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I have been deeply infatuated with a girl in my class for a little over a year now. It hurts my pride to think I can be so deeply affected by someone who never cried themselves to sleep day after day repeating the name that you wish with all your heart to forget and get over with. Yet you know all your attempts to do so is futile. I used to despise my friends who burdened me with their miseries that happened to associated with some chick that they couldn't get over. I used to just put on this fake expression of sympathy and pretend to care while imagining that my friend could grow a pair so we can spend the night on doing something fun and worthwhile. I wish I could have been the guy I wanted my friends to be. Shuffle my dead-end crush for this girl aside so I can move on and do whatever it is that I feel like doing. It sucks ass that I can't do anything but spend all day imagining the miniscule possibility that I might even be of the remotest bit of significance to her daily routines... something more than a simple nod of recognition every other few weeks. A few words here and there that echoes in my head for weeks on end. But I can't. And I'll continue wasting my time crying over something I'll never have the balls to take action in fear that my heart will be informed of the situation that it had been dreading all these months.
She will never be with you.
All this emotional bullshit for something that she said. Not even directed towards me for fuck's sake. I wish this embarassing outcry would quicken the process of me getting over her because whatever it was I have done so far sure as hell ain't working. I take a small victory in the fact that I have confided the sort of mundane troubles that I wanted to choke my friend for on the internet so I wouldn't have to spend the night crying while visiting her personal social interaction page that she has disclosed only to her friends. Fuck you Cupid. Don't fucking spray your shitty arrows if you're only going to leave someone already troubled enough broken hearted.
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Ignore the guy who's talking about having to choose between all the women. He's posting here because he's an insecure person who needs to have some sort of validation, even if it's from strangers on the internet. He doesn't really have a problem picking between some women, he just wants to tell everyone how many girls he supposedly has.
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Use a quote next time bro, so that you don't seem to be speaking out your ass about something that is like 4 pages back.
Dude on top, that sucks man, but I can't empathize with you. All I can say is that once your immature mind matures this won't be a problem anymore. I hate when the only answer is Time.
My admission for today, I'm angry for the first time in like 2 years because my best friend doesn't fucking care about my birthday party. Going to a massive, and she won't go cause she's feels uncomfortable switching shifts (something she's done before) with a coworker to get off for it. All that tells me is that my shit isn't important enough for her to put forth a little bit of effort to hang out with me for like the first fun thing I'd have done with her in half a year. All we ever do is have couple dinners or fucking watch Walking Dead or go on errands if we're both going to the same place, never anything I'd consider a good time. So the first time in awhile I set up an awesome time out she won't put forth any effort in going cause she doesn't care and it hurts and it shouldn't fuckin matter so much but it does... She'll get off to go to a shitty tech n9ne concert with her pot smoking mooch of a boyfriend (dude works at Hot topic is like 28 and isn't even an Assistant Manager, been together for like 5 months, notice the time relation here) but when I try to do something much more fun, involving all our friends it doesn't matter... Best friends for 3 years, as long as we've been in the military all the shit we've gone through together moving around the United States from Cali to Texas to Maryland I get blown off with sorry I really can't go but I'll take you to dinner... Fuck your dinner. Yeah, Idk if you can tell but I love her, like a lot it just sucks I love my wife more.
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Dude on top, that sucks man, but I can't empathize with you. All I can say is that once your immature mind matures this won't be a problem anymore. I hate when the only answer is Time.
I'm like 19 and I am having the same problem he is. Turns out the answer for me was therapy and antidepressants.
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On November 17 2010 08:39 allyourbase wrote:Show nested quote +Dude on top, that sucks man, but I can't empathize with you. All I can say is that once your immature mind matures this won't be a problem anymore. I hate when the only answer is Time. I'm like 19 and I am having the same problem he is. Turns out the answer for me was therapy and antidepressants.
That's not an answer that's a relief. A relief until your brain matures enough that you don't need to use the crutch of psychotherapeutic medicine. That crutch will just cause it to mature slower. All therapy will do is tell you that you have emotional control issues and sense of masochism so that's why you hang onto the one girl you can't have because in doing so you never have to place yourself in a position where you might be accepted as yourself and you couldn't handle that someone who actually liked you for you when you hate yourself. There saved you 1000 bucks. Therapy is trite generalization is all. But with as long as humanity has been around none of our emotions are original so I guess generalizations work just fine. Just interpose faces and names and in the end all our problems have been there before are still around and will be there in the coming days. All we can do is sit back and realize the inanity of our problems. That normally sets me straight when I start to think I have life problems. It's like so the fuck what? I'm not special and neither is my problem.
