My dog died this morning. I think it was a seizure. I'm not sure of the specifics (my mom told me), but I don't even really want to find out why.
I found her on the floor after coming back from a 5 day vacation. She wasn't in her normal resting spot, but I thought she was just doing her usual silliness and just decided to rest in an awkward position. But she was breathing heavily. My pettings only made her more uncomfortable I think.
We took her to the vet, I thought she was getting better. That's what they said, her tempature was back to normal, and she was responding. I guess it wasn't enough. She's an old dog, we don't even know her age(got her when she was abandoned by another owner.) But she was the most beautiful dog in the world. I'm honestly not sure what I'll do without her.
My life has been defined by I guess two things, Elle and starcraft. I'd play a game of starcraft, then rest on the floor next to her for a while. I can't do that anymore. I'm honestly not sure even why I'm writing this. Pity? I don't know.
She let me pet her even when I knew she didn't want it. She let me sleep next to her, and even though she always got up shortly after, she was always there when I woke up. I've thought about this moment but I never thought it would be so soon. I never even got to say goodbye. So I guess this will have to do.
Goodbye Elle. While you may be gone from our world, I know somewhere your still there. I know you can't think up there, but I do know you have the most beautiful love in the world, and it will always stay with us. Even on this day the world lays beautiful outside. My tears will stop, but my memory of you will shine forever.
GG elle, and wp.