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I'm a 4th quarter Senior. I'm having incredible issues actually paying attention in class. I'm an IB student, but I really can't find the motivation to do much of anything. I'm pissed at my math teacher, for various reasons over the year, and recently she dropped my grade by 15 points after 1 test at the end of this most recent quarter. I just can't seem to fucking care is the worst part. I blank on every math test, I hate my teacher, and to top it off, her husband was racist towards me earlier in the year which has hurt this relationship from the beginning. I don't know why I keep blanking every time I take a test, and I just don't know what to do. I'm writing this really short blog asking for help TL. Why is my Senioritis so bad right now, and why do I keep blanking on tests.
About the blanking- I study and study (hell I overstudy sometimes) and still forget everything
- It only happens in Math
- I think this is because A) I hate my math teacher and she hates me and B) I have significantly less confidence in my test taking abilities since I suck at test taking
- I don't know how to regain my confidence in math
- I don't know how to become a better test taker.
About the Senioritis- I've fought it off for a while but now I can't seem to do any work
- I feel like I'm gonna get denied from all of my colleges because I got denied from Wash U which doesn't help
- I can't seem to bring myself to care about Math because I hate my teacher and the class
- I can't seem to want to do or do homework now
- I want to continue to have pride in my work, but my school constantly and actively fucking me over throughout highschool has come to a head now where I no longer care about the quality of my work at this point. If my grade can drop 15 points from 1 bad grade of a test given 2 weeks after not learning the material and then the teacher not going over it, even if I understand the material I can't even take the test without blanking so why the fuck should I care anymore.
I know this sounds whiny, I get that. I'm pissed right now, I just can't win, and I just can't seem to take a math test without blanking so badly that I fail. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've used all the advice I've been given and none of it works. I've overstudied, I've slept, I've understudied, I've done positive self-talk, and none of it fucking works. I need help, TL.
 
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stop being so emo.
Its high school and its 1 class that lasts what, 4.5 months? Who cares if the teacher doesn't like you, you'll never see them after you graduate. Suck it up and get your shit done and stop stressing about your relationship with your teacher.
If you feel you need more confidence in math, try getting a tutor. To be honest it sounds like you're not studying very efficiently, try working on that.
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On March 20 2013 03:39 Masq wrote:
stop being so emo.
Its high school and its 1 class that lasts what, 4.5 months? Who cares if the teacher doesn't like you, you'll never see them after you graduate. Suck it up and get your shit done and stop stressing about your relationship with your teacher.
If you feel you need more confidence in math, try getting a tutor. To be honest it sounds like you're not studying very efficiently, try working on that.
IB classes run continually for 2 years, though you may change teachers during that time.
Don't really know what to tell you, OP. Get tuition if you need help with the subject, but having a bad teacher isn't an excuse not to work hard. Finished my own IB awhile ago, so I know the sort of stuff you're working at, and I know you've got final exams coming that determine a lot of your grades (even if you applied to college with predicted scores, colleges check the actual ones too).
Having teachers that blatantly fuck your grades over is an easy way to lose motivation, though. I've had the same piece of work (one of my IAs) given massively different scores between two different teachers, and it makes you wonder why you should bother actually working hard. If anything, it teaches you that IB, like any highschool, is about just gaming the system as best you can. Hallelujah for education.
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Maybe your memorizing too much? Math study should involve a minimal amount of memorization, it should be able to understand the techniques and then remember them because (I'm guessing this is calc 2) there's only one or maybe two ways to solve it anyway. Anyway don't put so much pressure on yourself, you're basically done. Everything that's gonna happen is gonna happen regardless of how you spend your last semester, try and enjoy the end.
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On March 20 2013 03:49 Dfgj wrote:Show nested quote +On March 20 2013 03:39 Masq wrote:
stop being so emo.
Its high school and its 1 class that lasts what, 4.5 months? Who cares if the teacher doesn't like you, you'll never see them after you graduate. Suck it up and get your shit done and stop stressing about your relationship with your teacher.
If you feel you need more confidence in math, try getting a tutor. To be honest it sounds like you're not studying very efficiently, try working on that. IB classes run continually for 2 years, though you may change teachers during that time. Don't really know what to tell you, OP. Get tuition if you need help with the subject, but having a bad teacher isn't an excuse not to work hard. Finished my own IB awhile ago, so I know the sort of stuff you're working at, and I know you've got final exams coming that determine a lot of your grades (even if you applied to college with predicted scores, colleges check the actual ones too). Having teachers that blatantly fuck your grades over is an easy way to lose motivation, though. I've had the same piece of work (one of my IAs) given massively different scores between two different teachers, and it makes you wonder why you should bother actually working hard. If anything, it teaches you that IB, like any highschool, is about just gaming the system as best you can. Hallelujah for education.
1. Masq, that is not how IB works. I understand I'm being negative, but when things are so capricious it is hard to really accept life that way.
2, Dfgj, I had a tutor for it, the issue is mostly the lack of confidence leading to me failing tests by completely forgetting everything when I see the test. It is a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts. Yeah, when teachers are like this, it makes life really hard for me. The teacher already refused to bump my grade .1 points and insulted me throughout a meeting when I tried to get that grade bump which I made a blog about. I can't get over how many times my school has fucked me over like this and it is bordering on mroe than once per quarter. I don't even know how to want to try when I hate my environment so fucking much.
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If you truly didn't care, confidence wouldn't be an issue. Just chill out and remind yourself you're gone soon. Or take amphetamines.
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Lol this is exactly my life. Fuck math and the IB program senior year
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