Don't post in this thread to say "gay gamers are like everyone else, why do they have a special thread?" It is something that has been posted numerous times, and this isn't the place for that discussion.
On June 16 2013 16:37 KratosAU wrote: Firstly I just want to thank the creator of this thread and everyone who has posted in it. I have followed it for a while now and you guys has helped give me the courage to explore who I am. I'm in my mid 20's now and for as long as I can remember I've always felt different, as if I have hidden a side of myself from my family, friends, and most importantly myself.
I've had girlfriends in the past, but I was never fully satisfied and it just didn't feel right. I always told myself that 'she' was the problem, but deep down I knew this wasn't the case - I kept hoping it was a phase and these feelings would go away..... but they didn't! They kept growing stronger and stronger, all the while I became more emotionally distraught and guilty, as if it were a crime to have these feelings.
It's funny now talking about this, but I decided I should try going to a club to see what it was like... I would get to the door and couldn't bring myself to go in... Four times I turned around and went home, each time I become more distraught and angrier with myself. But last month I finally had the courage to 'step through' into my new world. I went to club Arq (in Sydney) and it was AMAZING! At first I was so terrified; I probably looked like a lost lamb, as this really nice guy (Todd) came over and asked if I was alright. After talking with Todd I felt at ease with everything - as if the cloud of the confusion and ambiguity which had surrounded my entire life had lifted.
I'm frustrated by my inability to adequately convey the sense of lucidity that I had that night, it was as if everything in my life had come into sharp focus at that one instant!
Anyway, I had the time of my life. Everyone was so friendly and understanding, and each had their own stories about coming out - I made a ton of new friends. At the end of the night I went home with Todd and for once I can say I was fully satisfied - It just felt so right.
I've been going out clubbing whenever I can, and each time I've gone home with a stud. I'm not sure what has come over me, it is as if something has awoken and I can't control it....And I'm loving it! I haven't built up the courage to come-out to my family and friends yet, but I will cross this bridge when in due time.
By the way, I'm Sean, a Protoss GM (on SEA) living in Sydney, so if anyone out there wants to meet up for some fun or just want to pwn some noobs or talk about life I would love to hear from you . My details are:
SEA: kratos / 500 NA: kratOss / 366 Note: I've only ever been a lurker on TL and just made this account for this thread, so hit me up on battlenet
I also feel the need to state that Terran and Zerg are overpowered.
Thank you for sharing your story. Fantastic.
That first time walking into a gay club... Every gay man will understand, and no one else will quite get it. It's pretty incredible
OMG its Mora the OP ! I asked about you in IRC but I just assumed you were a myth! Hail fellow Canadian
Hello friend!
My activity on tl.net has declined over the years, though I say I come to this website roughly once every 2 days?
It's important to me to read every post in a topic before posting in a topic. With the increase of contributing tl.net users, and a decline in my free time to do things like participate on forums, I've become more and more a ghost.
I'm still around though. Haunting and lurking. With the occasional inspiration to go 'Boo! [here I am]'.
On June 16 2013 16:37 KratosAU wrote: Firstly I just want to thank the creator of this thread and everyone who has posted in it. I have followed it for a while now and you guys has helped give me the courage to explore who I am. I'm in my mid 20's now and for as long as I can remember I've always felt different, as if I have hidden a side of myself from my family, friends, and most importantly myself.
I've had girlfriends in the past, but I was never fully satisfied and it just didn't feel right. I always told myself that 'she' was the problem, but deep down I knew this wasn't the case - I kept hoping it was a phase and these feelings would go away..... but they didn't! They kept growing stronger and stronger, all the while I became more emotionally distraught and guilty, as if it were a crime to have these feelings.
It's funny now talking about this, but I decided I should try going to a club to see what it was like... I would get to the door and couldn't bring myself to go in... Four times I turned around and went home, each time I become more distraught and angrier with myself. But last month I finally had the courage to 'step through' into my new world. I went to club Arq (in Sydney) and it was AMAZING! At first I was so terrified; I probably looked like a lost lamb, as this really nice guy (Todd) came over and asked if I was alright. After talking with Todd I felt at ease with everything - as if the cloud of the confusion and ambiguity which had surrounded my entire life had lifted.
I'm frustrated by my inability to adequately convey the sense of lucidity that I had that night, it was as if everything in my life had come into sharp focus at that one instant!
Anyway, I had the time of my life. Everyone was so friendly and understanding, and each had their own stories about coming out - I made a ton of new friends. At the end of the night I went home with Todd and for once I can say I was fully satisfied - It just felt so right.
I've been going out clubbing whenever I can, and each time I've gone home with a stud. I'm not sure what has come over me, it is as if something has awoken and I can't control it....And I'm loving it! I haven't built up the courage to come-out to my family and friends yet, but I will cross this bridge when in due time.
By the way, I'm Sean, a Protoss GM (on SEA) living in Sydney, so if anyone out there wants to meet up for some fun or just want to pwn some noobs or talk about life I would love to hear from you . My details are:
SEA: kratos / 500 NA: kratOss / 366 Note: I've only ever been a lurker on TL and just made this account for this thread, so hit me up on battlenet
I also feel the need to state that Terran and Zerg are overpowered.
