The Letting Off Steam Thread - Page 184

My wife recently left me. She was here today with some other guy to collect her stuff. I feel so angry I dont know what to do or how to live without her, she was my everything. I feel so depressed and suicidal now. I dont know what to do

why are still immortal all ins still so retarded 2-3 years after they were made up

they still take 10x more skill to defend than to execute and it has a 70% winrate at like every level

this game is so fucking bad

David kim, kill yourself

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I tried writing something. It wasn't that great. It didn't flow how I thought it would. Maybe another day. No one is perfect, nothing makes sense. I decided to not eat anything yesterday. I woke up really starved and tired. I can only imagine what anorexic people go through. I'm tired. I met with my pathologist today. She made me realize how decrepit and isolated my lifestyle is. I spend too much time in the house. I'm feeling motivated to start changing. Just today I sent some messages to a person I know to hang out. I don't know if they've replied yet.

When I was home I just felt dull. What am I going to do with my life? My head doesn't feel like it's thinking clearly. I didn't even know what to do. I was thinking how much I felt like enjoying myself and going outside. Instead, I spent the time playing some starcraft. I played this really long 2v2v2v2 BGH game. My partner was pretty good. We ended up winning somehow. I kept nuking my opponents and going Battlecrusiers, the ultimate double whammy. No one ended up getting Zerg strangely enough. That game probably took 2 hours. By the time I was done it was already pitch black outside and several times I felt like turning on the lights. Then I played a game of Team Micro Arena and won that game too which felt pretty damn good considering the other team was cheating like a bunch of cheaters.

I feel really deprived mentally and I need to burst out of my cocoon somehow and feel this sudden flood of relief. I'm feeling pretty sad. I got nostalgic about one friend I used to have. I made a new account on the iccup ladder and used his name. It's funny to play under his username because he was always a really bad player and now that I'm playing with his username it's like he's become a force to be reckoned with now. It's still me though behind the name.

I forgot to take my medication yesterday. I've been taking it less and less frequently. I'm just getting tired of taking it. It only has a 24 hour half life so that could be a part of the reason I'm feeling miserable. I've been feeling better recently from refraining from doing any spongeworthy related activities. I can already feel myself becoming more positive, outgoing, and more stronger. I was thinking about taking up Tae Kwan Do again. I probably won't. I'm getting pretty tired just thinking about what i'm gonna do.

One of my former mentors came by and we saw each other in the hallways. He mentioned his son was fifteen and six foot five. I had to do a reality check and figure out my own age for a second. His son is pretty accomplished and smart while I'm already older and not doing anything. I should be more active with my life.

Yesterday someone was talking about how a nun at their church got lung cancer. The nun has two kids in middle school. She's only in her thirties. I'm not so far off from thirty. I should do something with my life. It got me thinking how I'd deal with cancer. I was watching axcrank, a sc2 streamer, read his chat out loud, and one of the people in his chat thanked Crank for streaming and mentioned he beat cancer. Crank was all congratulatory. Watching Crank's stream isn't so fun somehow. It's lost its charm. Pretty much all the streams have lost their charm. I'm getting bored. I know this guy who used to live like I do, constantly watching television shows and binge watching them. That was how i spent my free time and felt content but I've lost interest in watching any entertainment and I notice how isolating it is. It used to be more of an ignorance is bliss thing.

There's this person I've been thinking about. I'm too shy to say hello to them. It's one of the goals I have to make connections so I should pursue it with no burdens or drawbacks in mind. It's all about taking chances.

this game is so fucking bad seriously

like how the fuck are you supposed to win against protoss, i just cant do it no matter what fucking style i use

HOORAY ANOTHER RETARDED LITTLE TERRAN WITH HIS OWN FREE WIN HELLBAT BASED BUILD WHOEVER SUGGESTED THE HELLBAT CHANGE GO KILL YOURSELF

fucking terrans, cheese fucks who can only a move, hit T and win. lololo hard race, fucking morons, abusive fucks. Bio needs to be adjusted, mines to be nerfed and warpgates needs to not sux all the balls.
FUCK TERRAN

fucking terran goes gas first, 1base play. I don't take any dmg, not a single probe. His hellions don't even enter my base. I still lose 'cause fucking widow mines. NERF THIS FUCKING SHIT HOW RERARTED IS THIS, PVT IS BROKEN FOR OVER HALF A FUCKING YEAR AND BLIZZARD DOESN'T FUCKING DO A FUCKING SHIT.

FUCK.
I HATE terrans

I fucking hate humans, and I want to watch them all burn, one by one. Line them up for mass extinction.

go fucking die, david kim

yay another fucking autistic asshole with his own clever 9min hellbat based timing

This is the question I'm asking myself