EPTThe last few years for me have had so many highs and lows, diagnosed with a seizure disorder that pulls me from my career and passion. Getting married, breaking my right ankle, to only a year later break my left ankle and have two broken legs. Wife being in the hospital and having some not so nice complications. Meeting many wonderful people in this E Sports industry that I am blessed enough to have a job in.
Its been such a roller coaster. Its kinda funny, I really think that people believe that if you fight or fought for a living at any point, you have no emotions and just deal with things like a tank. It doesn't really work that way, I think I am actually a more emotional person then many. Its why I have been moderately successful at things I have done though, it makes me more passionate I believe.
In the last few months, I started playing poker, which was incredibly fun and have had moderate success. I have also started playing LoL again, when league first came out I played at a very high level, and then stopped playing for a long time when I started my own e sports brand All 4 ONE Gaming, that later became ItsGoSu. I was pondering the other night what would have happened if I wouldn't have done that and I would have just continued to compete in league, where would I be now, with how much Riot puts into the game it would have been interesting. I quickly realized though that I wouldn't have made some of the incredible friends that I have made if that was the case, so I am really happy with my decision.
Right now, I have a good job with a solid organization that I am enjoying, but I still want to do more. I can't train right now or fight, with a freshly broken left ankle, so that's a real bummer, but its life I guess. So I've been trying to find something more to do with myself, something else I can do to occupy my time when I am not working. I am the kind of person that stresses out if I have to much time on my hands, I think way to much. So I am trying to figure out which direction I want to go right now really.
I might start streaming multiple games, like whatever I play, and play a variety and stream it all and hope that a few awesome people might enjoy them with me that way. Really not sure where I am going or what I am doing right now. I just know hard work pays off, and since I am back to square one with not being able to work out and fight again anytime soon, I need to find something to push myself in. I am sure more ups and downs will come with whatever I do, but really that's what makes you stronger. If life was all positive all the time, how much of an adult would one ever be?
Starting to ramble on at this point, but I am going to try to write these more often. Never been much of a writer, but its nice to get stuff off your chest sometimes.
