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Hey I can relate. I just fucked up a very important job interview that's indeed a fucking bad day . You seem like a really nice guy I hope you find your place eventually, Korean society seems really harsh though so i understand how hard it can be when you've been exposed to other cultures.
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Can't control myself from anger. My old days makes me more depressed. Have to do something so I can keep from going insane. I'm sorry to hear that you messed up your important job interview. I hope your interview goes well somehow. have a nice day.
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Rain fighting!
I hope you find something to make you happy and win the lottery!
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Are you able to get a student loan? It also sounds like you don't enjoy Korea but you know English, so you may as well try to go abroad at some point.
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I empathize with you, Rain. I hope things get brighter for you.
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On October 22 2013 17:12 Rain wrote: Can't control myself from anger.
On October 22 2013 17:12 Rain wrote: have a nice day.
Made me lol
Hope you find your place in the world dude, its hard but the first step is knowing that you have to. GL HF!
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Take it easy man. Life is hard, especially if you're trying to support yourself through university. Military service sounds particularly tough. I hope you feel better soon.
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You are a smart guy Rain, I am sure you can do almost anything you set your mind to. I am sorry that you are feeling down though.
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I was very young when I lived in Korea, so I don't exactly know much about this, but couldn't you take that military service as a time to sort things out? I understand you're back to schooling and all, but I imagine doing your mandatory military service would open new paths? Maybe businesses would be more likely to hire an individual who's gone through that already?
You're an open Korean individual, I think that your type of interaction with us foreigners is a huge benefit. You should look into coaching some of the new age of Korean pro gamers, not in games, but in public relations. One of the biggest problems some of us foreigners have with pro gamers in Korea is that they are hard to relate to, we don't hear about them, we can't understand them, etc. Players like yourself (though to be honest I did not start really following you until after you retired, I'm sad about that because you're a cool guy), MC, DongRaeGu all attempt to open yourselves to the foreign community. Since you are no longer playing competitively, you would be in a unique position to help others to embrace the foreigner community.
But that's all random thought. As someone who is in crippling debt because he went to school when he wasn't ready, I'm glad you seem to be looking at this all from a good mindset, regardless of the current hard times. Things will get better!
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Aww man. Life after progaming seems tough.
(Lol my iphone just tried to autocorrect "progaming" to "orphaning")
You have extremely good English but I guess that can only take you so far. That guy above me had a pretty good idea about working part time as like a pr coach for the Korean esports industry or for a team, I know that lots of us foreigner fans have thought that some players could really use something like that to increase their exposure and appeal, and that pretty much hits the bottom line for the teams. Kespa teams probably have people for this already but the esf and ex-esf teams probably don't, as well as the non-kespa lol teams.
On the other hand you probably aren't looking for that kind of advice, so just remember that you should always have an idea of where you want to go with your life, like a job or a family or whatever you want to eventually have, and then even if you're stuck for a while doing things you don't want to, it feels better if you can tell yourself it's for some better goal.
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On October 22 2013 23:43 strongandbig wrote: Aww man. Life after progaming seems tough.
(Lol my iphone just tried to autocorrect "progaming" to "orphaning")
You have extremely good English but I guess that can only take you so far. That guy above me had a pretty good idea about working part time as like a pr coach for the Korean esports industry or for a team, I know that lots of us foreigner fans have thought that some players could really use something like that to increase their exposure and appeal, and that pretty much hits the bottom line for the teams. Kespa teams probably have people for this already but the esf and ex-esf teams probably don't, as well as the non-kespa lol teams.
On the other hand you probably aren't looking for that kind of advice, so just remember that you should always have an idea of where you want to go with your life, like a job or a family or whatever you want to eventually have, and then even if you're stuck for a while doing things you don't want to, it feels better if you can tell yourself it's for some better goal. They're looking for sponsors first and foremost. Most of the players don't have salaries, there's no way they can afford to employ people for pr.
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Haha Rain, the weather will clear up.soon
Your English also got much better since your last blogs, so there's that to be happy about?
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United Kingdom31934 Posts
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I always believe in life the journey is more satisfying than the destination, Good Luck my friend.
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Today sucks aswell for me so worn out, stressed, confused. Last year of college trying to figure out what I wanna do after I graduate, work or graduate school(I really enjoy economics classes so I'm considering going further). Mid term week is stressful hopefully November will be a better month. Also I some how have no work experience which sucks so trying to get a crappy seasonal job at kohls or target or something, just to be able to put that on a resume. Oh and I fell in love with a girl, sadly I don't think that is going to go anywhere at this moment in time, even though I told her how I feel, and I just relaized that. Hoping things just get better as the day goes on. So thanks for the thread rain for me to vent haha.
And as for your stuff. It sucks when you go thing changes and life becomes different. Military service is looming above you so that must put pressure on you. I don't know much about Korean culture and stuff, but I am sure being a pro gamer and traveling to events and meeting people from other cultures has been eye opening. This is cliche, and I don't know how helpful it will be but for everyone having a bad day, hang in there things will happen the way they are suppose too for you.
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Rain, being a top pro gamer, you already accomplished more than almost anyone in the world at your age. Going forward into your post-gaming life, even without a strong education or tangible work skills, you are much smarter than most people, so you will do very well going back to studying. Good luck!
