Finding my soul again

RuMCaKe

United States559 Posts

October 20 2012 08:36 GMT

I have done a lot of very interesting things in my life, had some unique jobs, met a lot of people, competed in various things, all in all I have done quite a bit I think for my age. I am deciding to write this blog / potential blog series and seeing feedback. If it gets good feedback, I will probably continue to write them on a weekly basis, writing down my thoughts helps a bit and I figure why not let people read them.

So first off Ill introduce myself, my name is Scott Ball, I am currently the Director of Sales and Marketing for Quantic Gaming. I live in the Quantic team house in a suburb of San Diego California. I will have been happily married on the 23rd of this month for 2 years to an incredible women. You might read this and wonder why I would call it finding my soul, so Ill start explaining that now.

At a very young age (4) I started wrestling, my dad wrestled Division one in college for 4 years and got me into the sport as recreation at a very young age. I ended up wrestling all the way through high school, and a bit in college. I won a few freestyle and grecko roman California state championships, and experienced moderate success. While in wrestling I had the opportunity to meet several fighters, and I took a real liking / interest into MMA. I started training for fun and one day decided to start taking some fights, in which I again experienced moderate success. At this time, I was living out of state, I decided to leave my current gym in which was working very well for me to come back to California. When I came back to California, I bounced around gyms a while, took a few fights that I wasn't anything near prepared for, and didn't do as well as I should have. A few months after one of these fights I became very sick, and started having seizures.

When I started having seizures doctors assumed worst and basically said there could be some form of brain trauma, and stopped me from doing anything. They didn't want me running, training, driving (took away my license even), basically told me to sit on my ass at home and do nothing. Throughout this time I had an incredible girlfriend, whom I am now married to, and a very supportive family. My friends were also there for me quite a bit, and despite everyone being there and wanting me to get better, I was pretty much miserable. The reason I was miserable might not make sense to some people, but it was because I had no competition in my life. I really didn't know how to live without trying to be better then someone at something. My entire life was dedicated to this point to training, and winning. When this was stripped from me, I basically just became lost. I started gaming a bit at this point, I ended up playing for a professional COD team at one point, and even an alternate for a high level LoL team at another point. This still wasn't the same to me though.

My playing games lead me into management, in which I started my own team called All 4 ONE Gaming (ONE). We were known to be a cheesey bunch of jerks that one a lot of clan wars we weren't supposed to. We kind of were, but really the players kind of shared my mentality, of playing to win. So that's what they did. ONE was some very fun times for me, I made some of which I know for sure will now be life long friends there. Eventually, ONE was aquired by Its GoSu, which is where many of the players currently reside. I worked for Its GoSu for nothing to very little for a very long time. Eventually it came down to me needing to move on to better support my wife who was very supportive of my time in E Sports. When this happend, I ended up where I am now at Quantic Gaming. Quantic has been great to me, and I again have had the opportunity to meet some incredible people that I hope to know for a very long time.

Despite being in a pretty ideal situation right now, I still feel the void of not competing, and I really am planning on fighting again one day while working in E Sports. I work very, very hard and its probably the only reason I have made it as far as I have in anything in life. Right now, I have torn ligaments in my right ankle, and am getting an MRI on my right knee as well in a few days. It makes doing anything very difficult again, and not being able to train or compete is something I miss greatly. I am doing what I can to try to improve and move forward, and push myself as hard as I can, but with how out of shape I am now, and the injuries I am soooo far from competing again. I really shouldn't even be thinking about it, but its so wired to my brain I just can't get it out of my head.

So I guess Ill attach a few photos.

Sorry if this is somewhat scattered, I want this to be a true blog, and I am writing down my thoughts as they come to my mind.

Some thank you's where they are due:

Thank you to my wife for being so supportive through all of the madness. I am pretty blessed to have someone so supportive.

Thank you to Quantic for the opportunity you have given me. I have had a ton of fun getting to know everyone in the organization. We have some incredibly hard working and talented people that I hope to know for a very long time.

Thank you to everyone from Its GoSu. You guys will always be a family to me, and I hope you all continue to have success. All of the players current and former there, are very special to me.

So I guess Ill attach a few photos old photos.

Heres a few pictures of me training with UFC heavy weight Travis Browne. This guys is a true monster, and a very nice man.

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Here's some pictures of me with one of my old trainers, Abel Nunez, Abel is currently one of the head trainers for a team called Reign. They have fights like Mark Munoz, etc, a very talented gym. He was really an awesome trainer.

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Here is a picture of me walking out to one of my fights:

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Here is a picture of a staredown before I fought a boxer named Ben Davis. This was probably one of the dumbest decisions of my life, I took a fight, 2 weight classes heavier ( heavy weight ) then my normal weight class on about 20 hour notice for a paycheck. Didn't go so well :p

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If I do more of these blogs, Ill try to put some pictures a long with each of them. Anyway, hope someone enjoys the read.

Seki Santoku

United States105 Posts

October 20 2012 09:13 GMT

Awesome man, I wish the best to you. I remember the one time we talk on skype about tribes ascend when you were thinking about making a team. We talked for about 3 hours while playing some tribes and telling stories of food service and cooking. Hope you get back into MMA and reach your goals. Much <3 and GL HF!

Quakie

Norway725 Posts

October 20 2012 09:31 GMT

Awesome that you have such drive for something. Also interesting to read about MMA and wrestling, it's not very big here in Norway(college and uni-sport is no where so big as in the states really). How old are you? Didn't find that in your post.

KawaiiRice

United States2914 Posts

October 20 2012 10:24 GMT

SCOTT THE WRECKING BALL
<3

EtherealDeath

United States8366 Posts

October 20 2012 10:31 GMT

Lol your face from that angle in the last pic is like "hmmm why did I do this"

Heyoka

Katowice25012 Posts

October 20 2012 12:27 GMT

You look seriously scary in that second to last pic.

bITt.mAN

Switzerland3693 Posts

October 20 2012 13:55 GMT

Its so strange. I love Breakdance, its what I train and think about all.the.time. 2-3 hour sessions, 3 times a week, no problem. Tire myself out to shit. For physical activity I can just keep going and push myself, not giving in or giving up, and its really satisfying. Lol, until I hit points where my body can't actually keep up with my desire and motivation, and starts breaking down (yeyeaah ankle and knee problems). I need dem endorphins.

But for just about anything else, I can't have that same dedication or drive. Surely, they'd be far less tiring and take less physical exertion, but still, they seem so much harder to complete. Doing my degree problem sets, keeping up old friendships, finishing (heck, starting) my laundry, even just walking down the street to the bank informing them about my change of address. No energy, no go.

Why is it that we can 'hit the gym' for hours on end, but when it comes to (well in my case) helping my Mom do the dishes back home, its just oh so tiring and too much of a drain? Well, there isn't that satisfaction or rush associated with those activities, I dun get my hormonal pain-killer fix that way now do I.

But imagine if I could! Imagine if I could do my studies and be satisfied - feel as fulfilled and good as I do after a really tough workout. Just think how much easier studying would be, what a breeze and joy it'd be if mental exercises and drills were as straightforward as physical ones. You-just-do-them 'Tell body-pain and brain SHUT UP, just keep doing pushups.' no help from dear'brain's ADD

I want that for my Differential Equations!

RuMCaKe

United States559 Posts

October 20 2012 22:23 GMT

I'm 26.

<3 kr.

Heyoka you are scarier you can ban me from tl! <3

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