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I have a problem. A starcraft problem. I love the game, and I really like playing it, but I don't want to.
See, whenever I do force myself to join a game and play, I have so much fun, but between games I have such a strong feeling of not wanting to play another game. It's like a conditioned chemical struggle inside my brain. It might be nervousness, but then again I really don't mind losing when I've had a fun game. It might be that I'm afraid to come off as a noob, because Iccup seems so intimidating, but then again do I really care what other people I don't even know think about my skills at starcraft?
What is this ailment? Why can't I just get the urge to play, get on iccup, and play? Why this rotten feeling in my stomach every time I am about to join a game? This is really screwing up what could be such an enjoyable time for me.
I could liken the feeling I get with that of going out clubbing. I'm not a party-guy, I never have been, I always feel so awkward and uncomfortable before I get a couple drinks in me, even when I am only partying with my friends. I feel boring and uninteresting whenever I go out for the specific purpose of having "a good time". When I'm just meeting strangers for some reason I am the most sociable person you could imagine, talking and joking and being just such a charming little alpha male, but it's when I am about to go out with the intent of having a good time and partying, etc, that I feel out of place. Maybe I do give a shit if people think I'm interesting (or skilled...) even though I don't realize it?
Anyway, this has now carried over into my starcraft playing. I get the exact same, uncomfortable feeling. Why am I so insecure about playing an anonymous game online when I am so relaxed and confident otherwise? And like I said, once the game starts, the feeling goes away almost immediately.
Maybe it's stress? Maybe I'm stressed out, feeling I have to perform well (and starcraft is a very demanding game). But then, why? Nobody cares if I win or not, including me, I LAUGH when I lose a game that I came very close to winning.
Why can't I just PLAY!?
 
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You have to defeat yourself in the mind games, thats all I can help you with
Calm down, start being apathetic about playing, maybe that could help you some bit
GL
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You know, I had the same problem too, losing to other people, especially my friends, and they obviously dont help, ending their games with like "pwned, owned, or wtf you suck" and im like, ok whatever, but in my head im like, dude fuck you piece of shit blah blah blah...
But really, its all about controlling your mind and starting to learn to just get over it, you won't go pro, play for fun ffs
Yeah its really annoying when other people won't help you at all, but whatever eh?
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Have some confidence in yourself. We all lose games from time to time, but try and improving from those games.
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Haha you remind me so much of myself.
If I don't feel like playing pubs on iccup, I'll just play w/friends or do micro tourneys or w/e. Eventually I will get the feeling to play pubs so I will do it then. I find forcing myself just isn't as fun.
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stop giving a shit and DO
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Aotearoa39261 Posts
Stop iCCup'ing, get some friends on SC, and have a blast!!
Playing with friends is so much more fun that fucking around on icc
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I get the same feeling as well when I play on iccup. I know I love to play but starting games on iccup is just painful for some reason. I think it's because I know that those games will count towards my record and it makes me nervous. Much more fun to just play on bnet or with friends sometimes. I've found a good way to beat that is to just get the ball rolling so you have that inertia. Once you play one game it's a lot easier to play a second. And it's even easier to play a third. Just try to get yourself on a roll and playing iccup will become normal and automatic. I usually don't play often but when I did that I got 15 games in in one day and time just flew by.
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Pretty much sums up how I felt too.
Got over it by playing only when I'm pumped up and ready to go. Otherwise, I play with friends 1v1 or 3v3
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I kinda know that. I mostly don't play because i just don't have time, but right now instead of surfing around i could have made one or two games.
Although i don't really care about my stats i still don't want to play when i am drunk/totally tired or don't have a good keyboard/mouse at hand.
Since those conditions make up quite some time of my free time i play way less than i could i i would really force myself to play. Don't know why i can't do it.
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That's so weird, I have the opposite.
I have cravings to play, and then after playing a couple games I get raged and stop lol.
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United States47024 Posts
On January 25 2009 11:48 Plexa wrote:
Stop iCCup'ing, get some friends on SC, and have a blast!!
Playing with friends is so much more fun that fucking around on icc
This.
I find in general I feel more comfortable playing with friends. I don't get worked up over losses, we have good laughs when we try screwed up stuff, and often, they're better at picking out my mistakes than I am.
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On January 25 2009 11:31 paper wrote:
stop giving a shit and DOTA
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i think ur just scared of losing after putting so much time into that one game only to lose. games take from 5 mins to 20,30, and even 60 mins at times. i know how u feel. i played 5 games a day and joined a clan to get out of that mentality and start playing for real. u could play obs games without the game counting against ur record if thats what ur afraid of. and when ur playing with friends, the game starts becoming fun again.
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Whatever dude, either play or dont play at all. Middle terms are for losers.
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Yeah same with me sometimes, play on B.net and skrew around untill you don't get nervous just when your in the game just say to yourself who the hell gives a crap if i win or not im on B.net i don't care and if your afraid of loosing on iccup make a noob account to practise on so you don't get all the loses on your main one.
