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Rain
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
120 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-10-22 07:47:01
October 22 2013 07:32 GMT
#1
This is not part of my blogs but I'm just writing because I Just wanted to complain somewhere so please take into consideration.

In my opinion, especially for Korean players, the biggest problem is you got nothing to do after retiring from e-sports.
Some people might do coach or commentator but It's only for a few players who has a great career.
Since most of Korean players gave up their school to dedicate in gaming, after retiring it's really hard to go back to study.
Fortunately I decided to study and I have my goals.

In my case, I have pressure about military service which will take my 2 years and It makes me very stressful everyday because one day I have to do military service.
I took Korean GED to get high school diploma.
After that I moved to Seoul(capital) for studying English and went to institute for a couple of months, but it was expensive and I couldn't afford my life so I decided to stop for a while and start working.
when I was a progamer I really didn't have to care about money. I mostly liked my progaming life and I didn't know it was blessing that you can do what you want and make money.
Now I have to do things that I don't want just for money.

Since I've been hanging out with a lot of foreigner friends, I have changed a lot.
Korean cultures are sometimes unacceptable for me.
Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my time for small money.
Idk I just wanted to complain somewhere where my friends can't see my post.
Once I started to care about money and tuition for university in my future, everything feels so stressful.
So I buy 2 lotteries when I got drunk lol.

.
I'll probably delete this post whenever I feel okay.
Anyway thanks for reading.
Have a nice day.



****
Life is not easy, sometimes you need to realize you gotta pack your bags and go back to the real world before you're old and broke with no education.
Jetaap
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
France4814 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-10-22 07:54:32
October 22 2013 07:54 GMT
#2
Hey I can relate. I just fucked up a very important job interview that's indeed a fucking bad day .
You seem like a really nice guy I hope you find your place eventually, Korean society seems really harsh though so i understand how hard it can be when you've been exposed to other cultures.
Rain
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
120 Posts
October 22 2013 08:12 GMT
#3
Can't control myself from anger.
My old days makes me more depressed.
Have to do something so I can keep from going insane.
I'm sorry to hear that you messed up your important job interview.
I hope your interview goes well somehow.
have a nice day.
Life is not easy, sometimes you need to realize you gotta pack your bags and go back to the real world before you're old and broke with no education.
Pandemona *
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Charlie Sheens House51493 Posts
October 22 2013 08:16 GMT
#4
Aww poor Rain
You can always come back to pro gaming! Maybe not now, but you can practice for the new expansion and maybe come back or even try a new ESPORT.

Or with how good your English is you could go and try and sturdy in America/England where it seems to be a little less stressful.

Good luck on your Lottery tickets :D
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Deleuze
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
United Kingdom2102 Posts
October 22 2013 08:33 GMT
#5
Rain fighting!

I hope you find something to make you happy and win the lottery!
“An image of thought called philosophy has been formed historically and it effectively stops people from thinking.” ― Gilles Deleuze, Dialogues II
Shield
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
Bulgaria4824 Posts
October 22 2013 08:47 GMT
#6
Are you able to get a student loan? It also sounds like you don't enjoy Korea but you know English, so you may as well try to go abroad at some point.
deathgod6
Profile Blog Joined January 2008
United States5064 Posts
October 22 2013 09:16 GMT
#7
I empathize with you, Rain. I hope things get brighter for you.
4.0 GPA = A rank 5.0 GPA = Olympic --------- Bisu, Best, Fantasy. i ♥ oov. They can get in my BoxeR anyday.
Ender985
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
Spain910 Posts
October 22 2013 09:52 GMT
#8
On October 22 2013 17:12 Rain wrote:
Can't control myself from anger.


On October 22 2013 17:12 Rain wrote:
have a nice day.


Made me lol

Hope you find your place in the world dude, its hard but the first step is knowing that you have to. GL HF!
Member of the Pirate Party - direct democracy, institutional transparency, and freedom of information
Subversive
Profile Joined October 2009
Australia2229 Posts
October 22 2013 10:25 GMT
#9
Take it easy man. Life is hard, especially if you're trying to support yourself through university. Military service sounds particularly tough. I hope you feel better soon.
#1 Great fan ~ // Khan // FlaSh // JangBi // EffOrt //
JacobShock
Profile Blog Joined April 2012
Denmark2485 Posts
October 22 2013 11:55 GMT
#10
You are a smart guy Rain, I am sure you can do almost anything you set your mind to. I am sorry that you are feeling down though.
"Right on" - Morrow
Noobity
Profile Blog Joined February 2011
United States871 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-10-22 12:01:20
October 22 2013 12:00 GMT
#11
I was very young when I lived in Korea, so I don't exactly know much about this, but couldn't you take that military service as a time to sort things out? I understand you're back to schooling and all, but I imagine doing your mandatory military service would open new paths? Maybe businesses would be more likely to hire an individual who's gone through that already?

You're an open Korean individual, I think that your type of interaction with us foreigners is a huge benefit. You should look into coaching some of the new age of Korean pro gamers, not in games, but in public relations. One of the biggest problems some of us foreigners have with pro gamers in Korea is that they are hard to relate to, we don't hear about them, we can't understand them, etc. Players like yourself (though to be honest I did not start really following you until after you retired, I'm sad about that because you're a cool guy), MC, DongRaeGu all attempt to open yourselves to the foreign community. Since you are no longer playing competitively, you would be in a unique position to help others to embrace the foreigner community.

