I'm going to stop playing SC series, at least for a while before I find myself stabilized.
For past few days, whenever I lose a game, I would get pissed easily, or just stare at the screen for a long time. I think I had few instances where I even cried. Losing is part of the game, and I understood. I just couldn't hold back my emotions.
Game's a game.... right?
After I play the games at night, I would be really cranky during day, especially during classes. I would start thinking about why I lost in this particular situation or that other match overall. I would often write down what I should do in some particular situations instead of writing down what's being done in class.
I also remember one time where I took a walk to the local superstore because I was displeased with my PvT in BW, and analyzed my match from the dorm to the store. It wasn't because I needed the energy drink; it was more because I needed some time to think.
Same pattern, same old shit. And then I realize: the best solution to a problem, is usually the easiest one.
Went ahead and deleted BW/SC2 all together.
I'm still going to follow the scene from time to time, but for once I have given myself a chance to change myself: from hardcore StarCraft addict to regular college student.
Next time when I play a game of BW/SC2, I hope I can play it without being serious.
Aww SHIT, you were just streaming BW yesterday T_T, well I feel for you, just get your life back in order then you will hop back on BW in no time, and just like everyone says and knows, " you can't quit starcraft" , you will probably be reinstalling BW and getting on before you know it
Before I temp ban myself, something I forgot to mention:
I almost destroyed a laptop for losing a single match My keyboard feet broke because of losing a game Mouse almost gets fucked up when lose a game, sometimes I need a screw driver to fix it back to normal
It's important that you distinguish which things in life is worth sucking up and continuing and which is worth quitting. Since you're a college student, taking a break from video game is a wise choice.
Ahhh, I've seen someone break their (wooden) table because of Starcraft Rage. Good luck getting back together again, even if it means leaving TL. I think quitting SC/TL would help me too but I just don't have the self control.
My mind is so full of fuck. This cannot be true. However, I can relate to rage when losing and a temporary BW vacation is never a bad idea at that point. Good luck fighting the withdrawals of your addiction young padawon, see you soon.
I think you are doing the right the thing. Games are meant to be fun, and with all the rage that it's creating for you, I think that it is best that you take some time off it. Good luck, and I hope you can come back soon to starcraft without taking it seriously but still keep your competitive spirit high.
The struggle all gamers have to face, between a healthy passion and a destructive addiction. I hope you'll overcome this hurdle and come back to streaming.
Do whatever you think you should... I think I have had an entire life struggling with this issue but it was worst in my Frosh year where every week I'd play up till 5 am on one day. It fucks up your schedule and it becomes all you think about.
Good luck OP.
Sayle, I think a lot of people find your streams entertaining. I don't think anyone who likes the game this much ever leaves forever, unless they start playing WOW, in which case fsm rest their souls.
I've never understood how people can get so emotionally invested in games.
My worst reaction to a game is "bah, fuck" and moving on to something else. Such extreme reactions only occur when a game crashes on me after not saving for a few hours or something similar.
I could never imagine damaging my property out of sheer frustration. It sounds like a good idea that you stop playing them for a few months.
I gave up SC for two months last year for the same reasons but I never broke things or anything like that, just didn't like how it felt to lose in a game online and really take it personally sometimes from people. I gotta admit it helped a ton, I still play SC now and again but I mainly watch streams, videos and play FPS games, there's a ton of rage on all that from people as well but to my its so much simpler it doesn't bother me at all. Good luck to you dude, hope it turns out like that for you because when I do turn on SC on my computer now for an hour or two its always a blast without any stress involved.
On September 09 2011 23:58 Kurr wrote: I've never understood how people can get so emotionally invested in games.
My worst reaction to a game is "bah, fuck" and moving on to something else. Such extreme reactions only occur when a game crashes on me after not saving for a few hours or something similar.
I could never imagine damaging my property out of sheer frustration. It sounds like a good idea that you stop playing them for a few months.
While I don't destroy my own property or anything, if you have a competitive side or you are just a competitive person in general you will see why people can get so emotionally invested. Just like in sports, people hate losing especially competitive people (i'm the same way).
Its hard to explain it to a person who isn't like that (not saying its good or bad) but if you are a really competitive person you just get angry about losing and always strive to be better.
On September 09 2011 23:58 Kurr wrote: I've never understood how people can get so emotionally invested in games.
My worst reaction to a game is "bah, fuck" and moving on to something else. Such extreme reactions only occur when a game crashes on me after not saving for a few hours or something similar.
I could never imagine damaging my property out of sheer frustration. It sounds like a good idea that you stop playing them for a few months.
While I don't destroy my own property or anything, if you have a competitive side or you are just a competitive person in general you will see why people can get so emotionally invested. Just like in sports, people hate losing especially competitive people (i'm the same way).
Its hard to explain it to a person who isn't like that (not saying its good or bad) but if you are a really competitive person you just get angry about losing and always strive to be better.
I dislike losing and I strive to get better at even the most pointless things when I do badly (like that one summer where my game of choice was 1 card draw solitaire...27 second record).
I just don't understand the point of getting enraged at losing or not doing particularly well in something. It doesn't improve you in any way and it's not a hard habit to lose if you want to.
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