I learnt a lesson today - a rather important one, I feel. Sometimes, an opportunity will spring at you, catching you with your pants down. When it does, you are stunned for a bit. You lose control of your faculties for a moment or two, and your mind locks down. You lose the ability to reason, to think logically and rationally. Your vision narrows down.
Why is this so? It just seems that your mind just gets so caught up in the moment, thinking about what might happen if you were to jump at this opportunity, to seize it. What exactly, would happen? While you are trapped in this cursed moment of brain freeze, this opportunity entices you a little, but no, you become so caught with contemplation that you forget that opportunities do not last forever.
Finally, when you decide to take up this opportunity, it's gone. What if we were all just very spontaneous though? Surely certain decisions requires some thought put into it before being made, but today was just... crushing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f5SpXcILDJI
Why is it that we are so afraid to act? These abstract rules and expectations set by our society inundates us. Don't do this because we think it's stupid.
I'm so disappointed in myself. Why can't I act in the moment? Why is it that I have other problems like speaking in front of a crowd during a debate even though I know I can absolutely destroy the opponent? Why am I so afraid of bringing up a valid point during class discussions? Why can't I just talk?
this is a lecture by Rob Willer on social psychology from UC Berkeley. It's an upper division course and it's pretty solid, the rest of the lectures are also on youtube and i highly recommened them.
psychology explains this pretty well. once i knew what made stopped me from doing things. i just did all sorts of things... sometimes breaking social norms and feeling a bit uncomfortable. So maybe not talking is sometimes a good thing.
On March 21 2012 19:02 jodogohoo wrote: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qkyx27ixBkI&feature=youtu.be this is a lecture by Rob Willer on social psychology from UC Berkeley. It's an upper division course and it's pretty solid, the rest of the lectures are also on youtube and i highly recommened them.
psychology explains this pretty well. once i knew what made stopped me from doing things. i just did all sorts of things... sometimes breaking social norms and feeling a bit uncomfortable. So maybe not talking is sometimes a good thing.
Thanks for the video, bookmarked it for later.
On March 21 2012 19:13 Plexa wrote: I hope this doesn't mean another pokemon died
Haha, no ^_^
Just curious, why do you have waffles as your icon?
Nice blog. It's something humans as social animals seem to have problems with - in fact, this is part of why a lot of famous people are compared to psychopaths. (A little bit of psychopathy can help you skip past the fear of what may happen, and just do it. Not that I recommend psychopathy in general.)
Will have to watch that video, too, as it looks interesting and applicable to myself in all kinds of ways.
And lastly, Plexa has waffles obviously because waffles are the bomb. Carpe waffles.
On March 21 2012 19:37 felisconcolori wrote: Nice blog. It's something humans as social animals seem to have problems with - in fact, this is part of why a lot of famous people are compared to psychopaths. (A little bit of psychopathy can help you skip past the fear of what may happen, and just do it. Not that I recommend psychopathy in general.)
Will have to watch that video, too, as it looks interesting and applicable to myself in all kinds of ways.
And lastly, Plexa has waffles obviously because waffles are the bomb. Carpe waffles.
On March 21 2012 19:45 firehand101 wrote: 5 stars what happened dude? i wanna know so i can help ahha
im experiencing the same sort of stuff, but we'll get through it dont worry!
Sigh, it's something that the blog section of TL has too much for. I don't think anybody will want to read another one of those blogs >.>
Hopefully I'll be able to make a blog on what happened soon.
ahh more psychology lol, at 25:20 he talks about writing stuff like maybe what you would write regarding what motivated the creation of this blog post but uhh maybe not sharing it on TL but the fact that just writing it down is good, and sharing with.. one person?
On March 21 2012 19:45 firehand101 wrote: 5 stars what happened dude? i wanna know so i can help ahha
im experiencing the same sort of stuff, but we'll get through it dont worry!
Sigh, it's something that the blog section of TL has too much for. I don't think anybody will want to read another one of those blogs >.>
Hopefully I'll be able to make a blog on what happened soon.
http://youtu.be/f61zwIg1jCE ahh more psychology lol, at 25:20 he talks about writing stuff like maybe what you would write regarding what motivated the creation of this blog post but uhh maybe not sharing it on TL but the fact that just writing it down is good, and sharing with.. one person?
i'll stop throwing videos down now ^.^;;
Thanks for the video again, but I don't get what you're trying to say... T.T
On March 21 2012 20:14 Biff The Understudy wrote: Ach Beethoven 7...
Yeah! Beethoven rocks!
I played symphony 9 with Sir Colin Davis
Is there a recording of it that's available?
Nope I don't think so. He was very old and tired, so it was not his best. Years before, I played Bruckner 7 with him, and that was really amazing. But now, he can barely conduct, he is very tired.
Best Beetoven experience for me has been Symphony 5 and piano concerto 3 with Eliott Gardiner. That was really unbelievable.
On March 21 2012 20:14 Biff The Understudy wrote: Ach Beethoven 7...
