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Chupacabra(UCSD)
Mexico225 Posts
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Hidden_MotiveS
Canada2562 Posts
+ Show Spoiler + I've had one dream where I was ruler of the world and I was trying to improve the world and shit. The dream progressed over the course of months. Eventually I came to an ending to that dream and I repeated that one many many times until I stopped dreaming about it. This dream was about power and a desire to "help the world". I probably dreamt about it because I don't have much freedom at home. As a kid I also had a recurring dream where I lived by myself in a forest. I think this was some time after reading the "On The Far Side of The Mountain" and "Hatchet" series. I built everything for myself by using what I found in the forest. My treehouse operated cleanly providing fresh clean water. I caught my own food and picked berries. I think what I liked most was the relaxing freedom of this dream. Sometimes I still look at forests and think about how great it would be to live in them, even though realistically I probably wouldn't like it. I dreamt about a girl that I had a crush on from the seventh to the ninth grade. She was rather shallow, and not the smartest girl. But she was pretty and more developed than her peers at that age. It was strange since I didn't like her anymore. I was on a school bus, and when she got on, I looked at her, she saw me, and then I looked away. She always sat in the back with the cool kids but this day, she took the seat in front of me. I couldn't understand why, and as I started coming up with stupid reasons, she turned around gave me a bad look. Then she looked away. I looked down and placed my hands on the top of her bus seat. A few seconds later, she tapped me on the hands and when I looked up she was leaning on the seat and she gave me this beautiful smile. I hated waking up from that dream. I really just wanted to be acknowledged by girls that liked me, I didn't need them to like me back. I had a dream about a female Zordon before it happened. For a long time I thought it was a premonition. Now I think I just saw the "on the next episode of power rangers" section and didn't realize it consciously. The scary + Show Spoiler + Once when I was 6/7, I ate too much toothpaste while brushing my teeth. It wasn't enough that my stomach hurt; I had nightmares all night that I was being chased through a dark forest. I ran in a circle always trying to something behind me. The Sleep Paralysis + Show Spoiler + None, I don't go back to sleep after experiencing sleep paralysis. I agree with some people on the other dream threads that sleep paralysis is caused by sleeping in a hot room. In addition, wikipedia says it can be caused by not sleeping enough. It's scary not being able to move your body though, you don't know if you'll be like that forever, and a fight or flight instinct kicks in trying to move because if you don't it'd be like you were dead. | ||
cArn-
Korea (South)824 Posts
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decafchicken
United States20021 Posts
Recently i've remembered my dreams for the last 4-5 nights in a row, going to keep keeping a mental log of my dreams when i wake up and remember everything i can about them, but not much more since i'm too lazy to keep a journal. | ||
StimD
Norway738 Posts
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xiZE
Sweden60 Posts
The first girl jumped me and said like "I wanna do you, RIGHT NOW!" but i hessitated. In real life i was in love with the other girl before, that's probably why i hessitated in this dream. Because of the hessitation, the other girl came in, and they both stood in front of me, telling me that i had to choose. In this dream, i guess i was still in love with the second girl, so i said, with no hessitation: "I only want you" and took her in her arm and pulled her close to me. It was so beautiful, and when the alarm went off this morning (work.. sigh..) I felt sooo happy, because it all felt so real, you all know what im talking about. It wasn't untill i was making my breakfast that i realized it was all a dream hahaha. Makes me happy just thinking about that dream, and i will never forget it! | ||
darkemperor
Turkey725 Posts
also in again same situation(sick) I saw computers and calculator raining down on me from the sky.. I was like a genius with math at that time so it might be related to it.. I had to calculate numbers like 978462 * 154468 from my mind.. so yeah it was kinda horrible.. | ||
xiZE
Sweden60 Posts
