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On November 15 2010 22:23 Sm3agol wrote:Show nested quote +On November 15 2010 14:47 BlackMagister wrote:On November 15 2010 14:04 Faranth wrote:On November 15 2010 14:00 Sm3agol wrote:Everyone I know, knows me as a really happy, cheerful guy that smiles all the time, never gets upset, and has everything going for him in life. Personally, I hate my life, have contemplated suicide, don't care about anything, and stay depressed 95% of the time. I am apparently an amazing actor.  Wow. I can relate to this quite a lot, actually. I am perfectly capable of acting normal and coherent, and at least until a few days ago everything was going better than could possibly be hoped for, from an "objective" perspective. My last theater teacher told me that I should continue with acting ("talent"), but I have no intention of doing so. I too have been depressed, suicidal, empty. Guess I'm just a bit further down the road than yourself, as my confession is: I'm throwing everything away. Wow pretty serious stuff for a one-line confession thread. I'm not sure how helpful my advice is given I have trouble with this to a much lesser degree, but I think the best thing is to just have a really close friend you can talk to. Given it's hard to have those kind of friends and assuming that's why you're so depressed you just have to find the small things in life you enjoy. For me I've just been learning the lyrics to upbeat songs to sing while I walk home. So you're saying that playing chopin nocturnes until midnight isn't going to help? I tend to hate upbeat songs, and dislike songs with lyrics anyways. And the friend thing sounds great. Except I can't think of a single person in my life i'd like to share everything with. Everyone I know doesn't really know me, they just know the person I pretent to be.
Don't pretend to be anyone, then. Trust me, people have the capability of understanding you, you're just not giving them a chance. 
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On November 16 2010 08:26 ToxNub wrote:Show nested quote +On November 16 2010 08:19 Tempest186 wrote:On November 16 2010 08:01 ToxNub wrote:
I hate women. They make me angry. Their mannerisms, behaviours, ticks, the way they talk, act, look at the world, all annoy me. The only women I like act like men (not referring to stereotypical beer/sports/etc). I realized early in my life that the only reason I could be compelled to tolerate them was for their looks, but even that was too much dignity to lose. I see people in relationships and cannot believe what I see. The amount of abuse, and ridiculous shit people put up with just to get laid blows my mind. I see my roommate constantly tiptoeing around his angsty girlfriends wishes, other guys taking their drunk, stupid, loud girlfriends out in public, fully aware of how humiliating it is to be seen with them. The dumb jokes you must laugh at, the stupid shit you have to care about... the loss of individuality, the little changes you have to make in yourself so that you're acceptable.
/single Dude, I'm pretty sure you just hate retarded women lol, not all women. The situations you described are things that all guys hate. Some guys are just more willing to tolerate those behaviors in hopes of getting laid. That being said, not all chics are like this, because I would probably be single if they were. Some girls are realistic with their expectations, and don't act like idiots when they drink. Another way of looking at it is the reverse. Imagine how many douche guys women have to tolerate in hopes of finding someone. Meh, you will find someone that doesn't make you want to tear your hair out. I did, and I have almost no tolerance for emotional stupidity lol. And if you don't, you could always go homo.... No, I don't think so. Even the friends I have that are women (they don't behave at all like women towards me) are quite reprehensible when I consider their boyfriend-relationship behaviours. Deep down, it's built into them. A good friend of mine surprised (and disappointed me) on a ski trip last year where she guilt tripped my buddy for taking her on a black diamond run and we all had to wait at the bottom of the hill for an hour while they had a "talk". Fuck. Just one example, but I've got more... I guess I'll add the disclaimer that I've really only experienced north american women. Perhaps different cultures have a different notion of womanhood. Also, I just want to add that I am not that young. I have plenty of experience.
