On December 13 2010 03:10 Siffer wrote: Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement.
I would just like to state that my overall goal is to get back into school. It has been for the past year and a half or so. I am entirely not too sure what exactly I want to focus on in school, however the computer science field has been ranking pretty high as of late. I am not exactly a programming prodigy as maybe my OP might have painted; however, I do have a good mind for it. Ever since I was in 6th grade I was always fascinated with different types of computer software and wanted to figure out how they worked. Over the years, I would spend countless hours downloading source code and picking it apart and trying to figure out what every line accomplished. Eventually I got to the point where I was making simple software like mp3 players, banking assistance software (such as balancing your accounts), etc.
I definitely don't have the knowledge to go out and create a multi-million dollar idea; however, seeing all the programming related responses has lit a fire under my ass to get back into it. Maybe my re-learning project will just be a SC2 related as a way to say thank you to those who have given me words of encouragement and motivation. :>
As for right now, I am just continuing to find a job anywhere I can. I am in no mood to be picky, and have been looking at jobs in both my currently location and my home state. I am hopeful that eventually something will come up and I will be able to get the ball rolling. Craigslist and indeed have been my best friends for the past few months.
If you have the ability to drive a car and have moderate experience with programming you could consider trying to work for a POS company. If you were still in NYC, I would have recommended trying to get a job with Micros. Basically, you are a "software engineer" for Point-of-Sale systems for restaurants and retail stores. You drive around in a van and hook things up for people and set up their cash registers etc. It's very decent pay from what I've heard. $25/hr I think.
Perhaps in NC there is a similar company. I would definitely look it up as it's not a difficult job at all. POS are very easy programs to learn, you carry a manual around with you everywhere that has step by step instructions on how to do everything, and you get tons of breaks while still on the clock.
Best of luck, you haven't had it easy. And I think going back to school for Comp Sci is a great idea. You might even want to zero in on the cell-phone programming field, as that is the most likely field of programming to boom in the near future.
Thats quiet sad man... maybe you should start playing poker on internet? I mean like, i know its hard and shit like that, but you could get some money... idk, just a suggestion if you really don't find i job...
On December 13 2010 04:51 Dia wrote: Thats quiet sad man... maybe you should start playing poker on internet? I mean like, i know its hard and shit like that, but you could get some money... idk, just a suggestion if you really don't find i job...
anyway, gl in future
haha I am sorry but internet poker is probably the worst possible thing someone in his position could currently start doing.
On December 13 2010 04:51 Dia wrote: Thats quiet sad man... maybe you should start playing poker on internet? I mean like, i know its hard and shit like that, but you could get some money... idk, just a suggestion if you really don't find i job...
anyway, gl in future
haha I am sorry but internet poker is probably the worst possible thing someone in his position could currently start doing.
On December 12 2010 11:29 Roe wrote: I don't see why you had such a "i dont give a fuck" attitude towards school, seeing as it was one of the few ways you could get out of the mess you're in right now. I guess you never know what you lose in the future, and 'hindsight is perfect'
I don't see how you don't see how he could have the don't give a fuck attitude after his parent's divorce and his mom passed away.
because plenty of people have had that happen and had a better work ethic. also he's a guy on the internet so empathy tends to be reduced
Way to be a dick.
Thanks for sharing OP. As someone said, you aren't moving fast but moving in the right directions. Definitely try to get some college courses in, but priority wise, start trying to find a job. The market is hard right now but you know your strengths so capitalize on that.
I wish you the best of luck OP.
Not trying to be a 'dick', I was just asking a question which no one answered. Also I admitted my empathy could be reduced. I guess it's just genetics, some people have more luck getting good genes that force you to do hard work and ignore the worst pains of life and others have to have enough time to find habits and behaviours to deal with having these feelings.
Best of luck to ya OP, your life seems to have taken you all the way to hell itself. If it's any help to you, now that you've experienced the sharpest pains of life you can look upon it with enterprise and rejuvenation. You're better than desperation and destitution. It's not much to say to a man with 47 bucks and a suitcase, but every day is a new day. That goddamn sun will keep rising and give you opportunities to get back on your feet and live life as you want to, as long as you really fight for and want it. As I noted earlier some of us primates get lucky, the rest have to endure the struggle that many great human beings have had to go through. So it's not in vain. You may yet live another day to tell the tale that drifts through the ages.
wow... this was an intense read. you've been through so much -- best of luck in all your future endeavors. don't give up! despite not having a college degree or money to your name, i don't think you should be ashamed at a perceived lack of accomplishments. if anything, your ability to be able to work your way up from the bottom in previous jobs you've worked at, to resist temptation from your room mates, etc are all exceptional achievements in their own right.
I read through your entire post, and I have to say it's really motivational man. I hope shit really works out for you man, you really deserve better in life. Just find something to make life worth living for, otherwise you'll end up breaking down again and again. I don't think I can really offer much advice, but man, you're still alive. You're still here. Standing, breathing, living. Don't give up. You're 26, and you can still change shit around. Just stay away from drugs, and maybe consider working out, lifting weights. Lifting weights and going to the gym has really helped my life out. I hope you make it out of this man. Good luck!
Read your entire story, just wanted to say I grew up in very similar circumstances. My dad left us and our mom who had a brain tumor in the right hemisphere which permenently disabled the left side of her face and hearing. I was really young at the time so I don't remember much (thankfully? I dunno..)
It'd be neat if we could pool all the super talented unemployed TL'ers to form a online business. Someday, right? Anyway, hey! Don't give up dude. Siffer fighting!
wow...good read. you should be really proud that you're at least trying to get your life back on track...I mean most people would've went downwards forever. Also, from what you wrote, I think your uncle and aunts were really helpful (during the beginning) and when you get your life back on track, I think you should thank them (not that you won't )
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