During my formative years, I only wrote with a gun to my head. Only for school and other "mandatory" tasks. I excelled at it, but never had any attachment to a piece. I saw writing as something to finish and not something to pour myself into.
This somewhat changed when I met the only teacher who ever taught me anything. Her name was Dr. Filak and she essentially taught me how to do less with more. How to show rather than tell. And other cliches i can't remember right now. I had her for 10th and 11th grade in high school. She was the only teacher I had for 2 years and I don't believe this happened by coincidence. I don't know if I chose her or if she chose me. But there was some choosies.
For those unfamiliar with AP Language and AP Literature scoring, you make a grade of 1-9 on an essay. I went from regularly scoring 4's and 5's to always scoring 8's and 9's thanks to her tutelage and much to the chagrin of my very much ex-girlfriend.. but that is another story. I started to view writing, especially in a timed fashion given a prompt, an art. Something that could be compared to food (back when foodies and instagram weren't things) or visual pieces.
In college I essentially wrote to survive whatever class I was writing for. I would allot 1 hour per page to complete a paper--no first draft, mind you, and the time allotted would literally expire at the deadline. As I mentioned, gun to my head.
Writing is something I love yet I cannot do it in a vacuum. I think something is wrong with my brain. Why does something I love require such teeth pulling? I haven't written purely for fun in years.
If you recognize my name, you probably know me from my sc2 guides in WoL. That was my creative outlet. For some reason I was relatively good at the game and could emulate, streamline and then perfect builds to their most perfect forms. I would spend hours grinding games against an easy ai in an empty lobby to nail timings down to their bones. And I wrote my guides the same way I wrote my papers. One sitting-- x amount of hours. One draft. Submit. Though mundane, I enjoyed the practice. SC2, unlike broodwar, has few variables between games. I hit the same pylon, gateway, gas, core timings 20+ times, for instance. I don't believe I could replicate this in brood war. I am currently trying to get good at BW so that I can write guides and share my findings with the rest of you but it is very hard to improve. Sometimes you lose and there is no lesson to be learned. Sometimes you win for no reason.
I am moving to a new apartment next year and plan on streaming my bw and wc3 play.
I wrote this because this is my 6000th post and I wanted to do something cool like the cool kids so I can sit at the cool kids table. Can I?