EPTi hope u r okay taylor :'(
i guess i could call it a story? - Page 2
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Liquid`Drone
Norway28863 Posts
i hope u r okay taylor :'( | ||
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Divinek
Canada4045 Posts
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DivinO
United States4796 Posts
And that was...quite the story. | ||
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Masamune
Canada3401 Posts
I was originally planning on actually pm'ing you to ask if I could repost this blog as my own, except with the guy being a girl (Michelle), just to see (for fun) how different the responses would be, but I didn't see it taking this turn. I thought it was gonna be a blog about how happy you were with this guy, but it was still really interesting, nonetheless. What happened between the days when he told you and now, between him and you? I really hope things work out for you, including finding "a one" haha. | ||
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TheAntZ
Israel6248 Posts
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Athos
United States2484 Posts
Good luck Mora! Oh, one more thing. I feel bad for you, but I feel just as bad for this bartender. It must be terrible to feel guilty every time you want to have sex with somebody. That's just depressing. | ||
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Kennelie
United States2296 Posts
I want to ask though. I'm a straight guy and all but how come you guys never admit to coming on at 101mph? You gay guys are so chillax. | ||
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Kennelie
United States2296 Posts
"Ummm..... I'll talk to you in a few days... i guess..." Did he ever include those same dots in previous msges? Well just asking b/c I have a bad habit of typing "....." before i start off my sentence. I don't even know why i ask this but yea. | ||
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RebirthOfLeGenD
USA5860 Posts
I hope everything goes well for you, sorry about your friend douching you over, but did he know when you guys started or just found out? The way you wrote it it sounded like he had just found out with his testing, you also said it takes about 3 months for the testing? Maybe he found out while he was with you and had just gotten the test results back. So what are you going to do until you know 100% whether you do or don't have it? Abstinence? | ||
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The Raurosaur
198 Posts
(Sorry.) Good luck man, this must be a really hard time for you. If things don't turn out your way, remember treatments are improving all the time. Good luck with Michael too, apart from the HIV thing he sounds like a decent dude. | ||
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Phyre
United States1288 Posts
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EvilTeletubby
Baltimore, USA22259 Posts
 GL Mora. | ||
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ShaperofDreams
Canada2492 Posts
I hope everything goes well for you, I didn't know you live in Vancouver. | ||
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HonestTea
5007 Posts
best of luck, I can only imagine what you're going through. Props for being level and positive. | ||
KwarK
United States44190 Posts
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Mora
Canada5235 Posts
On September 30 2009 10:11 Kwark wrote: Jeez man. Let us know when it's negative, as I'm sure it will be. If someone has HIV they gotta tell people the moment they endanger others. They're a public health risk and it's either man up to that and take precautions or end up wearing bells like lepers used to. Bizarrely enough I was watching a Stephen Fry (British genius/tv presenter/comedian) documentary on HIV and apparently there's a gay subculture which views HIV as something to be proud of and actively tries to get it. :S yep. They're known as 'bug catchers'. I don't know much about that culture (or anything to do with HIV/AIDs), but if i recall correctly the psychology behind it was that people find it too stressful just not knowing; so they search the disease out so that they can just stop worrying about it. There are also 'gift givers', which are people who have sex with others with the specific intention of trying to spread the infection. I don't know anything about the psychology of this group. They're just fucked. | ||
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Sadist
United States7328 Posts
On September 30 2009 13:00 Mora wrote: yep. They're known as 'bug catchers'. I don't know much about that culture (or anything to do with HIV/AIDs), but if i recall correctly the psychology behind it was that people find it too stressful just not knowing; so they search the disease out so that they can just stop worrying about it. There are also 'gift givers', which are people who have sex with others with the specific intention of trying to spread the infection. I don't know anything about the psychology of this group. They're just fucked. I thought "gift givers" were being prosecuted nowadays (assuming it one of the 'bug catchers') What the fuck is up with all these stupid names anyway ;p bears chubby chasers WTF | ||
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iNcontroL
USA29055 Posts
Kinda hope this is an eye opener of sorts. Sex with randoms IS dangerous dude... be careful. | ||
