, but the recession pretty significantly effected my life since I live in an area that is entirely run off seasonal residents/tourists and was one of the worst hit areas housing-wise. My dad and I had to change jobs a number or times, and my mom is a message therapist so that took a massive nose-dive. We were lucky enough to never have to worry about food, but there were definitely times that choosing which bill to pay was a choice that had to be made.
Now things seem to be turning around since I was able to start my career last year after graduating in '10 and the area's economy is picking back up, but I think I'm a lot better off for having gone through it right before staring my adult life. I lived pretty comfortably my first 16 years, so going through 5 rough years of having to struggle to have any spending money at all was a great lesson. It kind of hit me when I saw a blog about impulsive spending a few days ago, and realized that even after almost a year of being financially comfortable again, I'm still only spending money on things I really want/need.
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when i realized i will never be able to fix my right eye which i have ~15% vision (sorry not sure if it's the correct word to use here) on. : ( also when i realized i will most probably have to get a hearing device before i'm 25 lol TT
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On April 17 2012 03:35 duckducktiM wrote:
when I realized I don't even have a 3.0 in college, and I'm graduating this quarter.... depresses me when I see people from my highschool class all going to prestigious schools for graduate degrees, or landing amazing jobs, when I have no idea what I'm going to do (wish I could start college all over! :D).. guess you can say I'm in a quarter life crises. Feels like the next 1-2 years is really gonna make or break the rest of my life... hopefully it works out in the end!
I'm in a similar but slightly worse situation now. Good to know I'm not alone.
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when my parents got divorced and my mother started to freak me out. she couldnt cope with it and started to blame me with everything. i dont have enough money so probably i will just stay here for the next 4 years till i finish college and never see her again.
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Got bad when I moved into the ghetto and started drinking a lot got better when I joined the usmc
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Around when I was forcibly conscripted into the army of a country I'm not a citizen of.
Got better 2 years later though.
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it was never good
probably when I was told I would be judged the rest of my life by how I did on pointless tests on pointless material. Lost faith in humanity and what people value in this society is funny
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Well my parents got divorced about a year ago, we moved back to the US, and I had to begin a new life right in the middle of high school. I would say this has been the worst year of my life so far.
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Well I just got over the issue that caused me to bring this blog up. You really just have to stand up for yourself when there are things threatening to ruin your life.
Thanks for the stories guys.
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On April 17 2012 06:05 Vod.kaholic wrote:Show nested quote +On April 17 2012 03:35 duckducktiM wrote:
when I realized I don't even have a 3.0 in college, and I'm graduating this quarter.... depresses me when I see people from my highschool class all going to prestigious schools for graduate degrees, or landing amazing jobs, when I have no idea what I'm going to do (wish I could start college all over! :D).. guess you can say I'm in a quarter life crises. Feels like the next 1-2 years is really gonna make or break the rest of my life... hopefully it works out in the end! I'm in a similar but slightly worse situation now. Good to know I'm not alone.
To all you guys, it probably all works out. That was me and a lot of my friends a year or two ago. I would say we all have mediocre jobs, some better than others, but you learn, build up some experience and see what you like.
When my dad passed away, life was pretty shitty. Life's ok now.
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When I realized that the only thing I was qualified to do for a living was something I'm not really passionate about.
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Drugs and alcohol. I've been clean for a while now. The hell I put myself through for 5 years was unparalleled to any hardships I've had to face.
You're binded by chains and shackles, always treading the void.
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when i was retarded 2 years ago and prevented myself from getting a 4.0 in university because i thought "hey, it REALLY doesn't matter in the long run..."
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When I let perfectionism get to my head and think I needed to lose weight. Spawned eating disorders, food and eating will never be the same for me again.
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Since I started high school. I've lost all motivation, everything I do there seems pointless. It seems to me that I haven't learned anything useful in the past 2 years and I'm just passing time there, in order to get to a college.
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Since 2010, I went through some pretty serious shit - personal, academic, business, and ultimately family.
Eventually, you either die or get bored of feeling sorry for yourself. I end up the latter, so I turned the corner.
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So many different places.
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When I joined my fraternity.
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When I started playing RuneScape in 3rd grade... like 2001... now I play a shit ton of games..
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Basically when I started to care about me and my future life. Until 17 I used to live into the day. Not really looking much more forward than 1 year. From that on (after finishing school) I just couldn't get a plan of myself. Now 7 years later I'm still in the same position. It got even worser with living alone, having a job but in reality wanting to study like I already did before is what I need. However my situation is more tricky now as I'm older and people around me tend to give me advices that do not reflect my interests but rather reflect "making the best out of you" like everything is already too late.
Right now I'm in a situation where I need to decide my next 3-4 years.
It frightens me as such plans "failed" earlier before due to me getting along with the "life".
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When i did something to secure my future/pension.
Got me to spend about 30,000$ up to now and still 50,000$ debt left.
Nice irony.
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When I developed Eczema when I was around 15. Went from being an outgoing member of the school kayak team to being a recluse.
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When we broke up with my last girlfriend, something inside me has changed and i can't still get back on track and it was 3 years ago. I somehow came up with a feeling that i am not comfortable living in a couple and probably never will. I started drinking a lot, smoking over pack a day and gambling, there was a moment where i would lose my whole wage within several days and i was even more psychically down. Good that i didn't go into debts and i realized i have a pretty decent job, so i should stop being ridiculous and start doing something useful for my future life. Now i am finally healing and things turning much better now.
ps. When you spent like 2000$ within a week and then you eat crappy food and stay locked at home because you can't afford anything else for 3 weeks is damn shitty feeling.
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When I got a smartphone ;;. And the TL app for Android..., my productivity has never been the same :O.
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When I started doing drugs for fun and then went to being a junkie.
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When I married a woman who doesnt trust me, despite never giving reason to doubt.
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When i turned 15 and was diagnosed with Chron's disease that 6 years later turned out to be wrong and all the time i've just had a infection that i got rid of after a month of antibiotics. These years i had the infection i didn't see any reason why i should study and i just wanted to escape the pain and suffering i was in and played WOW and drank a lot of alcohol and shit. Nowdays my head is fucked up from depression after all the years i lost due to the doctors "missdiagnoding"(is that a word?) me. Some days i miss the time i was sick, i dont feel comfortable being healthy. I dont know what i'm supossed to do?
Maybe i should go and talk to someone...
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I was gonna write something then realized I should probably get real problems, some of you guys have it hard
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When I didn't go to college after highschool and thought mental health practitioners were going to fix all my problems.
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