On July 29 2010 17:01 darkemperor wrote: when I was like 4-5, whenever I get sick or have fever I was having nightmares that I was being chased by a train in a railroad.. and there was one timer showing how much time left.. when the timer hits to zero, train catchs up to me and just when it tries to crush me I wake up with alarm ringing.. and scary thing is that that alarm is phone's ringing irl. This, i have also experienced. It's very scary but also very interesting i think. It's like the mind knows what's gonna happen in rl, even if you're somewere else in your mind (dreaming). Its kinda like an outer body experience, very cool! I also like the dreams were you talk to a friend in the dream, then you wake up by a phonecall from... yes, you are correct, the same friend! cool sht! | ||
decafchicken
United States20021 Posts
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marcoso
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Brazil818 Posts
On July 29 2010 09:47 Hidden_MotiveS wrote: The Sleep Paralysis + Show Spoiler + None, I don't go back to sleep after experiencing sleep paralysis. I agree with some people on the other dream threads that sleep paralysis is caused by sleeping in a hot room. In addition, wikipedia says it can be caused by not sleeping enough. It's scary not being able to move your body though, you don't know if you'll be like that forever, and a fight or flight instinct kicks in trying to move because if you don't it'd be like you were dead. good to know... I don't believe in curses or whatever, but it's crazy anyway. Don't know if this happens to others too, but with me it only occurred after a really scary dream, making the paralysis even more scarier. I had them regularly, but the last one was maybe 2 years ago. + Show Spoiler [the dreams] + something like a ghost or spirit lifting me, or dark figures with no recognizable shapes moving around my room or home while I'm in the bed. What scares me the most is the environment: always my home, exactly how it is. Usually I don't have dreams with familiar surroundings so similar When paralyzed, it feels like if you don't fight it you'll die or be hurt badly. I'll try to trigger it again lol | ||
Nihilnovi
Sweden696 Posts
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Spyfire242
United States715 Posts
On July 30 2010 23:50 Nihilnovi wrote: meh I'm so jealous, I dream like twice a year tops -.- Most people dream every night, I assume you mean you only remember about 2 year heheh... As for me all my dreams are incredibly strange, even my nightmares are strange some examples. Nightmares + Show Spoiler + My two most common reoccurring nightmares involve having intense surgery done to myself while awake and without morphine or anything similar, such as brain surgery or open chest surgery. And the second is always trying to move up an almost vertical slope either in a car or climbing, I never actually fall but it fills me with such intense fear I wake up sweating sometimes. Dreams + Show Spoiler + I have many dreams but the most recent one I can remember is of me looking at myself from outside myself, strapped to an upright medical table, and for some reason I need to get inside my body, so I open my mouth and crawl down my own throat and into my stomach, but when I get there it becomes like a giant city like new york or something except all the sidewalks and buildings are white and everything is very very clean and perfect, there are many people moving around doing various things but none of them ever speak or make much noise at all, I am fairly certain I walked around for quite some time but I don't remember many other details after I woke up, fun stuff. On July 29 2010 10:42 cArn- wrote: How can you actually have lucid dreams ?? I've had probably let's say semi-lucid dreams, but lucid to the point i decide what I'm doing, that never happened to me, must be weird Oo I can't figure out how it feels Ive never been able to have a complete lucid dream per say but there have been times when I would know I was dreaming and I would try to force things to happen the way I wanted them to, but it was like a tug-o-war with the dream itself and I never had full control no matter how hard I tried lol... | ||
KinosJourney2
Sweden1811 Posts
But a common nightmare is falling and it feels like im actually falling, feels like im gonna puke my stomach out then i hit the ground and i don't feel anything. Then i wake up and im scared to death. LOL | ||
Alabasern
United States4005 Posts