Idk man, my girl doesn't act like a guy (not sure how you do that but ok) But she does none of the things you describe. Sounds like the guy's you so called are in line for are just pussies who cant stand up for themselves. Sure my wife has complained about me going out and drinking or guilt tripped me once or twice but I don't stand for it. I tell her there's nothing wrong with what im doing so she'll have to get over it. Simply standing up for yourself. I only responded to you btw because I hate men. Men are fucking egotistical posturing idiots. I can't stand that subliminal subconscious peacocking attitude, like I got to be so much better than the guy next to me to make up for my small cock. Or even the dudes who have huge cocks, the smarmy sense of self satisfaction they get from something that's too large to even do anal with. Fuck all of you.  I'm awesome as I am without the boring inanity that you deem necessary in male2male interactions. t(-.-t)
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On November 16 2010 08:48 Kakera wrote:Show nested quote +On November 16 2010 08:26 ToxNub wrote:On November 16 2010 08:19 Tempest186 wrote:On November 16 2010 08:01 ToxNub wrote:
I hate women. They make me angry. Their mannerisms, behaviours, ticks, the way they talk, act, look at the world, all annoy me. The only women I like act like men (not referring to stereotypical beer/sports/etc). I realized early in my life that the only reason I could be compelled to tolerate them was for their looks, but even that was too much dignity to lose. I see people in relationships and cannot believe what I see. The amount of abuse, and ridiculous shit people put up with just to get laid blows my mind. I see my roommate constantly tiptoeing around his angsty girlfriends wishes, other guys taking their drunk, stupid, loud girlfriends out in public, fully aware of how humiliating it is to be seen with them. The dumb jokes you must laugh at, the stupid shit you have to care about... the loss of individuality, the little changes you have to make in yourself so that you're acceptable.
/single Dude, I'm pretty sure you just hate retarded women lol, not all women. The situations you described are things that all guys hate. Some guys are just more willing to tolerate those behaviors in hopes of getting laid. That being said, not all chics are like this, because I would probably be single if they were. Some girls are realistic with their expectations, and don't act like idiots when they drink. Another way of looking at it is the reverse. Imagine how many douche guys women have to tolerate in hopes of finding someone. Meh, you will find someone that doesn't make you want to tear your hair out. I did, and I have almost no tolerance for emotional stupidity lol. And if you don't, you could always go homo.... No, I don't think so. Even the friends I have that are women (they don't behave at all like women towards me) are quite reprehensible when I consider their boyfriend-relationship behaviours. Deep down, it's built into them. A good friend of mine surprised (and disappointed me) on a ski trip last year where she guilt tripped my buddy for taking her on a black diamond run and we all had to wait at the bottom of the hill for an hour while they had a "talk". Fuck. Just one example, but I've got more... I guess I'll add the disclaimer that I've really only experienced north american women. Perhaps different cultures have a different notion of womanhood. Also, I just want to add that I am not that young. I have plenty of experience. Idk man, my girl doesn't act like a guy (not sure how you do that but ok) But she does none of the things you describe. Sounds like the guy's you so called are in line for are just pussies who cant stand up for themselves. Sure my wife has complained about me going out and drinking or guilt tripped me once or twice but I don't stand for it. I tell her there's nothing wrong with what im doing so she'll have to get over it. Simply standing up for yourself. I only responded to you btw because I hate men. Men are fucking egotistical posturing idiots. I can't stand that subliminal subconscious peacocking attitude, like I got to be so much better than the guy next to me to make up for my small cock. Or even the dudes who have huge cocks, the smarmy sense of self satisfaction they get from something that's too large to even do anal with. Fuck all of you. I'm awesome as I am without the boring inanity that you deem necessary in male2male interactions. t(-.-t)
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...Well Played sir...
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Despite being 19, I'm still capable of being painfully shy.
I'm also capable of having zero inhibition.
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I fucked my friends girlfriend in his own apartment, used his boxers to clean the cum stains on his bed, and then passed out with her and he was away in another city; wasn't coming back till 3-4 days.
I have good friends.
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On November 16 2010 09:59 Jacobs Ladder wrote:
Despite being 19, I'm still capable of being painfully shy.
I'm also capable of having zero inhibition.
im 18 and painfully shy
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On November 16 2010 07:49 Mascherano wrote:
I won my last 5 pvz's to get into C- by proxy gating.
I feel so dirty.
You're a mega baller
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On November 16 2010 11:39 OmgIRok wrote:Show nested quote +On November 16 2010 07:49 Mascherano wrote:
I won my last 5 pvz's to get into C- by proxy gating.
I feel so dirty. You're a mega baller
lol lol ololo olo lol
fuck the zergs they deserved it LOL
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When people whine about spoilers of 2+ day old games I get the biggest FFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUU feeling ever. Seriously, if you gave a shit you would have watched the games already, shut the fuck UP.