Yeah! Beethoven rocks!
I played symphony 9 with Sir Colin Davis
Is there a recording of it that's available?
Nope I don't think so. He was very old and tired, so it was not his best. Years before, I played Bruckner 7 with him, and that was really amazing. But now, he can barely conduct, he is very tired.
Best Beetoven experience for me has been Symphony 5 and piano concerto 3 with Eliott Gardiner. That was really unbelievable.
Must have been an amazing experience to play under him :D I would love to know what it feels like to be in an orchestra, how it feels like, what the atmosphere is like and whatnot. Maybe you can write a blog ^^
On March 21 2012 20:14 Biff The Understudy wrote: Ach Beethoven 7...
Yeah! Beethoven rocks!
I played symphony 9 with Sir Colin Davis
Is there a recording of it that's available?
Nope I don't think so. He was very old and tired, so it was not his best. Years before, I played Bruckner 7 with him, and that was really amazing. But now, he can barely conduct, he is very tired.
Best Beetoven experience for me has been Symphony 5 and piano concerto 3 with Eliott Gardiner. That was really unbelievable.
Must have been an amazing experience to play under him :D I would love to know what it feels like to be in an orchestra, how it feels like, what the atmosphere is like and whatnot. Maybe you can write a blog ^^
Not sure so many people here would be interested, but that's an idea
Also it can be the best and the worst. If you are with unmotivated people bitching about each other with a mean desk partner and a bad conductor, it can be just like hell :p I'm talking from experience. When it's great, it's great, though.
On March 21 2012 20:14 Biff The Understudy wrote: Ach Beethoven 7...
Yeah! Beethoven rocks!
I played symphony 9 with Sir Colin Davis
Is there a recording of it that's available?
Nope I don't think so. He was very old and tired, so it was not his best. Years before, I played Bruckner 7 with him, and that was really amazing. But now, he can barely conduct, he is very tired.
Best Beetoven experience for me has been Symphony 5 and piano concerto 3 with Eliott Gardiner. That was really unbelievable.
Must have been an amazing experience to play under him :D I would love to know what it feels like to be in an orchestra, how it feels like, what the atmosphere is like and whatnot. Maybe you can write a blog ^^
Not sure so many people here would be interested, but that's an idea
Also it can be the best and the worst. If you are with unmotivated people bitching about each other with a mean desk partner and a bad conductor, it can be just like hell :p I'm talking from experience. When it's great, it's great, though.
On March 21 2012 20:14 Biff The Understudy wrote: Ach Beethoven 7...
Yeah! Beethoven rocks!
I played symphony 9 with Sir Colin Davis
Is there a recording of it that's available?
Nope I don't think so. He was very old and tired, so it was not his best. Years before, I played Bruckner 7 with him, and that was really amazing. But now, he can barely conduct, he is very tired.
Best Beetoven experience for me has been Symphony 5 and piano concerto 3 with Eliott Gardiner. That was really unbelievable.
Must have been an amazing experience to play under him :D I would love to know what it feels like to be in an orchestra, how it feels like, what the atmosphere is like and whatnot. Maybe you can write a blog ^^
Not sure so many people here would be interested, but that's an idea
Also it can be the best and the worst. If you are with unmotivated people bitching about each other with a mean desk partner and a bad conductor, it can be just like hell :p I'm talking from experience. When it's great, it's great, though.
Guessed as much... What's a desk partner though?
The guy you share your music stand with when you are in one of the string sections. Better like him, especially if you are in one of these orchestra where you don't move inside the section (not my case luckily). Basically it's your n°1 co-worker: you hear him all the time, you play very close, you have the same music so you have to mind what you write, one turn the pages for the other etc...
If you like him / her, it can be a really special relationship. But when people playing next to each other start to hate each other...
I played in an orchestra where the solo trumpetist was an american Jew from New Jersey, and the second trumpetist was a black dude from New Orlean. It was a cultural shock, they fucking hated each other. They didn't look at each other, they didn't say hello, they didn't even tune together, and they were sitting as far as possible looking opposite direction. It's a disaster for them because it's for basically 30 years of your life that you work in a very negative atmosphere, and it's a disaster for the orchestra, because they never sounded together and never blended their sound.
Hmm, I've always heard that person referred to as "stand-mate" and I know exactly what you mean, despite only playing in an orchestra during middle and high school (a few years in a pretty good regional youth orchestra). For most of that time my own standmate was either a girl who was really bad, really shy, and had a gigantic crush on me, or a younger girl who was just really quiet and didn't seem to give a fuck. If you get a really chill person who you can talk and work together with, it makes things much much easier and more enjoyable.
Also you should really try to get some fresh waffles sometime. It's one of the best things to eat for breakfest (behind french toast!). It's a world of difference ^_^
Final note: do consider that, as frustrating as they are, those instincts that seem to stun you DO exist for a reason. Sometimes it's quite bad to just leap into something without any thought whatsoever. Maybe not in this situation, but overall, that instinct is just trying to protect you.