Two days ago I woke up and began my morning schedule. Upon checking my voice mail I received this message "Hello this is TSgt ****** because of your Aspergers Syndrome you have been permanently barred from joining the military" truthfully I stopped listening after that point I think I was told where to go if I had questions.
As you may guess this conflicts with many of the designs I had for my immediate future. Obviously I am going back to school, it's the best play I have at this moment. So right there you have 85% of my plan. Kinda a bare bones of a plan isn't it?
Well in the last two days I have logged a considerable amount of ladder games as I've begun to wrestle out the logistics of going back to school.
I won't lie it was a bad day when i got that message, it hit me hard. My oldest brother was a Marine, My father was Navy like his father before him and my Uncle was Air Force. It makes me sad to know that I will never have the "option" to follow them.
The weirdest thing though. Somehow I feel more motivated by knowing where exactly I am going. I feel really motivated to try and get better, to improve and to push my rank (currently 803 point plat league). I've heard it called #passionrestored many times i don't know that my passion ever went away. I'll just call this my Redeployment.