TLO just lost his Bo5 against White-Ra on their streams. I had a long work day and stretched and relaxed my body. Wrist stretches = + Show Spoiler + GoGo coaches, there are battle-weary wrists of MVP and Flash to assist! Massage! Massage! FUCK YEAH LIFE! I'm home alone for the first time this summer. And I'm not a fucking child. I have to work at 4:30 am for my 3rd day of 4 before I start summer school, I'm feeling new-found stress. I fell asleep randomly on my couch watching White-Ra. I awoke and sloshed upstairs to my bedroom, and fell asleep after a pillow fluffing. Sleep terror ("Nightmare") + Show Spoiler + Then proceeded a sadistic and undeniable violent and torturous nightmare of the destruction of my home, mental state and life. 3 bullies from my past invaded my "home" with two dozen people, and drugged me with white powder. (I could feel weightless after the "scene") Then I got to my room and tried to shake the hallucination and intoxication. Two girls awaited me, and it became violent quickly. I didn't fight them, and they stabbed me with an unknown syringe, and stole from me, whilst yelling at me to fuck them. I escaped from one unknown area to find myself in a less hospitable area, bleeding and drugged. I couldn't yell or move. I sailed through the nightmare like a live animal awaiting it's slaughter. I went from home, to plaza (I live in the country...) and further into the streets (MW3 "Resistance" similar area) hopeless and running from authorities and what was flight away from my wrong-doers. I kept reliving the experience and began to despair. I'd fly from one scenario to the next, repeatedly getting seriously fucked and hurt, lost, and left alone awash in a ditch. I had to experience, only once thankfully, an auditorium of people throwing shruikens at me, while I failed at catching and returning them. I became flayed and limp, soaring around helpless. Then getting drugged and assaulted while my home was invaded by my real life antagonists. I fled and stumbled in a roadside ditch with one semi approaching, while I hid from view. I would "return" to my "home" hoping I could return safely to sleep, but the home invasion begun anew. And I was helpless as I struggled to find my way around the maze of stairs and areas. I would get "drunker" or "saturated" from an overdose sabotage as the cycle progressed and could barely lift myself out a swamp I army-floated through to reach the roadside ditch awaiting my savior turned passerby in the night. Then I'd return back suddenly to my "home" going up the stairs to do something with these previous acquaintances turned real-life antagonists. 3-4 times I ran through the nightmare in my neurons, thanks evolutionary biological mechanisms... | ||
Toadesstern
Germany16350 Posts
The only dream I really remember is a nightmare that gave me a shocking experience when I was about 16 or something like that, here we go: + Show Spoiler [the dream] + So I just lie in my bed and suddenly I see a weird man with a coat and a hat standing in a corner in the other end of my room. I'm lying with mostly closed eyes in my bed pretending I'm asleep. He moves slowly towards me, like 2 steps and I am scared as hell and wake up. I'm sitting in my bed now, awake, turning on the light, totally sweaty, scared like shit but I realize it was just a dream, am happy, think about this and after 60 secs or so, I go back to sleep and turn the light off. 10 secs after I turn the light off I see the same guy again. Exactly where he ended up standing when I woke up, just 60 secs ago. Basicly the exact same thing over again, just that he started 2 steps closer to me. The same stuff happens, closed eyes, pretending to be asleep, he gets 2 steps closer and I wake up sweaty as hell, sitting in my bed, happy to finally be awake. This time I was really shocked, I sat there like 15 mins with the lights on and after that went to sleep again although I was scared. Needless to say the same thing happened again. The guy was again 2 steps closer, makes 2 more steps, I wake up and stuff like I mentioned above. However this time he gets to my bed with his 2 steps before waking up. So now I am REALLY scared because this shit already happened 3 times now. I'm watching my clock, it's something like 4 am and I told myself to just stay up for the rest of the night. Aaaand I fall asleep again some time later. Suddenly I wake up, not sweaty at all. Everythings fine, light is off because I just woke up, no man in the corner nowhere. I'm really released, starting to loosen up and 3 secs later this guy jumps right into my face and I FINALLY wake up for real. The dream itself was nothing special at all, just a nightmare but the experience was really terrifying to me that day. I don't know if I actually woke up multiple times and if it were multiple dreams that worked out together perfectly or if it was some Inception-like bullshit as in me dreaming to wake up which makes me think I am awake while I am still asleep, which sounds incredible