Thank you for sharing your story. Fantastic.
That first time walking into a gay club... Every gay man will understand, and no one else will quite get it. It's pretty incredible
Really? My first time at a gay bar I got a drink and tried to start a conversation with the bartender who nodded and then acted like he didn't care. Then I looked around for someone to have a conversation with. I was unable to do so because I was stricken with anxiety so I stood in the corner. After another twenty or so minutes of pacing about seeking a conversation I could possibly interject I nearly had an anxiety attack so I went home.
There are shitty gay bar experiences
Maybe incredible was not the right word.
My first experience I had such bad anxiety that I had diarrhea and chronic puking for several hours. I only calmed down when a really cute boy started talking to me.
What I meant by incredible was just how real/surreal/defining that night is. I can remember like 5 songs that played, I can remember what I was wearing, I can remember Dave (the cute boy) in every detail, I can remember what Celebrities smelled like.
I'll never forget that night. And that king of thing, is well, incredible.
That sounds like the worst experience possible for a first time out lol!
Aren't you in Toronto? How come we never hang out!
Hi my name is Sarah. Im in love with the same gender since im a teenager. I search contact to others like me. My biggest dream is to become as powerfull as kerrigan
On June 16 2013 16:37 KratosAU wrote: Firstly I just want to thank the creator of this thread and everyone who has posted in it. I have followed it for a while now and you guys has helped give me the courage to explore who I am. I'm in my mid 20's now and for as long as I can remember I've always felt different, as if I have hidden a side of myself from my family, friends, and most importantly myself.
I've had girlfriends in the past, but I was never fully satisfied and it just didn't feel right. I always told myself that 'she' was the problem, but deep down I knew this wasn't the case - I kept hoping it was a phase and these feelings would go away..... but they didn't! They kept growing stronger and stronger, all the while I became more emotionally distraught and guilty, as if it were a crime to have these feelings.
It's funny now talking about this, but I decided I should try going to a club to see what it was like... I would get to the door and couldn't bring myself to go in... Four times I turned around and went home, each time I become more distraught and angrier with myself. But last month I finally had the courage to 'step through' into my new world. I went to club Arq (in Sydney) and it was AMAZING! At first I was so terrified; I probably looked like a lost lamb, as this really nice guy (Todd) came over and asked if I was alright. After talking with Todd I felt at ease with everything - as if the cloud of the confusion and ambiguity which had surrounded my entire life had lifted.
I'm frustrated by my inability to adequately convey the sense of lucidity that I had that night, it was as if everything in my life had come into sharp focus at that one instant!
Anyway, I had the time of my life. Everyone was so friendly and understanding, and each had their own stories about coming out - I made a ton of new friends. At the end of the night I went home with Todd and for once I can say I was fully satisfied - It just felt so right.
I've been going out clubbing whenever I can, and each time I've gone home with a stud. I'm not sure what has come over me, it is as if something has awoken and I can't control it....And I'm loving it! I haven't built up the courage to come-out to my family and friends yet, but I will cross this bridge when in due time.
By the way, I'm Sean, a Protoss GM (on SEA) living in Sydney, so if anyone out there wants to meet up for some fun or just want to pwn some noobs or talk about life I would love to hear from you . My details are:
SEA: kratos / 500 NA: kratOss / 366 Note: I've only ever been a lurker on TL and just made this account for this thread, so hit me up on battlenet
I also feel the need to state that Terran and Zerg are overpowered.
Thank you for sharing your story. Fantastic.
That first time walking into a gay club... Every gay man will understand, and no one else will quite get it. It's pretty incredible
Really? My first time at a gay bar I got a drink and tried to start a conversation with the bartender who nodded and then acted like he didn't care. Then I looked around for someone to have a conversation with. I was unable to do so because I was stricken with anxiety so I stood in the corner. After another twenty or so minutes of pacing about seeking a conversation I could possibly interject I nearly had an anxiety attack so I went home.
There are shitty gay bar experiences
Maybe incredible was not the right word.
My first experience I had such bad anxiety that I had diarrhea and chronic puking for several hours. I only calmed down when a really cute boy started talking to me.
What I meant by incredible was just how real/surreal/defining that night is. I can remember like 5 songs that played, I can remember what I was wearing, I can remember Dave (the cute boy) in every detail, I can remember what Celebrities smelled like.
I'll never forget that night. And that king of thing, is well, incredible.
That sounds like the worst experience possible for a first time out lol!
Aren't you in Toronto? How come we never hang out!
Hey, my name is Robert (azure ingame) and I search new players to play with. I would love to meet someone who is like me and shares my hobby starcraft. Since I play I only know one player who is gay also - Fabst - who I play all the time with. But i would looove to know someone other.
On June 16 2013 16:37 KratosAU wrote: Firstly I just want to thank the creator of this thread and everyone who has posted in it. I have followed it for a while now and you guys has helped give me the courage to explore who I am. I'm in my mid 20's now and for as long as I can remember I've always felt different, as if I have hidden a side of myself from my family, friends, and most importantly myself.