But that's all random thought. As someone who is in crippling debt because he went to school when he wasn't ready, I'm glad you seem to be looking at this all from a good mindset, regardless of the current hard times. Things will get better!
My name is Mike, and statistically, yours is not.
strongandbig
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
United States4858 Posts
October 22 2013 14:43 GMT
#12
Aww man. Life after progaming seems tough.

(Lol my iphone just tried to autocorrect "progaming" to "orphaning")

You have extremely good English but I guess that can only take you so far. That guy above me had a pretty good idea about working part time as like a pr coach for the Korean esports industry or for a team, I know that lots of us foreigner fans have thought that some players could really use something like that to increase their exposure and appeal, and that pretty much hits the bottom line for the teams. Kespa teams probably have people for this already but the esf and ex-esf teams probably don't, as well as the non-kespa lol teams.

On the other hand you probably aren't looking for that kind of advice, so just remember that you should always have an idea of where you want to go with your life, like a job or a family or whatever you want to eventually have, and then even if you're stuck for a while doing things you don't want to, it feels better if you can tell yourself it's for some better goal.
"It's the torso" "only more so!"
Subversive
Profile Joined October 2009
Australia2229 Posts
October 22 2013 15:24 GMT
#13
On October 22 2013 23:43 strongandbig wrote:
Aww man. Life after progaming seems tough.

(Lol my iphone just tried to autocorrect "progaming" to "orphaning")

You have extremely good English but I guess that can only take you so far. That guy above me had a pretty good idea about working part time as like a pr coach for the Korean esports industry or for a team, I know that lots of us foreigner fans have thought that some players could really use something like that to increase their exposure and appeal, and that pretty much hits the bottom line for the teams. Kespa teams probably have people for this already but the esf and ex-esf teams probably don't, as well as the non-kespa lol teams.

On the other hand you probably aren't looking for that kind of advice, so just remember that you should always have an idea of where you want to go with your life, like a job or a family or whatever you want to eventually have, and then even if you're stuck for a while doing things you don't want to, it feels better if you can tell yourself it's for some better goal.

They're looking for sponsors first and foremost. Most of the players don't have salaries, there's no way they can afford to employ people for pr.
#1 Great fan ~ // Khan // FlaSh // JangBi // EffOrt //
Ketch
Profile Joined October 2010
Netherlands7285 Posts
October 22 2013 15:59 GMT
#14
Haha Rain, the weather will clear up.soon

Your English also got much better since your last blogs, so there's that to be happy about?
GumBa
Profile Blog Joined July 2012
United Kingdom31935 Posts
October 22 2013 16:08 GMT
#15
Chin up Rain!
To all the haters: you deserve to witness many, many more Serral victories, worthy of the godlike player he is.
NeuroticPsychosis
Profile Blog Joined September 2013
United States322 Posts
October 22 2013 16:24 GMT
#16
I always believe in life the journey is more satisfying than the destination, Good Luck my friend.
intricate, elaborate, articulate, crystallize, conceptualize, synthesize
HeeroFX
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
United States2704 Posts
October 22 2013 16:50 GMT
#17
Today sucks aswell for me so worn out, stressed, confused. Last year of college trying to figure out what I wanna do after I graduate, work or graduate school(I really enjoy economics classes so I'm considering going further). Mid term week is stressful hopefully November will be a better month. Also I some how have no work experience which sucks so trying to get a crappy seasonal job at kohls or target or something, just to be able to put that on a resume. Oh and I fell in love with a girl, sadly I don't think that is going to go anywhere at this moment in time, even though I told her how I feel, and I just relaized that. Hoping things just get better as the day goes on. So thanks for the thread rain for me to vent haha.


And as for your stuff. It sucks when you go thing changes and life becomes different. Military service is looming above you so that must put pressure on you. I don't know much about Korean culture and stuff, but I am sure being a pro gamer and traveling to events and meeting people from other cultures has been eye opening. This is cliche, and I don't know how helpful it will be but for everyone having a bad day, hang in there things will happen the way they are suppose too for you.
Chairman Ray
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
United States11903 Posts
October 22 2013 19:17 GMT
#18
Rain, being a top pro gamer, you already accomplished more than almost anyone in the world at your age. Going forward into your post-gaming life, even without a strong education or tangible work skills, you are much smarter than most people, so you will do very well going back to studying. Good luck!
Karis Vas Ryaar
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
United States4396 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-10-22 19:45:06
October 22 2013 19:43 GMT
#19
Everyone has moments where they wonder what's going on with their lives. Just don't give up and remember you still have you're whole life ahead of you and your life isn't going to be the way it is forever. Gl and hope you feel better
"I'm not agreeing with a lot of Virus's decisions but they are working" Tasteless. Ipl4 Losers Bracket Virus 2-1 Maru
operwolf
Profile Joined April 2008
United States324 Posts
October 22 2013 20:20 GMT
#20
Hey Rain, man I envy you...to me you have it made and you describe how that is not so. To me my life is terrible. Seems to depend on who you ask. You have a bright future and everyone goes through tough times. Just keep at it, you have already shown you have talent and many accomplishments. Hang in there, you will find your way.
He'll end up dead, because he'll die.
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