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winlessplayer
Profile Blog Joined November 2018
43 Posts
April 19 2020 21:51 GMT
#1
I guess there is nothing to look forward to?

Nothing is appealing.

I can do pretty much anything I want.

I don't want anything.

Doing nothing destroys your brain, slow, bad temper, hazy memory.

I'm afraid of getting help.
I'm afraid they find out there is nothing wrong with me.

I've become that guy that does nothing but watch TV in his free time.
Except my TV is YouTube.
And that is starting to become a drag and a bore, as were books, games, streams, gym, alcohol, music...

Everything becomes stale.

Maybe it's just sloth.

Or, maybe, my brain has been fed too much "excited" chemicals.



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NewSunshine
Profile Joined July 2011
United States5938 Posts
April 20 2020 13:01 GMT
#2
Don't be so afraid to ask for help. Anyone struggling for any reason deserves legitimate help. It doesn't have to boil down to a testable disease, mental illness is just as real. If you can't get professional help, or if that's intimidating, find a friend, someone you can talk to. It all helps.

Hang in there.
"If you find yourself feeling lost, take pride in the accuracy of your feelings." - Night Vale
BisuDagger
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
Bisutopia19298 Posts
April 20 2020 14:56 GMT
#3
Open Unity and learn how to program. Nothing creates a better mental challenge while allowing you to create literally anything your mind can conceive.

Learn to program and start a family. You will be happy :D Message me if you need help coding.

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EsportsJohn
Profile Blog Joined June 2012
United States4883 Posts
April 21 2020 00:50 GMT
#4
"Now is only a moment in time, and remember that even if today is as bad as it gets, tomorrow will be better."

Shoulder on, my friend. Take it one day at a time. Don't let yourself believe this moment is forever because it's not.
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kogeT
Profile Joined September 2013
Poland2041 Posts
April 21 2020 13:28 GMT
#5
Hey winlessplayer

I can relate to you so much. For my the driving force is family, job, and.. commitments. What I mean is if I don't have any of those 3, I go into zombie mode for any given time. I mean 0 productivity and watching yt / playing games for fun etc.. I won't even improve in starcraft in those times unless there is a tournament or something, I would just play funny games.

What works for me is to commit to stuff as I always keep my word. So invite some friends over and commit to cooking a dinner.. or make an appointment to play some sports. Go for running with a friend. There has to be someone that counts on you, that way you will get some motivation. You can use that for anything really, but you need to have an appointment with someone that you don't want to let down. Then things will slowly start to improve.
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JoinTheRain
Profile Blog Joined September 2018
Bulgaria409 Posts
Last Edited: 2020-04-21 16:04:40
April 21 2020 16:00 GMT
#6
On April 20 2020 06:51 winlessplayer wrote:
Or, maybe, my brain has been fed too much "excited" chemicals.


Are you using amphetamines and/or ecstasy or some other form of mdma? What you're describing hits awfully close to withdrawal syndrome, imo.
I am not a psychiatrist but I think you should seek one. If you choose to do so, embrace all the help you can get your hands on. But I sincerely suggest you stay away from non-medical advice. Even when folks and close ones mean the best for us, they are not qualified to help and we should shun their suggestions on health issues. Even more so for mental health.
This might sound like a contradiction because I am giving you advice and simultaneously suggesting you stay away from non-medical advice. It is not a contradiction though. I am a medic, just not a psychiatrist. This is why I am allowing myself to point you in that direction.
And also - stay as far away as possible from psycho - therapy unless it is advised by a psychiatrist. As it turns out not all, but most psychotherapists are fraudulent and they will gladly pick your money while you receive nothing in return. However if a qualified medical specialist says he/she has a positive experience with a certain psychotherapist, you can give that a try.
Wish you all the best, friend! Have a swift recovery!
The subject-matter of the art of living is each person's own life.
linestein
Profile Blog Joined June 2018
United States210 Posts
April 21 2020 23:08 GMT
#7
I'm pretty sure most clinical psychologists aren't frauds. They're trained professionals with high level academic degrees and I think it is pretty questionable to doubt the practice of clinical psychology.
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