I've had girlfriends in the past, but I was never fully satisfied and it just didn't feel right. I always told myself that 'she' was the problem, but deep down I knew this wasn't the case - I kept hoping it was a phase and these feelings would go away..... but they didn't! They kept growing stronger and stronger, all the while I became more emotionally distraught and guilty, as if it were a crime to have these feelings.
It's funny now talking about this, but I decided I should try going to a club to see what it was like... I would get to the door and couldn't bring myself to go in... Four times I turned around and went home, each time I become more distraught and angrier with myself. But last month I finally had the courage to 'step through' into my new world. I went to club Arq (in Sydney) and it was AMAZING! At first I was so terrified; I probably looked like a lost lamb, as this really nice guy (Todd) came over and asked if I was alright. After talking with Todd I felt at ease with everything - as if the cloud of the confusion and ambiguity which had surrounded my entire life had lifted.
I'm frustrated by my inability to adequately convey the sense of lucidity that I had that night, it was as if everything in my life had come into sharp focus at that one instant!
Anyway, I had the time of my life. Everyone was so friendly and understanding, and each had their own stories about coming out - I made a ton of new friends. At the end of the night I went home with Todd and for once I can say I was fully satisfied - It just felt so right.
I've been going out clubbing whenever I can, and each time I've gone home with a stud. I'm not sure what has come over me, it is as if something has awoken and I can't control it....And I'm loving it! I haven't built up the courage to come-out to my family and friends yet, but I will cross this bridge when in due time.
By the way, I'm Sean, a Protoss GM (on SEA) living in Sydney, so if anyone out there wants to meet up for some fun or just want to pwn some noobs or talk about life I would love to hear from you . My details are:
SEA: kratos / 500 NA: kratOss / 366 Note: I've only ever been a lurker on TL and just made this account for this thread, so hit me up on battlenet
I also feel the need to state that Terran and Zerg are overpowered.
Thank you for sharing your story. Fantastic.
That first time walking into a gay club... Every gay man will understand, and no one else will quite get it. It's pretty incredible
Really? My first time at a gay bar I got a drink and tried to start a conversation with the bartender who nodded and then acted like he didn't care. Then I looked around for someone to have a conversation with. I was unable to do so because I was stricken with anxiety so I stood in the corner. After another twenty or so minutes of pacing about seeking a conversation I could possibly interject I nearly had an anxiety attack so I went home.
There are shitty gay bar experiences
Maybe incredible was not the right word.
My first experience I had such bad anxiety that I had diarrhea and chronic puking for several hours. I only calmed down when a really cute boy started talking to me.
What I meant by incredible was just how real/surreal/defining that night is. I can remember like 5 songs that played, I can remember what I was wearing, I can remember Dave (the cute boy) in every detail, I can remember what Celebrities smelled like.
I'll never forget that night. And that king of thing, is well, incredible.
That sounds like the worst experience possible for a first time out lol!
Aren't you in Toronto? How come we never hang out!
PFFFT , I am in Toronto, why don't WE ever hang out?! HMMM?
I like this therad about gays in sc2. What i dont like too much is when i watch MLG and commentators are saying she, she, i look up the new girl in pro sc2, and its another transsexual.
On July 08 2013 22:11 Slayer_Chessi wrote: I like this therad about gays in sc2. What i dont like too much is when i watch MLG and commentators are saying she, she, i look up the new girl in pro sc2, and its another transsexual.
On July 08 2013 19:29 marvellosity wrote: Good news klondi! Bling qualified for WCS EU Challenger tournament.
I suppose that's good news. I am starting to watch more SC2 now that LoL is becoming painfully boring. But he qualified as husband material long ago. Instead of expanding his list of qualifications he needs to get on the gay train.
So if ya'll aren't familiar with the youtubes and its various "celebrities," there's this adorable lesbian named Harto who does My Drunk Kitchen. But she also does some stuff on the side including this series where she talks about how she came out of the closet and what exactly that meant for her.
I'm not sure if it's true for most gay people but it's weird how well I identify and relate to other coming out stories. They're all so different and yet they all sound exactly like my story at the same time. Anyway the people in this thread who have already come out can probably watch this series and take some comfort in how rough it was for them to come out of the closet. The people who lurk and are questioning whether or not they are gay can watch this series and know that it's totally OK to not have all the answers right now and you don't even need to have all the answers in the near future...hell there might not even be "answers." Chapter 5 really struck home with me since it describes a good 6-8 years of my life where even when I was happy I was kinda miserable. But here's chapter 1.
I just walked in on two guys having sex in the showers at my local gym. For anyone who has had experience with this type of thing, what are you supposed to do/say if you walk in on that? Just leave and act like you saw nothing? It was extremely awkward but very arousing at the same time...
On July 13 2013 09:04 plasmidghost wrote: I just walked in on two guys having sex in the showers at my local gym. For anyone who has had experience with this type of thing, what are you supposed to do/say if you walk in on that? Just leave and act like you saw nothing? It was extremely awkward but very arousing at the same time...
I got nothing....
Don't know what you can say to that, except excuse me and carry on.
EPT