unlikely but it sure felt that way. ///Edit: Sitting in your bed thinking you are in reality AFTER a nightmare just to figure out you actually are still NOT in the real world and this shit happens over and over again really was somewhat mindbreaking to me that time. I was really scared, not because of the dream at all but because of that weird set-up that made me think I am finally awake again, everythings fine from now on and BAM, everything's back to crazy./// Pretty much the only dream I really remember. Sure I had some dreams that I can still remember (mostly nice ones, I'm really not a nightmare guy usually o.O) but that nightmare is the only one I can really still picture even after years beyond knowing what happened in the dream. | ||
Lemonayd
United States745 Posts
The first one was kind of violent, I remember this guy i used to know from school and soccer from years ago was picking on me or something and it got violent. all there was to it, but that wasn't the one that bothered me. Of course I had a dream about my ex girlfriend which pretty much tilted me throughout the day. The dream didn't have anything bad to it, it was actually very pleasant. In the dream I remember being very close to her and specifically remember being happy and seeing her smile. While the dream may have been a warm fuzzy feeling when I woke up she was drilled into my head and I became distraught and thought about her for the next two days :/ Mind fuck ![]() | ||
Frumpysnoo
United States247 Posts
Nightmares + Show Spoiler + The most prominant nightmare that I've had about 4 times since I was a kid was one where I was being murdered. I was 6 or 7 years old and I remember trying to pass through this long hallway in an apartment I used to live in a long time ago with my mom and sister. I remember trying to reach the end of the hallway to get to my mom's room, but I was being stopped by some entity. I kept trying to dash under his/her legs, run around them and even jump over them but I couldn't. Every time that I would fail, the person would hold me down and stab me with a steak knife and break the handle off, allowing the blade to stay lodged in my back. I would try to reach my mom's room and experience this about 4-5 times before I would finally wake up either in tears or in pain. Paralysis(?) Still terrifies me to this day just typing it out.. + Show Spoiler + I've only had sleep paralysis once in my life, and still to this day I'm not sure if it even was. I was aware that I was asleep, but I felt that I was just about to wake up. That borderline feeling..I don't know how to explain it. It was almost as if my eyes were simply closed and I wasn't asleep. I remember hearing voices speaking but I couldn't keep up or make out what they were saying. Eventually they became very rapid and there were so many that I was getting frustrated. Eventually one overpowered the other's and I heard this loud (almost as if I was the one saying it) voice say something about "posessed". That's the only word I remember actually, just a very loud voice say it. No, declare the word: "POSESSED". I immediately woke up wide-eyed and felt this horrendous fear and had what seemed like tunnel vision. You know, where you're so excited/scared/focused that all that you can focus on is what's directly in front of you. I tried to get up to turn my light on, but I found that I couldn't move. I couldn't move my arms, legs, head..not even my tongue. The only part of me that seemed to respond were my eyes, but I didn't dare look around my room because I knew if I saw an entity I would straight up lose my shit. I don't really know how to describe it, but I felt this immeasurable rage..around me. I could actually feel this anger/hatred, but it wasn't from me. I don't..know how to explain it. I was 100% convinced that something was in my room with me. I could see out of the corner of my left eye a shadow hovering in the left corner of my room near the door. As I stared forward I braced myself for it to move or appear under the flicker of my television lights. I tried to yell for my mom, as I was 16 at the time and her bedroom wasn't far from mine, but again I couldn't even open my lips to allow the words to escape under clenched teeth. After laying there for about 5 minutes, all the while wide-eyed, I finally took a deep breath and I guess regained control over myself and was able to sit up and turn my light on. I turned just about every light in the house on and woke my mom up. She could see I was a mess, as I was in tears and so terrified I could barely speak. She went downstairs with me where I told her everything that had happened. I told her about the voice, not being able to