One-Line Confessions - Page 103

i have a ton of acquaintances but i have no real good friends. the only people who hang out with me do it because they think "wow this guy's so pro at games" and don't really care about anything else. i'm a friendly guy who's pretty funny, sadly i'm socially awkward around chicks and not good looking. that's a fucking terrible combo if you're looking to have a life.

people say you're supposed to be proud of being a gamer, i'm not. i don't want to be recognized as a gamer guy, i want to be normal and hang out with friends. but hell, i'm not ever talked to other then "lets game yo" because they think it's too social for me and that i like staying home gaming all day. when you talk to people socially the best thing to do is connect, and that's all i can do. i'm actually pretty cool to talk to and i can make people laugh, but all i am is a gamer. during my birthday on facebook people are like "HBD BRO, GAME HARD!". fucking annoys the shit out of me. i game because i have nothing else to do. i've never turned down going outside with friends for gaming, i don't consider myself addicted. when you have nothing else to do with a computer what's an average teenager going to do

the only real friend who likes hanging out with me is gone this summer, so i've been doing nothing. look at the people who get picked on at school, they have friends because they can connect with other uncool people and they develop friendship they seem pretty happy. but i'm too unapproachable for them and i'm too nerdy for the average guy. i'm always inbetween shit. am i athletic? decently athletic, not good not bad. am i smart? not dumb not super smart. i don't think i've ever had a friend in my life who was my best friend ever. i talk to lots of people but i'm never their first choice.

and one thing that really irks me is how i was talking to my good buddy and some guy randomly invited me to go to some mall. my friend was like "LOL WTF YOU'RE ACTUALLY GOING OUTSIDE? HAHAHAHAHA". of course he was joking, but that really shows how fuckin pathetic i am. and earlier this year i was outside and i saw him he was like " LOL YOU HAVE A LIFE WITHOUT ME?" he usually isn't a dick and he's really cool but i think that speaks for itself.

i consider myself pretty smart but who knows, maybe it's just an illusion and i'm dumb as shit.

i think i fucked up the only chance i ever had with a girl, now she's moved on. i have a massive ego when i play games, i need to be good otherwise i'm mad. i lose a game of sc2? fucking dipshit 4gated me, i'm better then he is. i also think i'm better then people irl at certain things and i get mad easily. i guess i'm just not a good guy to hang around

i guess you can call me a guy w/o a life. i have like the least amount of friends on facebook, i'm unmotivated kinda and i haven't done anything this summer. one thing that really crawled into my brain is during this cruise that i was on for vacation. my cousin was there and we were playing some ball etc etc and then i wanted to go back and sleep since it was kinda late. he called me a "dud". i think that's when i realized how i really don't have a life.it may sound unreasonable but it really puts my summer in perspective now that i think about it. he said that i don't like to have fun, which is kind of true once i thought about it again. i didn't want to go on tours when we got off the cruise. i don't like travelling to other countries, i don't like visiting places, and if i were to choose between going camping and staying at home i would probably stay at home. am i lazy? unmotivated? not sure.

i'm also scrawny as shit, i'm 20 pounds below my healthy weight.

i'm not usually this depressed but when summer rolls around and people are doing stuff it really saddens me that i have nothing to do. when school rolls around hopefully i can do something again.