The Letting Off Steam Thread - Page 251

I just got straight up robbed... I needed one color photocopy, one sheet of paper right, and I don't have a color printer so I go to this place. Took 30 seconds. It cost $3.44. I look at the invoice: $2.50 for "digital file". She charged me $2.50 for the laborious process of inserting a flash drive and clicking on the pdf. And then $0.49 for the page. Plus taxes. Fuck that shit.

at the end of high school and start of university 13 years ago i worked weekend midnights at a Fedex-Kinkos. It was the Fedex-Kinkos at Spadina and Bloor that appeared in that Pure Pwnage Comedy Podcast. The place charged more than triple the standard price for everything because nothing was open at 2 am on the weekends. There were many angry raging customers in the store every weekend. Occasionally I'd have to tell one of them to leave. If that didn't work I called the police. If they refused to leave and continued to hold an exacto knife in their hand the police arrived fully prepared to use their guns.

i play 2v2s with my gf. its great fun and great team work. we yell and scream at each other.. its great. i remember in a 30 minute game the turning point came down to who owned a certain section in the middle of the map.. i yelled at her to bring her whole army there.. my army was arleady there.. and i yelled ... WE WILL DIE ON THAT LEDGE ! ! ! funny stuff.

Why is depression so, fucking, omnipresent in my life?

Why does it decide to hit at the most fantastic of times? New relationship starts off OK, oh hello again. Got an interview coming up? Why thank you for raising your head at the most opportune of times.

Anything that feels can inject some enthusiasm to push me out of my current rut in even the medium term gets sabotaged, sigh.

When I do have an extended period of good mood, no opportunities whatsoever appear for me to capitalise on.

Sigh.

You wait 15 years for an album and when it finally comes out its a fucking piece of shit. Fuck you Tool and Fuck whoever produced this overcompressed boring meandering wank.

I hate winter's Gate so much. It is the worst map. There even is a spot above/below the natural, where if you try to blink your stalkers they get stuck behind minerals. I hope Marras moves on from Sc2. FU.

I was gonna make this a blog called "I can’t afford an island" but that might be a bit self-indulgent so here we go, 2 month bump here.

When I look at how my friends and family live, it always seems ridiculously chaotic to me. Everyone is always out there socializing, playing with their kids, playing videogames, listening to music, going to events, etc. It seems like people are comfortable living in relentlessly loud environments. A lot of them relax and even sleep with the TV on, they live near a busy street, they use their phone to play games on the toilet with the sound on. I’m jealous, because I can’t do that without breaking down.

Every day, I feel pressure building up gradually, anxiety that comes from the lack of silence. At work, computers and motors and grinding noises. At my place, neighbors stomping around, a few cars driving on the street (thankfully I live in suburbs). I go visit my parents on the weekend on a quiet little street on the side of a golf course. It’s at the very end of a dead end on a small street, there are very few cars there. But if it’s not the people making noise it’s those TWO ridiculous clocks clicking away out of sync, or the old heaters.

For the last few years, I’ve been on a quest for silence. In the evening, I need to wind down and I seek quiet. But it’ll never happen. On a normal day, I get home, I sit on my chair, I want to read a book, read some news or forums on the computer, exhausted from my day. And I hear it all. People are speeding on the street. Neighbors moving a chair dragging it on the floor the whole way. One of my case fans has a slight rattle that no one else could possibly be bothered to notice. A slight coil whine pierces through my closed-back headphones like they’re not even there. I’ve started replacing computer fans for premium Noctua ones, I want to insulate the walls but that’s expensive and won’t entirely work. I moved loud devices like my NAS to be farther from me. I wish that, every day, I could have maybe 30-60 minutes just to myself, with nothing but the sound of rain on the windows or wind in the trees.