move my body physically and feeling that something was with me. She looked at me in shock, and told me that she had actually dreamt that night that a boy came into her room tapping her on the thigh and repeatedly saying "mom". She said she couldn't tell who it was, and when she got up they were gone which spooked her very badly. After staying up for a few hours she prayed with me (she's pretty religious, me not so much) and then went to bed. I didn't get another minute of sleep that night. After doing some research I came across sleep paralysis and pretty much decided that it had to have been that. The thing is though when I opened my eyes and experienced all of this I never once closed them again. I never "woke up" from this.. I was 100% conscious about what was going on around me from the moment that I found myself unable to move to the point where I turned my light on. I'm 99% positive that it was sleep paralysis..but, call it the crazy in me, I still retain the 1% because of my own uncertainty. I remember looking at my alarm clock to the left of my bed while unable to move and it was around 3 a.m that all of this had happened. I try my hardest every single night to be well asleep before this time.. | ||
Alchemind
Albania142 Posts
Klunk! Klunk! Klunk! I woke up in some small annoyance, and a scene came in from my propiroception of the Little Bald Doctor banging my wheel-chair, myself in it, through an unneccessarily narrow door, made for what I presumed men who were tall and need without wheels. Inconveniance. And so I was rolled in a room with dark floor-boards and a table up four feet from a wall in direct sight that went up just below this man's sternum who stood looking curiously at us with a fancy bow-tie on his collar, and lo' be it, this Bow-Tie man looked like he had some judgement within him. "Three! Three! Three!" shouted the Littlke Bald Doctor, unnecessarily tyrant and slammed a wad of green paper on the table. " ... huh?", the Bow-Tie asked. "Three! Three! Three!" the Doctor shouted again. "You want room number three?" the Bow-Tie understood. "Three! Three! Three!" and so a drawer opened and I was rolled in haste to room number three, just after we were rudely interupted. "Hey, what's your wrong with your friend there?", the Bow-tie inquired, which I found a bit queer and puzzling since there was no one else in the room but the three of us, so I do not know who he could possibly be refering to. I don't remember the motel room. I do, actually, but it was a room like any other, and a room 'like' is seen one seen all, and for this I have forgotten it even with myself in it. The motel room, as with little memory I hold did not include the Light Bulb which was On from the moment we opened the door; a highly severe audit issue with the management not paying mind. Yellow, dull, dirty--you cannot breathe correctly in such Yellow Light. All is polluted. I've long been the most sensitive to the color temperature of artificial lighting. The humans preceeding us and, I dare make a presumption, had not correctly assessed color temperatures in relationship to their biological make-up. Humans don't consider color temperature. They are beasts and neanderthals. Humans will not consider color temperature. They cannot consider color temperature. These human beings are without consideration, and I have long ceased to consider them at all. "What a ghastly thing, there." I pointed with my cane at the Yellow Bulb. "Turn off the light." "This light doesn't turn off! Ack!" the Doctor shouted shortly after as I noticed he kept hopping on and off the bed (the Doctor is short, worth mentioning only once) pulling down the light chain switch with no results from our dear ol'e single Yellow Light Bulb. Yes, it was a trooper. It did not do as told. Normally I'd hold it in esteem, but it does not do me credit with its obtrusiveness and vulgarity in my eyes. I long for purity. "Go on!" "I'm trying! Ack!" and up and down he went, jumping, pulling, jumping, pulling, sometimes missing, falling and knocking his big head on the carpet. He did this for hours. Would you believe it if I told you? He jumped and pulled for hours. I had nothing better to do. I would not lie, even if I were capable of it, and I will say that I watched him for hours, jumping, pulling, missing, falling, and knocking his big head on the carpet. I felt I needed an intermission between the act so I interluded, "You're useless. Just break the damn thing." I said, knowing very quite well that the Doctor was short (only worth mentioning once) and that even in my poor vision that this motel room was scant with little to nothing to be thrown to break the Yellow Light. There was