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Everyone has moments where they wonder what's going on with their lives. Just don't give up and remember you still have you're whole life ahead of you and your life isn't going to be the way it is forever. Gl and hope you feel better
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Hey Rain, man I envy you...to me you have it made and you describe how that is not so. To me my life is terrible. Seems to depend on who you ask. You have a bright future and everyone goes through tough times. Just keep at it, you have already shown you have talent and many accomplishments. Hang in there, you will find your way.
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Rain I have been spending so much time thinking, "what kind of company should I make?" --I want to be my own boss. But most of all I would like to not worry about money.
My solution is to find a way to build a money-making system. This way, I would make money from the system I built. Then I would only have to build one or two systems, and when they are complete, I would have enough money to survive for 50 or 60 years. Like famous actors, singers, or writers / authors, you can make something once (a movie, song, or book) and when the next person buys it you make money again.
It's difficult to figure out what kind of system would work. It is a bit like trying to build a perpetual motion machine.
This is my current goal. Because if I achieve this, there are so many other things I would like to do. I don't enjoy thinking "I have to do this to make money," but I think it is a better idea to try to build something instead of working for the next 40 years.
We have so much potential. It is a shame we are forced to make so much money just to eat, to survive, to live. Imagine what we could do if we had every day free to do what we want! We would all be famous artists and scientists, I like to think.
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Do you know what you want to do with your life, even a little bit?
I think it's valuable to do things you don't like to make money. It drives you to find what you do want to do with your life, and then it drives you to push yourself so you can do what you like.
It's good you are having this experience. I know it sucks, but as you say, it makes you think. You're still young so you have time, and you have university ahead of you still. That is a great time to find yourself.
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Take it easy there buddy. You're so young, everything will be fine.
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Korea (South)17174 Posts
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Recommendation: Research a term called Acculturative Stress. This is a type of stress commonly suffered by people who go through major life changes (eg: war veteran returning to peace time). Knowledge is power, and life benefits from strategy; just like SC2.
Keep your chin up. Don't be afraid to ask for help if you're really down. We all still love you. Your games are recorded for all of time. Good luck figuring out your next steps in life.
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Keep improving yourself personally and professionally.
Money will come.
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Why dont you just live abroad long term?
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Why do we have to pay to live on the planet we were born on?
You were not always a progamer, you will not always be a soldier, life is changing, thats the only constant there probably is.
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I'm curious as to what employers say or think when they see the resumes of former progamers.
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On October 23 2013 17:40 29 fps wrote: I'm curious as to what employers say or think when they see the resumes of former progamers.
I would like to think it might be pretty good. As a pro gamer you got to travel the world so that is pretty impressive. However what might hurt you is no college degree. At least in the US it seems like you need to get at least a BA/BS to get a decent job.
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Cheer up!! Your english is great!
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I feel better now thanks for all your advice and encouragement
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United States9662 Posts
this... isnt the SKT rain right.... jw.
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It's tough adjusting to typical life after having a job you found so rewarding, and which gave you purpose. I've gone through this a couple times myself when events in my life have changed my day to day life (moving, etc), and it has just taken time for me to find things I'm passionate about again. Do not make the mistake of thinking you'll never be able to work a lucrative job you are passionate about again. Instead, decide what you're excited about and just do it, and do whatever else to make money that you need to survive until you can sustain yourself with what you're excited about.
A lot of people are commenting on how good your english is. I agree. But not in the sense that you have perfect grammar or use all words correctly (there are a lot of mistakes). It's just really, really easy to understand what you are saying, even at an emotional level. Somehow you have an ability to write very eloquently in english. I don't know if you can speak it as well, but consider traveling in europe or something to learn more about what you want from the world and how your writing skills could help your job situation.
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I understand the crisis of having to work just for the sake of money. Ever since I found this video of Alan Watts, it has changed my life. + Show Spoiler + Find what you love in life, and do it.
I started taking steps to become an author, because life is wasted if it's for money.
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United States744 Posts
Hey man, some days are just shitty. I get them all the time. So does everyone else. Keep fighting through. You have the power to make your life what you want it to be. Don't let something like the culture bring you down. Remove yourself from the situation altogether if you have to. Nothing is more important than being happy.
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That is why I am against of young people giving up school trying to pursue a career in gaming. The years lost at that age worthed so much more than the money most people had earned.
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On October 23 2013 07:36 hp.Shell wrote:Rain I have been spending so much time thinking, "what kind of company should I make?" --I want to be my own boss. But most of all I would like to not worry about money. My solution is to find a way to build a money-making system. This way, I would make money from the system I built. Then I would only have to build one or two systems, and when they are complete, I would have enough money to survive for 50 or 60 years. Like famous actors, singers, or writers / authors, you can make something once (a movie, song, or book) and when the next person buys it you make money again. It's difficult to figure out what kind of system would work. It is a bit like trying to build a perpetual motion machine. This is my current goal. Because if I achieve this, there are so many other things I would like to do. I don't enjoy thinking "I have to do this to make money," but I think it is a better idea to try to build something instead of working for the next 40 years. We have so much potential. It is a shame we are forced to make so much money just to eat, to survive, to live. Imagine what we could do if we had every day free to do what we want! We would all be famous artists and scientists, I like to think. believe it or not there is actually a social theory built around this idea
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