And try to find a mate or two to just practise with, You can find somone on TL.net that will play with ya for fun and you can find somone your level not everyone is good on TL  Im not very good .
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thedeadhaji
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um Cloud, as far as I can tell from reading your posts and OneOther's posts earlier in this thread, O.Other is simply saying that "rushing corsair asap still will not give you the information that he is going 2 hatch hydra, in time for you to make adjustments in survive - thus while you should be getting a corsair, you cannot depend solely on it to rescue you from your uncertain position, thus other measures must be taken in combination."
I do believe you're misinterpreting what he meant with his reply.
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On January 25 2009 12:42 MeriaDoKk wrote:
o shi-
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I was an exact duplicate of you a year ago.
I was always nervous about the games though when I played them I had a crapload of fun.
But when it was time to go re, I was like I just didn't want or something because I thought that then my reputation would go down the drain if I lost the game.
It goes away with time, if you face the fear ofc.
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I always get a nice rec or something I was content with on iccup and become to scared to damage the rec. I was like D+ anyways so I don't even know why. So I guess I have sort of the same problem.
I have the most fun just playing with friends on bnet east. Be it fastest, ums, or whatever. It's fun to just goof around and try random things.
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I punched myself in the face whenever i cared about my rank. Never looked back
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Hungary11305 Posts
Visit op irc some time on the iccup server, I usually have more fun playing TLneters on UMS than to dive fully into the ladder.
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sounds like me...I get on good streaks on ICCUP and i feel like i'm king of the world and then I get stomped and I just cry and quit and never touch ICCUP for the rest of the season
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wow you described me :D
i have the same problem. try to play the same map all of the time and try different strats, that works for me.
on the other hand, i have this feeling inside i should do something else, because playing sc will not get me any money and stuff.
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hmm feelings of apprehension.Sc is a demanding game and I was not willing/able to put myself into it fully and realized limited opportunity so I stopped. This does not sound like you however.
Try advice here:
http://sportsmedicine.about.com/cs/sport_psych/a/aa010603a.htm
Understand that pre-race jitters are normal and accept them. Don't fight the nervous energy you feel. Don't misinterpret it by thinking that it is fear. That adrenaline rush you feel is normal and it is part of your body's natural preparation for the competition. Notice it, but don't focus on it. Once the race starts, that feeling will subside, as it always does. Prepare both mentally and physically. Arrive at the event with plenty of time so you aren't rushed, which only increases your stress. Get a thorough warm-up. Do some easy stretching. Know the course. Dress for conditions.
Allow a few minutes to visualize yourself doing everything right. Breathe easy, close your eyes and use mental imagery to visualize yourself performing well. This positive self-talk can change your attitude. While athletes need to be flexible enough to react during the event, you should enter the event with a general strategy of how you want to race. Your strategy can be simple (maintain a steady pace or maintain a steady heart rate) or complex.
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I thought it was just me. I wonder what makes some people have steel nerves against repeated asswhoopings, and others feel so much dread at playing again that the game is no longer fun.
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I had that too, after i lost 3/4 games against a D player and didn't play for a while..after i found out he was really a C rank just farming me i stopped caring. I'd rather try and win and lose than not play at all, if you need motivation, look at the accounts with 4-88
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I get this feeling a lot too. I have to force myself to actually play on iccup, and then after I win a few games, I just can't force myself to play any more. I keep worrying about losing my streak or something, which is weird since I usually don't care about my record.
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i get this same thing.
too bad none of my sc friends play any more  Thats when i used to mass game...now its just kinda bleh until i get into a game then its like SCSCSCSCSILOVEIT then its like bleh again
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On January 25 2009 14:23 thedeadhaji wrote:
um Cloud, as far as I can tell from reading your posts and OneOther's posts earlier in this thread, O.Other is simply saying that "rushing corsair asap still will not give you the information that he is going 2 hatch hydra, in time for you to make adjustments in survive - thus while you should be getting a corsair, you cannot depend solely on it to rescue you from your uncertain position, thus other measures must be taken in combination."
I do believe you're misinterpreting what he meant with his reply.
Tabs can be confusing sometimes, huh?
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First of all, everyone cares if he loses, in a way. This actually makes you a better player.
I think you just have the feeling that people expect you to perform really well in certain environments, that you feel you have to do really well and therefore don't feel like initiating most things because they feel like a big commitment or something like that? Just a theory.
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On January 26 2009 01:24 s.a.y wrote:
on the other hand, i have this feeling inside i should do something else, because playing sc will not get me any money and stuff.
sometimes i wonder if it's worth investing so much time and energy into just a hobby
i wish i was good enough to win just a small tournament with maybe a $50-$100 prize so I could justify this game
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sit yourself down, get on a smurf account if needed, and just get it in your brain that you are going to aggressively game regardless of outcome (in the name of fun)
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