nothing look for, out in the open, so in this fact the Little Bald Doctor proceeded to look for something light enough to throw at the Bulb. "Hoh! Ack! Ack! Ack! Useless, but more useful than even the less useful people ... " he rambled on and on and on the way he does going from one point to another and I frequently became grateful for my deterioration of senses the longer and longer I lived. He spied the night table drawer and soon shouted, "HsaW Aknow! I found something!" "What?" I asked. "It's 'Wonka Wash' spelled backwards" he said. "No, what did you find?" I asked. "I found something?", and he looked puzzled. "In your hands!", I pointed. "Oh! Ack!" and so he held it up in the air, "I found something!" and so a better look I've found him holding an irresponsibly thick book, the pages flattering about as he waved it in his discovery. "Throw it!" I said. "You know, if I break the Light Bulb it may not come back on again." "I hadn't thought about that." Saying 'I hadn't thought about that', I proceeded to not think about it, given that a light can be on or off and these days there is a choice between the things I do not want to think about and those things which I do not want to think about even more. "Certain, books, Mark." the Little Bald Doctor said and motioned to his thick book. "Huh?" I asked, the Doctor infrequently made sense. No, not by his own choice or will or understanding the things that need to be understood in the world, but rather I stopped trying piecing and tying together the words that came out of his mouth: Seperated, detached, isolated words without a drop of inherency. "I am reminded of a poem long ago, 'After Reading Certain Books', an author that I forget, appropriately" and so he went on in his verse high in the chest: "'It is a great deal better to lose than to win. and virtue is nothing compared to sin and to get out of heaven is the way to get in Said the Devil, the Best can make his happy hell, a champagne joy in the path we know well and who can rise that never fell? Said the Devil,'" I looked at the Doctor. 'That's nice' I imagine my face read. I then looked at a small corner of the motel and exclaimed, "Who the Hell is that!?" "Oh, shit!" the Doctor was now surprised by this young invader of motel rooms, a young boy, younger than I, staring, just staring, like the Dickens and solitude and stiff staring at a wall, no more than two inches away from it, his nose, his eyes, his hands, his feet, all unwaivering and stiff, doing nothing, not anything, just looking at the wall as empty a stare can be. A bright healthy one, too! Sandy brown hair; would've made a great soldier for any cause if he was any bit wise. Could've made a merchant, too. No, a merchants assistant. No, a merchants customer. No, wheels. Either one. "Hey, get out of here!" the Doctor shouted in the Boy's direction. "Why did you bring me to this motel when management doesn't kick out their own?" I began. You check in one day, you leave the next. That is how it works. I do not know how things work, most admittingly, but motel rooms, all invaders and this horrible Yellow Light! Horrible. Why did you bring me here?" "We need to rest for the upcoming days activities." the Doctor said. "Hah, ha, ha, hah!" I cackled. "Rest. The first time you've said that! Get rid of the boy!" and so the Doctor proceed, himself being waist high to the Wall Boy (for the Doctor was short, worth only mentioning once) and pushed with all might to lightly sway Wall Boy, unmoving, still standing. "I can't! Ack! You talk to him!" the Doctor said. "I ... have nothing to say, really. You talk to him." I replied. "He's human, he's vermin. I don't associate with this species." "I'm human." I said, dissapointed in myself. "No, you are the first genetic pool in the new species, Mark. Well, you have the stink, sure, but what a stink! And great plans! And what is even better, better, better? Not one inquiry you have interested yourself in for such plans. To be ripe: An insect never knows his cause, nor is an insect capable of knowing why it does what it does. To second guess, Mark, is the most defeating of all things that are Willing, Capable and Strong. You have second guessed yourself so much that you no longer wish yourself to be, and that is more Courage than any other Courage. I need someone with Courage, Mark." "We are stuck with him." I pointed at the Wall-Boy. "We are stuck with him." "Break the Light already! It smells!" I demanded. "I don't trust the boy." "What is there to mistrust? Throw it!" and with one big swooping motion the Doctor heaved up the book in a terrible fit of strength, barely throwing it with enough force, (for his height made a requisite