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On November 17 2010 08:52 Kakera wrote:Show nested quote +On November 17 2010 08:39 allyourbase wrote:Dude on top, that sucks man, but I can't empathize with you. All I can say is that once your immature mind matures this won't be a problem anymore. I hate when the only answer is Time. I'm like 19 and I am having the same problem he is. Turns out the answer for me was therapy and antidepressants. That's not an answer that's a relief. A relief until your brain matures enough that you don't need to use the crutch of psychotherapeutic medicine. That crutch will just cause it to mature slower. All therapy will do is tell you that you have emotional control issues and sense of masochism so that's why you hang onto the one girl you can't have because in doing so you never have to place yourself in a position where you might be accepted as yourself and you couldn't handle that someone who actually liked you for you when you hate yourself. There saved you 1000 bucks. Therapy is trite generalization is all. But with as long as humanity has been around none of our emotions are original so I guess generalizations work just fine. Just interpose faces and names and in the end all our problems have been there before are still around and will be there in the coming days. All we can do is sit back and realize the inanity of our problems. That normally sets me straight when I start to think I have life problems. It's like so the fuck what? I'm not special and neither is my problem.
Thanks bro, you just made a huge difference in my life.
Ok, this isn't the judgment thread either so no fucking BS
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I dated a girl only to be dumped by her so she could date my best friend, after a week of being apart (and dating my friend) we started to sleep together again. They were together a little over 6 months and we were sleeping together the entire time. I justified it by telling myself to believe the rumors about them sleeping together behind my back. They broke up when he found out and now we are slowly starting to talk to each other again :/
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I sometimes dream about one of my exes, and then wake up and have sex with my current gf while pretending she's my ex.
I secretly hope I never date a girl who reads TL forums.
I wish people could keep their confessions to one line.
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I went to Germany when I was 17 for an exchange program (2 weeks) and didn't drink a single beer.
I think I have narcolepsy or some sleep disorder(I get the feeling that this is unusual from reading around on the internet)--lucid dreams while going to sleep, sometimes very brief paralysis (only a second or two). Its actually really cool. I sometimes set my alarm to wake me up every 10-15 minutes just because the act of falling asleep is so cool(I often have full blown dreams over the 10-15 minute timespan which I remember. If I get an uninterrupted 8 hours of sleep, I never dream, or at least I don't remember doing so).
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On November 16 2010 11:11 Elegance wrote:Show nested quote +On November 16 2010 09:59 Jacobs Ladder wrote:
Despite being 19, I'm still capable of being painfully shy.
I'm also capable of having zero inhibition. im 18 and painfully shy
I only in am certain situations. When I'm with most of my friends I'm down right loud, but certain groups I just clam up. Sad thing is, the groups I clam up around I really really like. I've learned that sometimes you just have to go for it, even if you make an ass of yourself, you're less shy in the future.
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I'm sleeping with an employee in the bakery department of my store; I'm one of the managers so one could see how this is not a good situation.
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I don't sleep nearly enough for the amount that I work out, but if I don't work out on a day I feel so lazy and unaccomplished.
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On November 16 2010 15:36 Irrelevant wrote:
I beat off to porn whenever I have the house to myself even if I'm not horny at all.
truss
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On November 17 2010 12:27 gurrpp wrote:
I went to Germany when I was 17 for an exchange program (2 weeks) and didn't drink a single beer.
I think I have narcolepsy or some sleep disorder(I get the feeling that this is unusual from reading around on the internet)--lucid dreams while going to sleep, sometimes very brief paralysis (only a second or two). Its actually really cool. I sometimes set my alarm to wake me up every 10-15 minutes just because the act of falling asleep is so cool(I often have full blown dreams over the 10-15 minute timespan which I remember. If I get an uninterrupted 8 hours of sleep, I never dream, or at least I don't remember doing so).
lucid dreams aren't unusual, and you can train yourself to have them if you do it properly. also, the paralysis immediately after waking up is caused by a chemical produced in your sleep that prevents you from sleepwalking. it takes a few seconds for it to completely dissapate, so for a few seconds after you awake you can experience extreme numbness/paralysis
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I don't like to play sc competitively as much as I like to watch people play or as much as I like to run LANs
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I wish I had another account so I could post here without worrying about people who know me IRL reading it. Would be nice to get a couple things off my chest.
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On November 16 2010 06:41 Xarc wrote:
If im alone and the sink is closer than the toilet, i'll pee in the sink.
Signed up just to say this? Heroic.
I only want to play music for a living. I think I'd consider anything else pathetic failure once I got there.
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I'm trying to get drunk tonight (while on meds that advocate no alcohol) so I find it easier to make my pseudo-girlfriend happy by doing something I deeply don't want to.
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I was driving by myself in my parents' car, and hit someone else when backing out of a parking lot. My car had no visible damage, but his had a massive dent in the door, luckily for me he didn't want compensation as he was driving some crappy car with no insurance and I was in a Mercedes, he felt he'd be the one in a shitload of trouble.
To this day no one I know irl knows about this little incident 
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On November 18 2010 10:30 DarthXX wrote:I was driving by myself in my parents' car, and hit someone else when backing out of a parking lot. My car had no visible damage, but his had a massive dent in the door, luckily for me he didn't want compensation as he was driving some crappy car with no insurance and I was in a Mercedes, he felt he'd be the one in a shitload of trouble. To this day no one I know irl knows about this little incident
You hit a guy's car and offered to pay for the damages. Scandalous. =\
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