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Bswhunter
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
Australia954 Posts
August 17 2012 09:55 GMT
#1
Hey TL. I really don't know where to go with this issue. I really have no idea where to start fixing it. I am seeing a psychologist, but that happens once a month, and its going to be a couple of weeks still I see her again.
Basicly I've been noticing I have a tendency to slip into a sad state where I feel 'depressed' (I use this term lightly, because real depression is probally much worse). Anyway, in these states, I don't feel like eating or doing anything, everything seems to be irritating and annoying and I don't feel I relate to anyone.
In these states I seem to go futher and futher into myself, just constantly overthinking everything and feeling worse and worse.
And then, I seem to snap. The anger rises and I feel 'awakened'. I feel smarter, stronger and more content. Instead of wanting to hide from the world, I want to change it and make something with it. More importantly, I feel like I have the abillity to do so.

If I had it my way, I would be in the latter state the majority of the time. Unfornately it only seems to happen after going through the first part.
Does anyone have any idea of what the hell is wrong with me?

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Arcanefrost
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
Belgium1257 Posts
August 17 2012 10:11 GMT
#2
sounds like manic-depressive disorder
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PrinceXizor
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
United States17713 Posts
August 17 2012 10:18 GMT
#3
as a manic depressive. yeah it's similar sounding to it. a few questions:

does it affect you physically? are you more energetic and physical when manic (the 'awakened') state and more tired and lethargic when depressed?

usually the mania or depression last a few days to a few weeks at a time.
felisconcolori
Profile Blog Joined October 2011
United States6168 Posts
August 17 2012 10:31 GMT
#4
Certainly sounds like potential bipolar disorder (aka, manic depressive) but, keeping in mind that we're not doctors, you should absolutely bring this up with your psychologist when you see them next. (Or, if it becomes very distressing, give them a call and see if maybe they can sneak you in early.)

When you, be sure to mention the entire cycle of symptoms you're experiencing. If it is a bipolar disorder or related issue, they may suggest some medication. This is where having the full cycle is important - a friend of mine was diagnosed as depressive during the "down" phase of bipolar disorder, and was taking a strong anti-depressant. Guess what happened when she hit the "up" phase of the disorder?
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Probe1
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
United States17920 Posts
August 17 2012 10:53 GMT
#5
Sounds like halitosis. Bring up these concerns with your psychologist mano, the internet is not even remotely a replacement. Yes, it very much sounds like both bipolar disorder and manic depression. But we don't know you and I'm going to guess none of us are licensed, practicing psychologists.

Please talk to your psychologist and try to have a meeting scheduled earlier.
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Bswhunter
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
Australia954 Posts
August 17 2012 11:23 GMT
#6
On August 17 2012 19:18 PrinceXizor wrote:
as a manic depressive. yeah it's similar sounding to it. a few questions:

does it affect you physically? are you more energetic and physical when manic (the 'awakened') state and more tired and lethargic when depressed?

usually the mania or depression last a few days to a few weeks at a time.

Yeah it does affect me physically, I feel much more comfortable when manic.
Question, if it is this disorder, what will I be like if its "cured"? What will my mindstate be like?
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GMarshal
Profile Blog Joined March 2010
United States22154 Posts
August 17 2012 11:30 GMT
#7
See a doctor/psychologist, they will be much more capable of diagnosis than a random internet forum. They'd also be able to give you whatever treatment is appropriate. If you really are maniac depressive the medication will supposedly keep you at a happy medium between being depressed and maniac, so you won't be constantly in overdrive, nor will you be constantly depressed.
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bITt.mAN
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
Switzerland3693 Posts
August 17 2012 11:47 GMT
#8
I've got somewhat different struggles and experiences than you, but I assure you - dedicating your time and being diligent, working hard at something that causes you to GROW is very important. Basically, compettitive computer games are nice and all, but ultimately having virtual points online isn't as beneficial as having trained most other pursuits(physical, academic, languages etc.), which are actually hard, and demanding. Yes it can be tough training to get some wins online, but wouldn't you rather train to win IN LIFE? S: dun do wut I did

I just pray it doesn't end up controlling your life my blog on a similar matter
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PointyShoes
Profile Blog Joined August 2012
Northern Ireland20 Posts
August 17 2012 11:47 GMT
#9
You're better off just talking to your psychologist about it, they're trained to diagnose these things. Self-diagnosing can be problematic as you might miss something that a trained professional wouldn't.

Also, if you start believing you have a disorder it's easy for the mind to fit certain feelings and events into your perceived idea of the disorder making you think there's more wrong with you than there really is. Like if you think you have bipolar disorder you might think that the fact you talk really quickly is a symptom of this but in reality you just talk really fast.

I'm not saying there isn't anything wrong with you just that I wouldn't be so willing to put it down so quickly to a mood disorder or anything serious either sometimes these things just happen due to stress or general dissatisfaction with life opportunities.

Just take the attitude that you're mentally healthy until professionally told otherwise and even then get a second opinion because labeling can have very powerful effects.
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Suc
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
Australia1569 Posts
August 17 2012 13:31 GMT
#10
Sounds like Architeuthis Dux or maybe Mesonychoteuthis Hamiltoni, also known as go see someone who actually knows what they're talking about because I just listed giant squid names. Sure, it's entirely possible that some people on here might be correct or give good advice, but don't stake your mental health on it.

Keep going to the psychologist and since I see that you're in Australia as well, I'd say try looking up Beyond Blue or some of those depression support initiative things. They might still help even if you're not "depressed".

Being depressed is a pain in the dick, I know from being depressed myself. As you say, you might not be depressed, but my main point is to just flipping find out from someone who will be able to discern your condition, not a bunch of people on the internet.

Also, I found that I was really introspective when I was depressed and to be honest the only way I kind of got over it was through understanding my internal problems, there's only so much people on the outside can do. However, that's not to say that others can't help, they can do a lot.

Final reminder: According to my first piece of advice, I, as a random person on the internet, could be giving you incorrect advice and hence you should probably not listen to that as it may not be right for you. The one thing you should definitely do is, again, just see someone who can actually help.
itsjustatank
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
Hong Kong9165 Posts
August 17 2012 16:33 GMT
#11
Go to a medical professional immediately and stop reading forum diagnoses of what may or may not be wrong with you by random people without medical licenses.
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xmungam
Profile Joined July 2012
United States1050 Posts
August 18 2012 08:28 GMT
#12
http://www.scientificamerican.com/article.cfm?id=what-internet-habits-say-about-mental-health
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