of his weakness, only worth mentiong once) but enough, and so the Yellow Light Bulb busted with one quick pop of glass anticlimatingly, less than a second, and drop small shards on the carpet. It was done. How is it that when the things are done that need to be done for some sense of fulfillment, peace, tranquility, something else always arises? My problem was not a problem of what the Bald Doctor and I sensed just one second after our Bulb popped, but a problem with myself, still working and following the long trails that leak, spill and inervate with a parasites digging into an organ, working down into the belly. Though a Bulb may have been browken there was still light, goddamnit, god-fucking damnit, there was still a Yellow light coming in through the blinds and curtains of the motel room and shortly a sinking into my heart came to me of dread, senselessness, and futility in the face of a very hard fact. "Ack!!! I forgot about that!" the Doctor said now feeling this impeccable and perfect sense of absolute hostility. And so we looked out the window to see the Sun rising up slowly at the daybreak, hovering in small humbleness through a small mountain-town highlighting the geography: Our Yellow Light, and at that moment, one feels, no, I feel what is sacred to me of knowing and compensating what one fucking Light Bulb is to the billion light bulbs that shines every day, every day, every day, every day, ever day, ... ... "You fool! You've forgotten! I have too! One fucking Light Bulb among a billion! Fuck!" And claustrophobia crawled in my skin. Can't. breathe. Can't. get. fucking. out. This wheel-chair I sat in was no longer of use but to drag it by my hands to get. out. of. this. motel. room., this. building., out of the front door and in my purest sense shouted all curse and glory outside just off the small edge of this small hill, "Fuck! Fuck! Fuck this! Nothing ever, ever, never changes!" and through my wheel-chair down in a small ditch and collapsed into a pool of bones and flesh on the dirt and said hello to a famiiar feeling of despair. 'Hello, darkness my old friend.' There is no profanity that can be profane enough, I have learned through my years. There is no cursing and violation that can drown out the world. I've forgotten myself a bit more lying there in my puddle when I heard the Little Bald Doctor finally come out from the motel building, fancy my grief in this sunrise and touch and hold me on the shoulder, caring and with me. I knew now how he is always there. "What am I going to do now?" I said looking out into the Sun. "What am I going to do now." | ||
Alchemind
Albania142 Posts
--- A forth-night prior I slept for only two hours, myself waking after a period in which I didn't even feel like sleep, but you get to know the symptoms of insomnia personally, many insomniacs stating, "I didn't sleep" when clinicians have clearly seen them snoring for hours. I keep waking up, and when I do, the sleep prior was worthless in that I did not feel refreshed. This night, that accursed Little Bald Doctor awoke me, once more, with his clank-clankity, clank, clanks. "What in the bloody hell are you doing?" I walked into the kitchen and spotted my Little Bald Doctor on a kitchen chair with a bucket of rocks in hand and, what made my face look of irascible curiousity, a small, but adult, looking White Man standing beside the Little Bald Doctor. "Watch, Mark!" And the Little Bald Doctor began throwing small rocks at the White Man. The White Man began a small dance a 1900's jig, like small Irish boys might gambol at a festive wake. "I make him dance, Mark! Look at him go! Ack-ack-ack!" I stood and pondered this for a moment, my eyes heavy with fatigue and cynicism. The Little Bald Doctor continued, "But what's really AMAZING is when he dances when I'm NOT throwing rocks at him! He just dances! Look at him go! Dance, dance, Whitey! Ack-ack-ack!" "Well, it woke me from a great dream I was having!" I said with cross. "Oh, a pity, pity, Mark ... I should I have put this White Man's dance on silent, but it certainly wouldn't have been as much fun. What was this dream I woke you from?" the Little Bald Doctor asked. "It was short. It was two men I spyed on in a dark room, the background all shrouded in blackness. This one bloke was speaking, calmy, but firmly and with a certainty in his voice. He said, 'Adherence, allegiance; that is what it means to be a man, sir. A sense of responsibility to another man, a woman or child. Faithfulness and loyalty to something greater, that is a loyalty not only to them, but to yourself. That is what it means to be a real man.' He stopped and my attention went to the man sitting opposite of him. He