The Shikyo Memorial for QQ Therapy - Page 423

I have read the hall of fame posts within this thread as well as some of the last few pages of QQ. Now I would like to share a little bit of my LOL experience with you all.

I consider myself an active, happy and well-balanced individual. I have a wonderful girlfriend with whom I live, I am passionate about my university studies and I have a healthy lifestyle with plenty of engaging hobbies. Unfortunately one of my hobbies is LOL.

I started pretty well. With my 10 years of Broodwar and SC2 experience my mechanics were pretty good from the start. I felt confident, I felt I would take this game by storm, reach level 30 and become at least a platinum player in no time. Alas, I was mistaken.

LoL brings out the worst in people. This is a fact, and I tried to excuse myself within this realization. If I am not in plat it is because of ''them'', because of the dreaded ''trolls''. Because of the rage, the crying and the chaos created by the relations within the community. I would play a 1 hour long game, where people would scream, cry and threaten each other. I would be affected by it and in turn, lose the game myself. Then I would think, I can't just go to bed like this, losing because some idiots are arguing and calling me a ''kid'' (I am 26 years old). So I would play another game, and I would lose again. This would lead to a very bad sleeping pattern.

One day, I was playing duo Q with a friend. He was ad and I was a nidalee support. Now, I am perfectly aware of the roles of support. To provide space and vision/map control, to threaten the other team with possible offensive plays and to defend the ADC companion. I usually start with many wards, and I concentrate on trapping every way possible into bot lane. Consequently my lances are not as strong as the typical AP nidalee, and I don't use them that much.

At some point, we get ganked, I die, but my adc saves himself. Now, the mid player decides to look at my play all the time, and starts lobbying the team in favor of 9x reporting me because I had more support runes than AP, and that I am useless (he said nidalee support was useless during champ selection, I ignored him). He proceeded to harrass me throughout the whole game, and blaming me for everything, while I was actually thinking I was doing a fine job, and whatever happed wasn't really my fault.

Finally, with a very slightly disadvantageous position for our team, something like losing 10-15 and 1 tower, I dived in cougar form to secure a kill which wasn't very clear. The resulting amount of rage in the air was unbearable. I ragequit, screamed at my duo Q partner through ventrilo about the injustices of the LOL community, and inmediately uninstalled the game.

I was so happy. So relieved. It felt like I have dropped a huge burden. Now I could peacefully concentrate on work, on writing my thesis, on playing other computer games.

I spent the next three months watching streams and reading about LOL. Finally, I decided to reinstall. This time, the game would not defeat me, I would defeat the game. I am a person who achieves his goals, always. Maybe the real goal with LOL was not to get to platinum. Maybe the real goal was to grow up as a person. After these three months of hiatus and reflection, I felt I was completely inmune to rage. Completely inmune to the chaos. Now, I can safely play with any team-mates, trolls, flamers or model-citizens. I enjoy playing with them all, and I don't feel thwarted by online abuse.

I am now able to maintain my dignity, despite having feeders on my team, or being a feeder myself when things don't work out. This new found inner-peace has won me many games.

This experience has helped me in my real life as well. The raging and irrational trolling that went on at my workplace, could not really compare to the level the LOL community brings. In my zen-state I was able to brush everything aside and power through it until things calmed down. Ironically, the rage, the hate, the continuous state of stress produced by a video game community has made me a better person. It has given me life experience I will carry with me forever.

I have read the hall of fame posts within this thread as well as some of the last few pages of QQ. Now I would like to share a little bit of my LOL experience with you all.

I consider myself an active, happy and well-balanced individual. I have a wonderful girlfriend with whom I live, I am passionate about my university studies and I have a healthy lifestyle with plenty of engaging hobbies. Unfortunately one of my hobbies is LOL.

I started pretty well. With my 10 years of Broodwar and SC2 experience my mechanics were pretty good from the start. I felt confident, I felt I would take this game by storm, reach level 30 and become at least a platinum player in no time. Alas, I was mistaken.

LoL brings out the worst in people. This is a fact, and I tried to excuse myself within this realization. If I am not in plat it is because of ''them'', because of the dreaded ''trolls''. Because of the rage, the crying and the chaos created by the relations within the community. I would play a 1 hour long game, where people would scream, cry and threaten each other. I would be affected by it and in turn, lose the game myself. Then I would think, I can't just go to bed like this, losing because some idiots are arguing and calling me a ''kid'' (I am 26 years old). So I would play another game, and I would lose again. This would lead to a very bad sleeping pattern.

One day, I was playing duo Q with a friend. He was ad and I was a nidalee support. Now, I am perfectly aware of the roles of support. To provide space and vision/map control, to threaten the other team with possible offensive plays and to defend the ADC companion. I usually start with many wards, and I concentrate on trapping every way possible into bot lane. Consequently my lances are not as strong as the typical AP nidalee, and I don't use them that much.

At some point, we get ganked, I die, but my adc saves himself. Now, the mid player decides to look at my play all the time, and starts lobbying the team in favor of 9x reporting me because I had more support runes than AP, and that I am useless (he said nidalee support was useless during champ selection, I ignored him). He proceeded to harrass me throughout the whole game, and blaming me for everything, while I was actually thinking I was doing a fine job, and whatever happed wasn't really my fault.

Finally, with a very slightly disadvantageous position for our team, something like losing 10-15 and 1 tower, I dived in cougar form to secure a kill which wasn't very clear. The resulting amount of rage in the air was unbearable. I ragequit, screamed at my duo Q partner through ventrilo about the injustices of the LOL community, and inmediately uninstalled the game.

I was so happy. So relieved. It felt like I have dropped a huge burden. Now I could peacefully concentrate on work, on writing my thesis, on playing other computer games.

I spent the next three months watching streams and reading about LOL. Finally, I decided to reinstall. This time, the game would not defeat me, I would defeat the game. I am a person who achieves his goals, always. Maybe the real goal with LOL was not to get to platinum. Maybe the real goal was to grow up as a person. After these three months of hiatus and reflection, I felt I was completely inmune to rage. Completely inmune to the chaos. Now, I can safely play with any team-mates, trolls, flamers or model-citizens. I enjoy playing with them all, and I don't feel thwarted by online abuse.

I am now able to maintain my dignity, despite having feeders on my team, or being a feeder myself when things don't work out. This new found inner-peace has won me many games.

This experience has helped me in my real life as well. The raging and irrational trolling that went on at my workplace, could not really compare to the level the LOL community brings. In my zen-state I was able to brush everything aside and power through it until things calmed down. Ironically, the rage, the hate, the continuous state of stress produced by a video game community has made me a better person. It has given me life experience I will carry with me forever.