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On November 16 2010 08:39 CosmicAC wrote:Show nested quote +On November 15 2010 22:23 Sm3agol wrote:On November 15 2010 14:47 BlackMagister wrote:On November 15 2010 14:04 Faranth wrote:On November 15 2010 14:00 Sm3agol wrote:Everyone I know, knows me as a really happy, cheerful guy that smiles all the time, never gets upset, and has everything going for him in life. Personally, I hate my life, have contemplated suicide, don't care about anything, and stay depressed 95% of the time. I am apparently an amazing actor. Wow. I can relate to this quite a lot, actually. I am perfectly capable of acting normal and coherent, and at least until a few days ago everything was going better than could possibly be hoped for, from an "objective" perspective. My last theater teacher told me that I should continue with acting ("talent"), but I have no intention of doing so. I too have been depressed, suicidal, empty. Guess I'm just a bit further down the road than yourself, as my confession is: I'm throwing everything away. Wow pretty serious stuff for a one-line confession thread. I'm not sure how helpful my advice is given I have trouble with this to a much lesser degree, but I think the best thing is to just have a really close friend you can talk to. Given it's hard to have those kind of friends and assuming that's why you're so depressed you just have to find the small things in life you enjoy. For me I've just been learning the lyrics to upbeat songs to sing while I walk home. So you're saying that playing chopin nocturnes until midnight isn't going to help? I tend to hate upbeat songs, and dislike songs with lyrics anyways. And the friend thing sounds great. Except I can't think of a single person in my life i'd like to share everything with. Everyone I know doesn't really know me, they just know the person I pretent to be. Don't pretend to be anyone, then. Trust me, people have the capability of understanding you, you're just not giving them a chance.
The thing is, though, I've been like this for so long.....i don't even know how to act myself in front of people. As soon as I'm in public I have this person i present, and it's grown to be as much part of me as my other half. It's why I can't bring my self to tell anyone else. I don't even think I'd know how.
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I hate making decisions. I'm pretty indifferent about just about everything No matter what it is, I just want people to tell me what they want instead. I especially don't like to choose what we cook for dinner or where I go to eat. Trying to choose a new cell phone was a struggle, finally picked one. Kinda strange, I suppose
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On November 16 2010 14:17 Molybdenum wrote:
I hate making decisions. I'm pretty indifferent about just about everything No matter what it is, I just want people to tell me what they want instead. I especially don't like to choose what we cook for dinner or where I go to eat. Trying to choose a new cell phone was a struggle, finally picked one. Kinda strange, I suppose
You think being indecisive is strange, lololol welcome to the world buddy that rock you've been hiding under must've been cold.
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I still cannot get over my ex gf. We broke up 3 years ago and I still think about her everyday.
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On November 16 2010 11:50 Sm3agol wrote:Show nested quote +On November 16 2010 08:39 CosmicAC wrote:On November 15 2010 22:23 Sm3agol wrote:On November 15 2010 14:47 BlackMagister wrote:On November 15 2010 14:04 Faranth wrote:On November 15 2010 14:00 Sm3agol wrote:Everyone I know, knows me as a really happy, cheerful guy that smiles all the time, never gets upset, and has everything going for him in life. Personally, I hate my life, have contemplated suicide, don't care about anything, and stay depressed 95% of the time. I am apparently an amazing actor. Wow. I can relate to this quite a lot, actually. I am perfectly capable of acting normal and coherent, and at least until a few days ago everything was going better than could possibly be hoped for, from an "objective" perspective. My last theater teacher told me that I should continue with acting ("talent"), but I have no intention of doing so. I too have been depressed, suicidal, empty. Guess I'm just a bit further down the road than yourself, as my confession is: I'm throwing everything away. Wow pretty serious stuff for a one-line confession thread. I'm not sure how helpful my advice is given I have trouble with this to a much lesser degree, but I think the best thing is to just have a really close friend you can talk to. Given it's hard to have those kind of friends and assuming that's why you're so depressed you just have to find the small things in life you enjoy. For me I've just been learning the lyrics to upbeat songs to sing while I walk home. So you're saying that playing chopin nocturnes until midnight isn't going to help? I tend to hate upbeat songs, and dislike songs with lyrics anyways. And the friend thing sounds great. Except I can't think of a single person in my life i'd like to share everything with. Everyone I know doesn't really know me, they just know the person I pretent to be. Don't pretend to be anyone, then. Trust me, people have the capability of understanding you, you're just not giving them a chance. The thing is, though, I've been like this for so long.....i don't even know how to act myself in front of people. As soon as I'm in public I have this person i present, and it's grown to be as much part of me as my other half. It's why I can't bring my self to tell anyone else. I don't even think I'd know how.
Hah, I can actually relate to this aswell (mostly the facade you put up). Like someone suggested you, I just latch onto certain simple pleasures (mostly music/aggro skating) to cheer myself up and I block everything else out (negative thoughts). Being constantly smiley does also bring about people who want to know you and talk to you. I was lucky enough to find a girl who felt in a similar rut lately and have been able to open myself fully to her and its a great source of relief~ Keeping up said facade has also made me quite indifferent to most things, and by doing so, I might just forget myself and my feelings in any given situation and simply go with the flow. Having such a paradoxal personality kind of desensitizes one on a deeper level, I feel. So while I may be unhappy, I've learned to simply shove all my troubles aside and tbh... I've been much better off.
