I'll post the initiation rights I had with my friend.
(9:14:07 PM) † . Rιкuu -: lol so whats up?
(9:14:18 PM) Joseph: I'm going all in right now.
(9:14:22 PM) Joseph: Launch me.
(9:14:24 PM) Joseph: 3-2-1 me.
(9:14:26 PM) Joseph: GO.
(9:14:28 PM) Joseph: Do it!
(9:14:34 PM) Joseph: ANDREW SHOVE THE SWORD.
(9:14:37 PM) Joseph: THROUGH MY HEART.
(9:14:38 PM) Joseph: NOW!
(9:14:49 PM) † . Rιкuu -: YES.
(9:14:54 PM) Joseph: count me down.
(9:14:56 PM) Joseph: This is the zipline.
(9:14:57 PM) † . Rιкuu -: GO ALL IN MOTHA ! 5
(9:14:59 PM) † . Rιкuu -: 4
(9:14:59 PM) † . Rιкuu -: 3
(9:15:00 PM) † . Rιкuu -: 2
(9:15:01 PM) † . Rιкuu -: 1
(9:15:04 PM) Joseph: OH SHITTT
(9:15:08 PM) † . Rιкuu -: GO GET YOURSELF FUCKED!!.
(9:15:32 PM) Joseph: LOL.!!
(9:15:34 PM) Joseph: NO RESPONSE!
(9:15:36 PM) Joseph: High five!
(9:15:39 PM) † . Rιкuu -: LMFAO!.
(9:15:43 PM) Joseph: APOLLO 13!!
(9:15:50 PM) Joseph: Bitches! pew pew lasers!
(9:16:09 PM) Joseph: LOL.
(9:16:10 PM) Joseph: still nothing.
(9:16:14 PM) † . Rιкuu -: LMFAO!. PA POW PA POW POW POW RA TA TA TAA BOOMB BOOMMB PSHH PSHH PSHH!!
Well after that...
I just totally rambo'ed the server and screwed up really hard. It wasn't that bad though because in that moment, most of my feelings dissolved and I was able to calm down. She didn't really understand what I was trying to say besides the massive cliche crap like ...
(9:18:46 PM) Joseph:Uh, I've been thinking and I'd really like to hang out with you... .. . ...
(9:19:38 PM) Joseph: I don't know what you'd think though... since you're always busy.
(9:21:52 PM) - girl: .. oh. hang ?
(9:21:59 PM) - girl: well i am a busy bee..
(9:22:10 PM) Joseph: YES!!! I'm crazy about you!! I NEED YOU !! LOL all that good stuff.
(9:23:02 PM) Joseph: Oh sorry, I guess it was supposed to be 15 minutes no rush.
(9:23:03 PM) Joseph: ...
(9:24:52 PM) - girl: woah
(9:25:03 PM) Joseph: lol hehe... I guess I got too excited.
(9:26:19 PM) Joseph: Well... I wanted to tell you if we ever saw each other again... but it didn't seem likely.
(9:26:33 PM) Joseph: At least in the near future so...
(9:27:12 PM) - girl: .. what are you trying to say ?
(9:28:12 PM) Joseph: I don't know.
(9:28:14 PM) Joseph: Seriously.
After that failure, I just tried to dissolve everything. And we had a fairly normal conversation afterwards. Most of those crushy feelings are gone and I'm not sure what to do now. I pretty much don't have any friends that I can hang out with afterschool since they're either busy or live too far away. Maybe I should work out at the gym?
Note: The last thing that made me do all of that was the thought that I might be an AFC or have one-itis.
Okay, I guess what I'd like out of this is to just get some advice from you guys since you guys are awesome. Advice like, how to improve my socially inept social skills and how I should adjust my attitude towards girls and stuff. I went to an all-boys school for 5 years of my life. (Gr 4-7, 9) Maybe you guys could share some stories or something as well? That'd be great. System Specs:Guitar, Poker(Yes, I know I'm underaged, playing on Titan Poker), Singing, Piano, Listening to music, reading books. All revolve around my computer.
Please believe me when I tell you I'll put 100% effort into any tips you guys think I should do.