But why bother. I managed to make my PC quiet, and now everything else is louder. The cars out front are louder now, the fridge keeps turning the pump and fan on, the water running through the pipes because someone else is using their sink or flushed a toilet. Also, my tinnitus sounds worse. But worst of all now are all the other shit sounds I can’t locate. There’s a vibration that seems to be in certain rooms in my place, and completely absent in others. It’s not any of my electronics. I have no idea where it comes from, it’s a pulsating vibration in my ears and down my neck. It’s at my computer, it’s in my bed, and it only shows when all the other sounds are almost absent. At night, traffic is at the lowest, neighbors are sleeping, I lie down in bed and it vibrates. So, I turn on the white noise machine, my head hurts from clenching my jaw in frustration and I wake up in the morning. The vibration is there. And then the day starts. Coffee machine, cars driving in front of the house, then my garage door, car engine, and soon enough it’s people. Fucking people.

It has gotten to the point where I feel like my sanity is slipping away. Maybe I’m just being a princess, maybe there’s something else that’s wrong with me. I get so mad at everything after hours and hours of unrelenting fucking noise that sometimes I just can’t be around people or I know I’m capable of snapping at them and being a huge dick for no reason.

she was at the hospital for an examination and was going to call me when it's done
I'm at work, my phone is on the charger and I go to the bathroom
she calls and I miss, after exactly 1 minute I call her back
7 TIMES

she doesn't answer and texts me
+IM NOT GOING TO CALL YOU EVER AGAIN
+IT'S NOT OF ANY USE ANYWAY

-I wasnt at my table and I called you back after only 1 minute
-shouldn't I even go to the bathroom lol

+leave it
+you are carrying your phone only as an accessory

and she says that "she doesn't get angry very easily"
when I argue that she easily gets upset about smallest stuff and turns them into big fights I'm the one who is not respecting her because what's "small" to me is important to her
congrats, u managed to turn my day to shit in only 1 minute
and lose all my concentration at work
and I should finish my fking task in this kind of mood
thank you very much

TL sidebar makes me very sad lately. All these awesome Koreans streaming and Afreeca is just a laggy piece of work for me from europe so I can't watch any, but TL keeps reminding me they are there and I would like to, but Afreeca is just so inconsiderate towards it's global audience. Shame on you Afreeca and shame on TL for enabling such an abusive benefactor of the community.

I have gotten tinnitus... FUCK.

FUCK
ZERG
FFS NERF THIS SHIT RACE FINALLY

I went to a concert a few months ago and got a bad case of it. Ended up using a spotify white noise playlist to help me sleep at night and after about a month it went away.

We also got an air purifier that makes just enough noise that I can focus on that instead of the ringing in my ears

In a way, the pandemic has brought to light the true nature of people and society...there's been a lot of acts of selflessness, heroism, community, sacrifice...but it feels like the media has focused on the shitty parts of humanity. The politicians insider-trading, suppressing whistle-blowers, trying to advance their political agendas and corruption, the rise of racism, people trying to infect others deliberately, etc. It's all so depressing to follow after a while

Why do you all play Starcraft so you can feel superior to others? Every single game you tell me why you're better. You have 3500 MMR too you know

This is not so much blowing off steam as just expressing bewilderment.

I'd be curious to see the differences in psychological profiles of people based on which race they pick in Starcraft (in my case, SC2, but also in BW). I've been playing a lot more frequently lately due to the lockdown, and I've noticed that I only ever get BMed, balance whined, etc. by terran players. I almost never see BM from zergs or protosses but I see it in probably 20-30% of my games against terran. It's everything from "lol protoss" to outright bizarre stuff. I just finished a game against a very bad turtle terran who wanted to go for mass BCs and do the ol' "yamato and jump" strategy so I hard-countered it. Before leaving they hurled a bunch of insults at me, ending with accusing me of using the "mule worker hack", whatever that is.

I just wonder why this is the case I guess. Is there some personality trait that makes certain people choose terran that also has the effect of making a small subset of those people also be rude or intense? Is it the influence of several particularly negative terran streamers in the past that has encouraged ladder terrans to act this way?

I guess one example of this that we can all see is if we compare Artosis's BW stream to Tasteless's. Artosis takes things incredibly seriously, tends to criticize his opponents and call them "bad" a lot, and gets visibly upset some games when he loses. Tasteless, on the other hand, just chills while he listens to music and his losses tend to be water under the bridge. He'll look at his replays for mistakes and so on but he never seems to actually get properly mad when things go wrong. Obviously the two have quite different personalities but it does make me wonder if personality has an impact on what race someone chooses.