If you just embrace your facade and observe the good (albeit perhaps little) it brings you, you might find in you the energy to work towards becoming that man the people around you believe you are.
I don't know if any of this will make sense to you
Or maybe you just need someone else in your life to live for so you feel forced to better yourself.
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I beat off to porn whenever I have the house to myself even if I'm not horny at all.
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^ That.
I watch chick flicks all the time because I can constantly relate to some part of them, my relationships, or my friends. I'm a straight guy.
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I actually cried like a little baby after HuK lost that game on Scrapstation earlier today.
I spend ridiculous amounts of time reading and watching stuff related to SC2. Best entertainment ever, beats TV/Movies/Books so easily.
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On November 16 2010 15:34 BentoBox wrote:Show nested quote +On November 16 2010 11:50 Sm3agol wrote:On November 16 2010 08:39 CosmicAC wrote:On November 15 2010 22:23 Sm3agol wrote:On November 15 2010 14:47 BlackMagister wrote:On November 15 2010 14:04 Faranth wrote:On November 15 2010 14:00 Sm3agol wrote:Everyone I know, knows me as a really happy, cheerful guy that smiles all the time, never gets upset, and has everything going for him in life. Personally, I hate my life, have contemplated suicide, don't care about anything, and stay depressed 95% of the time. I am apparently an amazing actor. Wow. I can relate to this quite a lot, actually. I am perfectly capable of acting normal and coherent, and at least until a few days ago everything was going better than could possibly be hoped for, from an "objective" perspective. My last theater teacher told me that I should continue with acting ("talent"), but I have no intention of doing so. I too have been depressed, suicidal, empty. Guess I'm just a bit further down the road than yourself, as my confession is: I'm throwing everything away. Wow pretty serious stuff for a one-line confession thread. I'm not sure how helpful my advice is given I have trouble with this to a much lesser degree, but I think the best thing is to just have a really close friend you can talk to. Given it's hard to have those kind of friends and assuming that's why you're so depressed you just have to find the small things in life you enjoy. For me I've just been learning the lyrics to upbeat songs to sing while I walk home. So you're saying that playing chopin nocturnes until midnight isn't going to help? I tend to hate upbeat songs, and dislike songs with lyrics anyways. And the friend thing sounds great. Except I can't think of a single person in my life i'd like to share everything with. Everyone I know doesn't really know me, they just know the person I pretent to be. Don't pretend to be anyone, then. Trust me, people have the capability of understanding you, you're just not giving them a chance. The thing is, though, I've been like this for so long.....i don't even know how to act myself in front of people. As soon as I'm in public I have this person i present, and it's grown to be as much part of me as my other half. It's why I can't bring my self to tell anyone else. I don't even think I'd know how. Hah, I can actually relate to this aswell (mostly the facade you put up). Like someone suggested you, I just latch onto certain simple pleasures (mostly music/aggro skating) to cheer myself up and I block everything else out (negative thoughts). Being constantly smiley does also bring about people who want to know you and talk to you. I was lucky enough to find a girl who felt in a similar rut lately and have been able to open myself fully to her and its a great source of relief~ Keeping up said facade has also made me quite indifferent to most things, and by doing so, I might just forget myself and my feelings in any given situation and simply go with the flow. Having such a paradoxal personality kind of desensitizes one on a deeper level, I feel. So while I may be unhappy, I've learned to simply shove all my troubles aside and tbh... I've been much better off. If you just embrace your facade and observe the good (albeit perhaps little) it brings you, you might find in you the energy to work towards becoming that man the people around you believe you are. I don't know if any of this will make sense to you Or maybe you just need someone else in your life to live for so you feel forced to better yourself.
In a way, you just described myself right back. I am just ridiculously indifferent to about everything that goes on in life. I just don't really give a crap about anything or anyone. I try to, but i just can't really care. And I also agree that trying to be happy, and putting up that facade of happiness has led to me meeting a bunch of good people that i try to spend time with and care about, and has kept me sane, i guess. It just hasn't fixed my care problem. I also agree with you about finding someone else in life to care about. But i am terrible with girls...at least, terrible at being serious with girls.
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At the most random times I suddenly think about something funny and I start to chuckle. This leads to some pretty strange reactions from people.
For example, while making out with my girlfriend, a fragment of the Daily Show would pop into my head. Or while eating dinner and listening to a conversation I'd think about a picture from the funny pictures thread.
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