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Mora
Canada5235 Posts
On September 26 2009 12:22 Masamune wrote: I was originally planning on actually pm'ing you to ask if I could repost this blog as my own, except with the guy being a girl (Michelle), just to see (for fun) how different the responses would be, but I didn't see it taking this turn... it's super funny that you mention this. when i was originally writing the story i had the intention of writing his character as a female. I wanted the story to be less alien for my target audience (tl.net) and hit a little bit closer to home. But when it came time to describe him/my interactions with him, it really lost all accuracy. Asking a female bartender for a kiss while she's working is a very different situation than asking a guy. Trying to describe a female as hot/comfortable/not arrogant, while being topless (or a bra, or whatever), tends to make her seem less innocent than a male counter-part. It also doesn't help that i just don't know (in a personal way) what makes a heterosexual man hungry, so it seemed too artificial to try and depict the 'perfect female'. I didn't have that problem describing Michael that way because it doesn't matter if anyone finds his physical qualities attractive, i did. In the case of trying to turn him into "Michelle", i'd be writing an artificial attraction with the specific intentions of trying to appeal to an audience that i don't really understand. In the end i decided to just write it as it happened - it made the process easier, as well as helped me process the experience in a more positive way: it was good to get it out. My original intention behind this blog was actually just to practice my writing; it wasn't until it started pouring out that i realized it was a [minor] form of therapy. On that note, i would be totally receptive to any criticisms on my writing. I realize that on a topic such as this people are going to be less inclined to criticize me, but truly, i'm not dead yet, so help me improve on something i love while i'm still around! (hoho, was that bad taste?). I thought it was gonna be a blog about how happy you were with this guy, but it was still really interesting, nonetheless. What happened between the days when he told you and now, between him and you? Well, we talked a few times, and i was actually planning on going over to his house tonight to discuss things (this was my plan as of last week - the day i got tested, specifically). I was going to tell him that i'm just not willing to get involved with a situation like this. that, as mentioned before, i just can't handle this kind of stress/fear on a regular basis. But then, last saturday, i was having my most downer of days. I wanted to escape, so i started to drink. I didn't want to hang out or talk to any of my friends because i just felt like i was a black hole of depression. I'm usually not concerned with such things when i have a regular trial or tribulation - i'm quite good at being able to lean on my support crew when i need to - but in this situation i just didn't want to put that on anyone. I also wasn't looking for pity. I also didn't want to be alone though. I usually have no problems talking to strangers and making new friends, but i wasn't in a particular cheery mood, so that was out of the question as well. but after half a litre of vodka and 4 points of beer, i was feeling in a much better mood, and thought it would be a great thing to go visit him while he was working. I got there and i saw him and everything ceased to matter in my inebriation. It was good to see him, all charming and hot and himself. I spent a few hours with him while he worked, and then i went back with him to his place and spent the night there. (no sex). I tried to bring up the fact that i was a little bit disturbed by the experience, but i can't remember the conversation that well (as i had had about another 6 pints at his bar). I recall him being less receptive than i expected him to be. He seemed to be offended; that i was treating him as a disease, or something like that. I do recall being super tired though, and crashing before we could get too heavy into conversation. We haven't talked to each other since. | ||
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Mora
Canada5235 Posts
On September 30 2009 13:11 {88}iNcontroL wrote: best of luck dude Kinda hope this is an eye opener of sorts. Sex with randoms IS dangerous dude... be careful. Geoff! it was just oral sex! how many girls have given you a blow job? Did you ask each one for her blood test results before letting her god down? Did you wear a condom when she blew you? I mean, don't get me wrong, i am going to be more careful, but it wasn't like i was being reckless. I wouldn't have full on intercourse without a condom. That's been a really hard part for me. In retrospect, i don't know if there is anything i'd do differently. The only thing i think will change is that i'm now going to ask every person if they're clean/if they've been tested recently before i fool around with them. At the very least they will have an integrity decision to make. But people lie, especially when they want to get laid, so this form of protection is not really going to account to much significance i think. | ||
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