looked at the convicted man, and as if he were interviewing this man in wanting to know what 'Loyalty' was, and said with a mixture of hope and doubt in his voice, 'Well, ... I'm glad you feel that way, sir. Because what may lay before you is called The Third Shift ... and I sincerely hope you can see yourself through it, sir', and it was at this point where you woke me!" "That dream didn't sound so great!" The Little Bald Doctor said annoyingly, and continued throwing rocks at the White Man. "Besides, this is much more entertaining!" "Do you know the meaning behind The Third Shift?" I asked. "Ack-ack-ack! If I were to guess, I, myself, would be a conjecture. That is all life! A conjecture ... than why trouble a conjecture?" I pondered this a for a bit, than I sat down on the kitchen floor solemnly and watched as the White Man danced. "Why this farce? Night in, night out ... " I asked. "You cannot sleep" the Bald Doctor replied. "And you cannot wake up from the dream you are in." I replied. "Life goes on. There are sometimes when the White Man comes aliv--" "A spider!" I interrupted the Little Bald Doctor. To my horror I saw a spider crawling along my kitchen walls! "Where!? Where!?" The Little Bald Doctor asked and hopped around frantically. "Behind you! Get him! NO, no, no, don't get him ... Ask if he has a permit first! I bet he doesn't, that incorrigible trespasser!" The Little Bald Doctor made haste and quickly to the chair and placed it under where the spider crawled. Standing uptop the chair, he muttered something unintelligible to the spider and put his ear up to it as if to listen. "He said he doesnt!" The Little Bald Doctor said. "GET HIM!" I ordered. But to my equal horror, the Little Bald Doctor raised his small hairless arm as if ready to swat and make muddy blood of the spider there on the wall. "What are you doing!?" "You told me to GET HIM!" "Don't kill him! Pick him up with your hand, carry him to the living room, roll open the window and throw him out!" "But its cold and snowy and icy outside! That's no enviroment for spider!" "Do it!" "But if I don't kill the spider he'll die!" "Do it!" I commanded, but soon our paniced frenzy was stopped and a surprise of all surprises amongst both the Little Bald Doctor and I the White Man came alive and spoke, "You fools! Haha!" And the White Man laughed heartily to which he could not contain and burst from the seems a ridiculous and virtuous laughter, as if making mock and poking fun at the Little Bald Doctor and your Humble Narrator. In an uninterrupted stream he spoke with a high and confident voice, bright like having a wisdom to be envied. " I can tell you BOTH the meaning of The Third Shift. YOU, Mark, have dreamed the dream of Man and his Dog, your dog, and the loving loyalty and respect we must give to each-other! Yes, you poor, poor folks without religion; being a blasphemy of religion!, but have you not heard the people calls beyond the texts? There is a common thread through-out religion and its people and for even the atheists and agnostics have spoken it too: A common spirituality of bonding through all religions and spiritualities; compassion, love, respect, kindness; THIS is what binds man and keeps him away from the eternal loneliness, the despair of emptiness, worthlessness, meaninglessness. But The Third Shift is the challenge and wakefulness that it is misery to be awake, but as the Greeks said, "Sleep is salvation." The Third Shift? It is a trial for the human wakefulness and awareness! For the more you are awake, the more you crave sleep and this sleep, blissful sleep, is a restoration and cyclical bonding to faith, our loving true faith. But you have no faith! No loyalty! Nothing to hold you to the human! I pity you, Mark. You must lead a miserable existence." The White Man stopped his speech, and as he done so the Little Bald Doctor and I looked at each-other inquisitively and erupted in laughter. "Ahahahahah!" I laughed, a tumbled over to my side in a hysterical fit of cacchination; my thoughts babbling incoherently and laugh until I couldn't breath, than laughed again, uncontrollably and wildly. "Ack-ack-ack-ack!!!" The Little Bald Doctor cackled a black insect laughter. "Ho-hum and the New Age gypsies!? Ack-ack-ack-ack! Poetry circles, yeah!? Ack-ack-ack-ack!!!" And he began throwing rocks at the White Man once more, "Dance! Dance!" And for the rest of the night, the Little Bald Doctor and I laughed a maniacal laughter while making the White Man dance, and as he threw rocks, I picked them up off the kitchen tiles and placed it back in his bucket so that he may have more rocks to throw. | ||
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