Treat this is as journal entry or whatever you will. This is simply a blog post(strange isn't it?).

So my summer so far has consisted of working 40 hours a week and chilling with a few friends when I have the time. I did the same thing last summer and it was equally horrible. I hate having to work, but what can ya do? It's 12:17am here and almost 30ºC still, which is nothing compared to the day if I look on the bright side, but still pretty gay. I'm sitting here with a fan pointing at me on high and I'm still sweating just sitting here. I just finished my 5 day working streak so I have tomorrow off which is nice. Today I had horrible luck though. I accidentally slept in this morning, being an hour late for work. I finally get to work, trip going up the fucking stairs, drop my lunch, have it blow up(it was a chicken pot pie

) all over the stairs, then I had to waste my lunch cleaning it up even though I didn't have time to eat this morning. So I'm still starving at work. Some idiot overstocks a 3L container of juice on the shelf, so my slightest movement makes it fall from the top shelf and blow up on my shoes. Once again, I have to clean it up. Great. Some idiot customer gets made at me for shit that isn't my fault and shortly after I walked around a corner and just about knocked some old lady down. I say sorry and she just stares at me. We were looking at eachother for like 10 seconds in awkwardness until I ask "uh... can I help you find anything today?" and she replies "no". My manager has been such a dick lately it's not even funny. Making my life a living hell... So overall, work sucks. I'm supposed to be able to have a week of vacation this year so I ask for it and apparently I don't get it anymore because the senior staff overrides mine instead or something. So much for taking a week trip down to vancouver to see some friends now. I'll be lucky to get 3 days off in a row. Fantastic... This chick at work obviously had the hots for me so I get her number eventually and ask her to hang out. No reply to texts or anything. I see her at work a couple days later and she seems into me still. wtf? stop teasing me bitch. ugh. I hate dealing with women. im not into playing hard to get or whatever. I've got like 2 [close] friends currently cause of all this drama between mutual friends and crap and its like all we do is get high. my life is so boring. i feel like such a loser -_-;; i cant even get past D+ this season on iccup, what the fuck is wrong with me? it honestly feels like I played really well half the time and dont know where i went wrong. ive been extremely depressed all week. maybe its because a lack of sleep or dealing with family or something but i just want to stay in bed all day tomorrow and not get up. i dont see anything changing anytime soon. i dont know why people say "money can't but happiness," cause I could sure as hell get out of so many situations right now if I had some. maybe i need to stop spending so much of my time on TL and SC. or at least for while. im really looking forward to getting my MBC Game Heroes hoodie this week, something to be happy about i guess. also, Lord)lw( lives near me so i'm gonna go chill with him on saturday for his birthday even though we've never met. should be fun.

so yeah, this is probably going to be the last thread i post in for a while. hopefully i can keep self control and dont need to be banned by request to prevent posting. i better change my homepage too.

sorry for the wall of text and not formatting my rant, i could care less though lol. thats what blogs are for

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Lemonwalrus

United States5465 Posts

July 28 2009 08:11 GMT

Sorry to hear that things are going so badly for you right now.

For what it's worth I hope things start getting better.

d(O.o)a

Canada5066 Posts

July 28 2009 08:12 GMT

Well, I think that your mood could have something to do with your failing at starcraft. I think a break would be good for your mental health and I look forward to your return

cosiant

Canada616 Posts

July 28 2009 08:19 GMT

You've been depressed ever since that fire which could have burned down your home but didn't. Atleast you have hot days in BC, here in Québec, it has been raining since the summer started.
Hope you get better.

Grobyc

Canada18410 Posts

July 28 2009 08:23 GMT

Still need to find something else to do in my spare time. I'd like to start working out, but I doubt I'll have the extra money and time to do it effectively. Basically, my hobbies include SC, TL, and getting high with friends lol. None of which are very productive to be honest. I'm gonna go have a freezing cold shower now.

Grobyc

Canada18410 Posts

July 28 2009 08:27 GMT

On July 28 2009 17:19 cosiant wrote:
You've been depressed ever since that fire which could have burned down your home but didn't. Atleast you have hot days in BC, here in Québec, it has been raining since the summer started.
Hope you get better.

I'm been pretty depressed since about a year ago, but it's just started to get worse in the last week or two. I don't think the fire has much to do with it, it didn't affect me too much. So many little stressful things have been popping up lately it just keeps on building up more and more.

I wish it would rain more here. My favourite weather is just pouring rain, that's one of the reasons why I was looking forward to having a trip to Vancouver so much tbh.

d(O.o)a

Canada5066 Posts

July 28 2009 08:32 GMT

On July 28 2009 17:23 Grobyc wrote:
Still need to find something else to do in my spare time. I'd like to start working out, but I doubt I'll have the extra money and time to do it effectively. Basically, my hobbies include SC, TL, and getting high with friends lol. None of which are very productive to be honest. I'm gonna go have a freezing cold shower now.

This is far from true actually, TV tries to brainwash you that you need machines to work out efficiently when you could actually do just fine without spending any money other than maybe on a pair of running shoes; you can work out simply by doing sit ups, push ups, jogging, and eating healthy.