EPTI know you said that you weren't really scared about the results but I kind of find that hard to believe. All I could think about was having to tell my mom what I had if the results were positive for gonn. as well as any girl I ever met and was interested in dating for the rest of my life. I had never been so scared in my life and it definitely has affected my sexual choices with women since then.
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kidd
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I know you said that you weren't really scared about the results but I kind of find that hard to believe. All I could think about was having to tell my mom what I had if the results were positive for gonn. as well as any girl I ever met and was interested in dating for the rest of my life. I had never been so scared in my life and it definitely has affected my sexual choices with women since then. | ||
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Mora
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On October 07 2009 06:51 kidd wrote: I remember when a doctor once thought that I had gonnherea in my throat, and how absolutely horrified I was when I got tested for it. It was the closest thing to depression I've ever felt during the week I waited for the results. Once I found out I was clean and that what I had was just a severe throat infection I remember just how relieved I was... The feeling of a clean result was in-describale. I can only imagine how you felt as you waited for the result of an HIV test. I know you said that you weren't really scared about the results but I kind of find that hard to believe. All I could think about was having to tell my mom what I had if the results were positive for gonn. as well as any girl I ever met and was interested in dating for the rest of my life. I had never been so scared in my life and it definitely has affected my sexual choices with women since then. there were two days that i was very worried - i had really tried to take on what my nurse had suggested: prepare for the result to come out 'positive'. These two days were tough - i didn't sleep much, i was pretty anxious, distracted/catatonic, and largely unfriendly (which is extraordinarily unusual for me. and by unfriendly i mean i didn't have any desire to see or talk to any of my friends). But after i had done some more research, the concern honestly went away. I talked to nurses, doctors, and the AIDS society, as well additional research online. The general consensus is that there is no risk unless there are sores/wounds inside the mouth. This chance of transmission increases when other STDs are present, and when certain drugs are in the system but in my case there were no other STDs, nor were there drugs. Saliva and stomach acids actually kill the virus, so semen in the mouth and throat are not threatening, nor is swallowing. But to top it off, he didn't ejaculate, so i was only exposed to the limited amounts of semen found in pre-cum. I do not regret this experience in any capacity, but in retrospect, it does seem a little unnecessary that the initial doctor and nurse that i had talked to got me so worked up (then again, they might not know terribly much about AIDS, hence being adamant about me being tested right away.) | ||
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